Lost Passage: Jenna

Since grade school, I've been a fan of the BL series and books. I can still remember the first series that I watched and I got hooked. Watching and reading those kinds of love stories made me realize that love between men is as colorful as the rainbow. But being obsessed with boy's love also got me into a lot of trouble. My mom used to scold me every time she catches me binge-watching a series instead of working on my homework. I always score below average on exams a day after not getting much sleep and setting aside studies.

Everything changed, I guess, during high school when I met my best friend Kristofer. He's so smart, diligent, and kind of cute. His character reminds me of those protagonists from the stories and series that I've seen. But he was a loner. I don't know what it is, but something about him made me want to befriend him. So I did my best to get close to him. My persistence and irresistible charm made me his best friend and only friend until Niko joined our gang. He protected Kristofer from bullies and annoyed me a lot. I want to think that he can become Kristofer's love interest in my fantasy world but he is too lame to be one. Throughout our younger years, I called Kristofer different nicknames since 'Kristofer' got a lot of syllables in it. I used to call him 'Tope' but he doesn't like it so I only use it once in a while.

When we got into college, all of us gone through puberty and we all glammed up. I locked my BL dream for Kris since no one can match his charisma. I thought it will be forever forgotten but it came to life when Luke Fuentabella came to our school. He's a perfect match for my best friend. I wanted to make a move for them to get close to each other but it seemed like destiny wanted them to be together.

I kept my eyes on them taking notes on their interactions, conversations, and mishaps. The two of them brought my BL dream to reality so I decided to write them a story. A story that I can share with everyone who is like me, a BL lover.

Kris always stops me from daydreaming about them. When I want to write, I always ask him to tell me some details of his interaction with Luke, but he always turned my requests down. So what I did is, watched them closely and got information as much as possible. I'm writing my story before I sleep so Kris won't notice that I'm keeping my fantasy alive.

I'm only preoccupied with thoughts of what could be next to my story. Then Alex came into my life. He's childish, immature, and annoying. But he's the only one who made me feel wanted and loved. What shocked me the most was that he's Luke's half-brother. His persistence and cute acts for me to notice him made me fall for him. He may be immature at times but he's a great guy. He makes me happy and that's what matters to me most.

I got a cute boyfriend, a smart best friend, and cool friends. They made my life happier. So what's next?

I thought finishing my story will be my next goal. With Alex's help, I was able to complete the draft of my story. I wanted Kris and Luke to read it first so I decided to send them copies of it but I'm still thinking about when should I do it.

Tonight, we all gathered up here in Luke's former home which he had turned into a beautiful villa at a beachfront. We are celebrating our gains and all of the good things that happened. We were watching the fireworks display when I thought of something.

"Should I give it to them?" I asked Alex who had his arm around my shoulders as we watched the fireworks.

"You mean... the draft?" He asked.

"Yes... Everyone was in a good mood so I think this is a great opportunity for me to give it to them..."

"Hmmm... I guess you're right... Let me get those..." He said then made his way inside the villa to get the draft from our room.

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We were on our way back inside the villa when I approached Luke and Kris.

"Hi, guys! Can I talk to you for a second?" I asked.

"Yeah! What is it?" Kris asked.

"Uhm... You do know that I'm a fan of BL and witnessing your love for each other made me so into it that I even started to write a story..."

"Oh! Yeah! How was it?" Kris asked.

"Well..." I uttered then handed over the copy of the draft.

"I finally completed it and I want you guys to read it first... Since it's your story..."

"Oh? I thought you're writing about a prince that got lost and met another prince that became the love of his life..." Kris said.

"I changed it... I thought... I don't need to make you princes to make it a fairytale... You guys are a living fairytale..."

"Can I have a copy as well? I'm interested..." Luke asked.

"Sure... I have another one here ready for you..." I said as I gave him his copy.

"So what's your plan?" Kris asked.

"Hmmm... After I got your comments and thoughts about it, I will publish it online..."

"That's a great idea... That way a lot will have a chance to read it and recommend it to others... You'll be popular in no time..." Kris said excitedly.

"Uhm... I'll publish it online because it's free... You know..."

Both of them chuckled after I said that and I don't know what's funny about it.

"I see... I see..." Luke uttered.

"Okay... I'll read it then I'll tell you my thoughts..." Kris said as he stopped giggling.

"Thanks... Uh... Can I ask another favor?" I asked.

"Sure..." Luke uttered.

"After you read it... Can you think of a title for it? I haven't decided on a title yet..."

"Oh!" Kris uttered and looked at the blank front page.

"I listed some but none of them sounds right..."

"Let us hear 'em..." Luke insisted.

"Uhm... For the first one, I got... '#TopeLuke'... You know, both of your names together... It's Kris's nickname actually... 'Tope'... "

"No... That won't work..." Kris disagreed immediately.

"How about... 'Seducing Mr.Rich Guy'?"

"I didn't seduce him..." Kris said as he snorted.

"I don't want to be regarded as 'rich', I don't like it..." Luke said in a straight tone. This is bad.

"I guess that's not it then... How about this one... 'Naked Attraction'..."

"What are you writing? Porn?" Kris teased me.

"I told you none of these sounds right..." I said feeling bad for coming up with those titles.

"So please help me think of a perfect one..." I added.

"Sure... We'll do it... We'll let you know once we came up with something..." Luke said.

"Thank you, guys!" I said.

Luke nodded and excused himself.

"Oh! We're going to have ice cream inside... Do you want to join us?" Kris asked.

"No... I'm fine... I'll stay here for a while..."

"Are you sure?"

"Yes! Go ahead..."

"Okay... See you around, Jen..." Kris said then followed Luke.

After a short moment...

"I'm so proud of you..." Alex said as he appeared behind me.

I turned around to face him and said, "You helped me a lot so I want to thank you... If it wasn't for you... I wouldn't know what else to write about their story..."

"Just don't tell my brother that I told you things about him... He might get mad at me..."

"Don't worry... I won't tell him..."

"Come here..." He grabbed my hand and pulled me closer to him.

I wrapped my arms around him and felt his warmth.

"I love you..." He murmured.

"I love you more..." I said.

"So... Since you're done with their story... Why don't you write one about us?"

"Huh?"

"I don't mind if you will call it 'Naked Attraction'..."

"I'm not writing porn..."

"Too bad... I heard you can write better with experience..."

"Stop it... You pervert!" I smacked him on his chest then walked away.

"Come on! It will be a great story..." He cried out as I got farther from him.

He might be too straightforward with his feelings and thinks immaturely most of the time but I like it about him.

I didn't love him because of his perfection. I love him because of his flaws.

"Alex... You silly boy..."

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