Chapter Ten~ Bottled up feelings(2)

"Hmm...speaking of hanging...how about you take your own advice for once?"she asks brows raised

"What do you mean?" I ask not entirely sure what she means

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"My brother has been waiting for too long, don't you think?" Sara asks smiling slightly, "you have moved on Kara...I can see it on your face".she looks at me

"I am not too sure about my feelings for him yet!" I counter evading her face

"And even if you're scared to take things to the next level with Alex, I would understand...but I see now that you like him ALOT. But are too scared to say it out loud" she said squeezing my arm.

"I'm a little scared.." I say quietly which is an understatement because i am ALOT scared

"Do you like 'like' him?" She asks her eyes shining

"Honestly I do feel something for him! Deep down I know he'll be worth the risk...but don't you think that...our history is..." I pause looking for the right words to describe it

"What?" She tilts her head

"A little complicated MAYBE?" I say and ask at the same time

"How?"she asks confused

"We go way back, YOU AND I have been BFFs for far too long...he's always been apart of my life through you and... I don't wanna jeopardize ANYTHING! Just because...I don't know...maybe I'm being paranoid", I rub my neck. "You know I hate to say it but..wh...what if it doesn't work out between us?? He knows so much about me and I'm still at a stage where I'm getting to know him.. he knows about Blake and so much more". I sigh finishing

"That doesn't matter!! He's not one of those guys and you know it babe!" She says and she's right I do know it.

"In a way he did give me strength just like you.." I say thoughtfully

"And he stood by your side too" she adds smiling cheekily

"Yes. I guess what I'm trying to say is..we are all closely connected...and a thought of jeopardizing or losing what we have just scares the shit outta me".I frown.

I don't want to lose either of them.

"Well...if you know we are all closely related, which 'WE ARE OF COURSE' then...why not take the risk?"she asks looking at me like I'm stupid

"Huh?" I ask pretty much confirming the stupid thing

"Yes, we won't let anything happen. You are just being paranoid honey!"she laughs and I narrow my eyes

"YOUR WORDS NOT MINE" she laughs raising her hands in surrender. "Final question. You think he's worth the risk??"

I shrug chuckling, "I think"

"Idiot!"she slaps my arm laughing, "you do like him! Now..just let him know okay?"she smiles

"Ok, I will" I say nurturing my arm

"Good!!"

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Sara bailed on me to study and I had to ask Alex for help. Ever since she told Max about her decision she has been spending way too much time with him. I'm really happy for her..but it's twice in a week. She bailed first then suggested I should take Alex's help. I know what she's trying to do...SHE is trying to corner me so I would have no choice but to talk to Alex!. After all it's been two weeks since that conversation with Sara. I'm just waiting for the right moment to tell him.

Anywayyy... I have lots to do before Alex comes. I am making sure all my pending task are finished before I start studying...so I came to the kitchen to finish the last 'TASK OF THE DAY'. Once I'm done I head to my room to take a shower.

Half hour after

"I feel so good" I say coming downstairs. "All this cleaning had me really exhausted. I'm gonna hit the couch now!"

*Doorbell rings*

"Guess Alex is here"I say moving to the door

"Hey beautiful" he says when I open the door. He looks really good in a green sweater with black jeans and he's holding flowers.

"Ooh you brought flowers" I say taking them from him. Daffodils, my favorite. I sniff them

"Well since you like them"he tucks his hands in his pockets

"Yes, thanks. I love them" I smile. "But you do know we are here to STUDY only. You are supposed to help me in MATHS?"I say

He laughs, "Yes yes that too!". God I love his voice! It's so smooth and silky.

"Good!" I say

"Now...can I come in?"he asks laughing lightly

"Oh sorry, sure" I  blush moving away for him to step in

"Lovely House! So much has changed since I last visited". He says once he enters, looking round.

"Yes, it was years ago if you remember" I say shutting the door behind him

"I remember... Your dad just met me on my way up here.. had a nice little chat, he was in a hurry". He says sitting on the couch

"Yeah, he had to rush to a meeting"I add joining him

"Called by the duty"he jokes. "It was nice meeting him"

"Yep he wanted to meet you too ever since you moved back"

"Next time!"he smiles

"Yes. I'll get you some coffee" I say standing, "Please make yourself at home"

"No need to be formal. I will anyway...feels like home here" he says snuggling into the couch

I chuckle, "You will? Why?" I head to the kitchen

"Because it's yours, duhh!!" He says amused. He makes me so giddy!

I roll my eyes at him exiting the kitchen, he laughs.

"Here's your coffee" I say handing him the cup

"Thanks" he smiles taking a sip

"Shall we start?"I ask settling into the floor

"Sure, what can I do for you?"he asks

"There are a few problems I can get through my head...PLEASE see"I say giving him the book

"Wait. I'll come down" he settles himself on the floor, sitting too close for me to concentrate JUST on studying

"Give me the pen?"he says

"Umm..here"I stretch my arm and he takes it

"Let me see... It should be.. honestly I do feel a little rusty now that I'm actually seeing it"he chuckles

I laugh" take your time"

"Coffee is nice BTW, you made it?"he asks

"Nope!"I say popping the 'p'

"Hmm?"he hums with raise brows

"We have a ghost living in the house, she made it for you"I say sarcastically

He laughs a full bellied laugh

"Well..if that's the case then I'm GLAD"he says smiling

"Why glad?"I ask