AM I IN LOVE?

JAKE POV

im now sitting beside Fing , being clingy towards her. she didn't mind me because we both always clingy towards each other. i noticed how Qim tried to take a chance to talk to Fing and Fing tried her best to avoid Qim by talking to other people. Qim and Fing already have nothing , why did he still trying to approach Fing? i asked myself. "hey you've been staring at my legs since before. does my legs are that attractive till you didn't stop yourself from staring at it?" Fing said laughing. "nah im just thinking about something" i said smiling. "aren't you going home now? your home kinda far from my place" she asked again before laying her head on Lauren's shoulder that are just beside her. "I'll going home until those boys leave" i said pointing at 3 besties with my mouth. "tskk.. you can go home and take enough rest" she said again caressing my hand. "then let me just sleep with you" i said. Lauren and Eden get their head towards me and make a weird look. 3 boys also looking at me with confusion. "i mean , I'll sleep here in living room" i said again. "i don't know , ask my friends instead" Fing said again before hugging the small pillow tightly. "i mean , of course you can but no going upstairs. illegal" Eden and Lauren said at the same time. "i promise i won't" i said again while smiling. "then i should sleep here too" Simon said. i stares at him hoping he's joking only. "I'll sleep here too" he added. "whatever , just don't go upstairs no matter what" Eden said biting the cookies with her front teeth. "that's mean , i can sleep here too?" Qim asked. "i think 2 person is enough , right Eden?" i asked Eden hoping she agreed with me as well. "i don't know Qim. we don't have enough pillow here" Eden replied. Qim looking at Fing and sigh. "sure then" he said getting up from his place. "Fing , send me to the outside" He added. Fing is lazy to talk so she just get up and do as what he wanted to. "Ryan?" Lauren called. "yes?" Ryan replied. "you can sleep with Fing if you want to , since sleeping together is normal for both of you" Lauren said cause me to gasp. "they what?" i asked. "well , after Fing broke up , Ryan always come here and comfort her , so sometimes when she's sad or cry , we always tell Ryan to come and comfort her. next day , she will cheer up back. plus Ryan never leave her side when she feel she needed someone even tho he's busy." Lauren said before playing with her phone. I look at him and get up from my seat and make my way towards Fing and Qim.

FING POV

"yah let me go" i said as Qim holding my hand tightly almost hurting it. "i said there's nothing between me and Selena , please understand me and just get yourself to me again" he said almost shouting. "im not the same girl you met , accepting you back after hurting me? Im not a clown Qim" i said , holding my tears. "Look Fing , I'm so sorry for what I've done before. but trust me , I'll change myself and be the best for you. we could even get marry this year. just please. please be mine again" he said still holding my hand tightly. "YAH!" someone shouted. Qim and me turn around and see Jake almost bring a punch towards Qim , but i quickly stop him. "What's your matter actually huh?" Qim said glaring at Jake gripping his teeth avoiding to throw a punch towards Jake. "what's the matter? then tell me why the fuck are you keeps showing up and begging her for nothing? she told you she don't want you , why are you still crazily want her back? is it not enough to break someone heart? how many times you want to hurt her? 3rd times? 100th times? JUST STOP BOTHERING HER AND MIND YOUR BUSINESS AND YOUR NEW GIRLFRIEND" Jake shouted. "ENOUGH" i said again . without any words, i get myself inside the house leaving Qim and Jake alone. My tears falling down to my cheeks , so i wipe it. Eden and Lauren asked about what's going on but i didn't reply then and just walk upstairs to go to my room.

KNOCK ! KNOCK !

someone knocking. "just go to your sleep Eden or Lauren" i shouted from my bed. "it's me , Jake" the voice said. i get up and open the door when i see Jake holding a pillow with him. "Can i sleep with you? Ryan told me he just sleep downstairs with Simon" he said still standing in front of me. i look at him before nodded. "but not beside me. sleep on the floor instead" i lazily said walking towards my bed before laying back. he walk after me , putting his pillow down in the floor before sitting on my bed. "im sorry about before" he said sighing. "nah it's okay , it's doesn't matter" i smile bitterly. "Fing?" he said laying himself next to me. i don't want to argue with him so i don't really mind when he lay himself next to me. "can i ask few questions?" he asked playing with his own fingers. "sure what it is" i said turning around and facing him. "Ryan always sleep with you? Only both of you?" he asked. "how did you know?" i said looking at him. "well , Lauren told him to sleep with you since she know you'll burst into tears when Qim begged you for something" he said clearing his throat. "well , he's the one that helped me a lot. so just like us , im comfortable around him. feel happy and secure too" i said again and now sitting on my bed. "o-oh" Jake replied. "why are you asking?" i ask wrapping myself with my blanket. "well.. im just shocked that there's other boy to sleep with you other than me or Qim" he chuckled softly. "why does it sounds like im an easy girl?" i said shaking my head. "hah? i- Im sorry , it's not what you think.. i mean" he looks nervous so i grab his hand. "i know , i was joking there , you're taking everything seriously" i laughed. he sit on my bed with a beautiful smile in his face. "Fing?" he said holding my both hand. "what else Jake?" i replied. "ah..um.. what if you fall in love with your own bestie?" he throws a question. "why? which bestie you're in love with?" i teased. "nah there's someone.. now tell me" he said sitting properly. "well , tell her that you love her. then prove to her that you're the best choice. Show her your love , your attention , your cares. not just showing how rich you're. mostly boys would shows money instead of those 3 things" i chuckled remembering how Qim crazily showed his richness to me before. "what if i got rejected?" he asked again. "then move on. Don't chase someone that didn't feel the same about you. even if you trying really hard nothing can be change. maybe she accepted you , but we didn't know what inside her. she may be pity you if she rejected you , so to maintain each feeling , she give you a fake hope or even a fake love." i explained. he look at the window before nodded. "then the friendship for more than a year might be ruin too right?" he asked sighing. "well maybe depends? if both of you understand each other , maybe nothing will be ruin" i said before laying myself on my bed. "now shuushuu~ i wanna sleep" i said tapping his shoulder so he could go away. "yah it's hurt" he mumbled. "you can survive a gun shot but not my hand? HAHAHAHAHAH you're funny!" i laughed. "tsssk. goodnight Fing" he said getting up from my bed before laying on the floor. "goodnight Jake"

RYAN POV

"dude you sleep already?" Simon asked while focusing on the movie that we watch. "not yet. why?" i asked. "I've been watching you , you know?" he said i can feel that he's smirking right now. "watching me? for what?" i said looking at him , im right he's smirking. "the way you treat Fing and other girls, you know you treat them differently? like 99% differently." he said as he continues focusing on the movie. "what? i mean , what's the matter? he need everyone's attention after all" i said again. "by being a possessive person whenever Qim or Jake around? it's more than attention i see" he said again clearing his throat. "possessive? me? i think you got a wrong person" i laughed. "well why are you grabbing her waist out of sudden during Qim and Selena approached both of you? Buying expensive things for her but not the other girls? and you couldn't stop taking a glance everytime Jake clinged towards her" he said again and start smiling. evil smile of course. how can he noticed that lmao? "just , look Ryan. if you love her , then chase her. before you become late and someone else already got her. plus i see Jake started to be over sweet towards her. as you see it by yourself , protecting Fing from Qim or even you" he said pointing at my chest. "they're a best friend since they were kid , i don't think that he caught a feeling toward Fing? or maybe he did? what should i do then?" i said before i noticed something. "i-" "i got you man! you have crush on her isn't?" he smirked. "n-no?" i denied. "you know what?" he smile. "what?" "more you deny it , more strong your feeling will grows." he laughed before facing the other side and cover her face with the small pillow. "slow down the volume , im going to sleep" he added. not minding him , i just turned off the tv and sigh. am i in love then? i asked myself.