Chapter Nine~ Bottled up feelings
*present day*
Why do I feel so giddy around him...beats me. I realised something very important THAT night. Not too sure if it's okay to acknowledge these feelings 'out loud yet'. Fortunately Blake has stopped bothering me after last week's fight with Alex. I'm sure he has learned his lesson by now and will never even lift an eye on me again. "What's over is over"
Sara was so pissed when I told her. I guess all hope that he would change for the better has left the building.
Half hour later
Sara was supposed to come so we could prepare for our test... given she may have bailed on me...I send her a text reminding her. A few minutes later she replies, "I'm coming over to your place in an hour"
"Finally!" I say getting my books ready. I look at the clock," I still have time for a power nap"I yawn laying on the couch.
45 mins later
The consistent ringing of the door bell wakes me up and I go open the door.
"Hey girl"Sara waves
I bow down as I say," thank you for honouring me with your presence "my lady"!!"
"Huh?"her face squishes in confusion
"Look at your face!", I laugh. "Come on in...you know we have lots to do...and you're late"she enters shutting the door behind her. "Although I got to take a nap so I'm kinda not mad"I grin while stretching
"Excuse me!!! I had a very good reason for being late" she says with a roll of her eyes
"Uh huh! You do know finals are near and I hate to break it to you but we aren't the brightest students of all time" I glance at her saying the last part
She flips her hair,"I'm pretty fabulous, can't say anything about you though" she laughs
"Oh my God! You better not say that again!" I lightly slap her arm
"Hehe...and why?"she asks
"Because I'm mostly the one helping you with SATs"I emphasize
"Ohh yeah...right!"she looks down rubbing the back of her neck then suddenly looks at me with a Cheshire cats grin on her face. "Buttt I helped you in something much bigger AND valuable...you know?"
"Which is what exactly?" I ask with no idea to what she's talking about
"Oh my God!"she says partly exasperated and in shock. "You are such a..."she throws her hands up in the air, "I won't even say it!"
"Huh? Spill it"I say
"Nope!"she grins enjoying this
"Why not?"I whine
"Because you are one heck of an ungrateful BFF" she says with a serious expression
"Wait. WHAT??? I'm an ungrateful BFF"I ask shocked and confused
"Uh huh"she says with a smile on her face
"I WILL KILL YOU!!" I say relaxing a bit knowing she was joking. She laughs
"Anywayyy...do you wanna study or not?" I ask settling down
"Ok but first.."she drawls
Ugh!! I sigh. At this rate we won't study much. "Now what?"I ask already annoyed
"COFFEE!!"she grins slyly and I laugh
"I have it prepared, don't worry!"I say for reassurance
"Then what are we waiting for?"she asks like I'm the one keeping us from studying. I roll my eyes as we begin.
2 hours later
"All done!"Sara says slumping into her chair
"I feel great but mostly tired"I grin stretching my muscles
"Let's close the books. I wanna talk to you about something" Sara says. I was a little distracted so I didn't hear what she said.
"Hello?kara?"she claps her hand
"Hmm? I didn't hear ya, sorry"I reply
"Thinking about something? Or shall I say someone?"she grins wiggling her brows
I laugh, "Nah..what were you saying?"I redirect her attention, then remember she didn't tell me why she was late, "Oh wait! Why were you late again?"I ask
"Yep! That's what I wanna talk about"she sits up from her chair fidgeting
"Okay...! You look a little nervous, all good?"I ask concerned
She breathes in and then out,"Ahh...yes actually I'm a little nervous and I need your opinion"she looks in my direction
"Hmm...why do I have a feeling it's something related to Max?"I ask moving closer to her
She smiles, "that's why we are BFFs, you always know. I..umm..okay here I go"she said taking a deep breath, "he kinda asked me to move in with him once we are done with our senior year and I haven't given him any answer yet". She says all in one breadth
"BREATHE",I say gently and she exhales loudly then I go over what she says in my head. "Wait...OH MY GODDD!!! He asked you to move in?? That is so FRICKING AWESOME!!" I scream jumping, excited for her.
"Huh!"she says still suffering the after effect of my scream.
"Yeah, why...what? Wait aren't you...HAPPY?"I ask my excitement slowly dissolving
"It's not THAT...I AM sooo much"she musters a smile
"But??" I ask tentatively knowing there's gonna be a but
"I...Am just.."she stops then starts twisting her fingers together
"What?"I ask probing her to continue
"I soo want to move in with him...he is THE ONE for me...I know THAT for sure"she says
I nod understanding her now. "I GET IT! You're scared" I say
"Okayyy...THAT is very much true!! You know me"she snickers
"I know you way too well and you know it. And it's ok to feel scared you know...it's a big step no, a huge step" I grin opening my arms wide showing her how huge it is and she laughs. "but ...I AM sure he's worth all the risk"I end my speech
"He gave me till finals to decide"she says after a moment
"What are you waiting for then?? You do wanna move in with him, RIGHT?"I ask giving her shoulders a slight shake
"Yes"she whispers
"Then?"I ask not seeing the issue here. I watch as she ponders
"Yes yes THANKS!!"she smiles brightly pulling me in for a hug
I laugh hugging her back tightly then pull away. "Then you should tell him, don't leave him hanging. He really loves you!" I tell her looking into her eyes
"You're right...I won't...not for long at least"she grins
God! this girl can be exhausting. "FINE! You can take a day or two before telling him, ok?" I say chuckling before adding "YOU ARE SUCH A TEASE"
"Guilty as charged!"she chuckles too
"Silly girl! I'm so happy for you both!!" I really am. "And I am so glad you met Max" I add
She smiles, "I knew I'd feel better after talking to you...I'll talk home after exams" she says her smile dimming
"I'm positive that they will support you both in your decision" I say in reassurance. Her family already treats Max like a son
"Hmm...speaking of hanging...how about you take your own advice for once?"she asks brows raised
"What do you mean?" I ask not entirely sure what she means