Chapter 2: A new start

Today was my first day after spring break.

I woke up feeling lost, scared and so more, thinking what I'm going to do with my life.

Normally I went to school and I was going to tell my best friends about the things that are happening to me but I just couldn't, I didn't knew what their reaction would be and I was just so scared. Maybe it would trigger them, maybe be it would scare them away I don't know, I just wish I had someone to talk to about this.

On the other hand I broke my fast of 24 hours but what I had I later purged it.

3:00 pm

I got home and did my homework, and when to take a bath, in the middle of it when I'm using my phone I login instagram and stalk my sister's secret account for checking how she is and I find videos of her cutting and cutting it was so much blood and I don't know what do. I will give two days for thinking what do say to my parent and then I will have to tell them, but telling this mean they will spend a lot of more money and probably my trip for my birthday won't happen but I'm okay with it, if it gives my sister help. I mean it's okay that she doesn't care for me like I do for her because she knows I still fast, purge and self harm in many ways and she just makes fun of it. But it's okay I guess. She knows I'm struggling with everything and she doesn't help, anyway I'm used of it, she has never care.

Maybe tomorrow will be better.

I hope tomorrow is better.