Junior Year: Cathcing Feels

So theirs this girl who was in my high school friend group that ive mentioned. She was basically the glue of our friendship. Everyone was friends with her and when she was absent from school we all basically sat in silence staring at each other. Like i said we all became friends but i eventually started catching feels for her and didnt know how to handle them. For the longest time i was quiet but eventually i told a friend who encouraged me to tell her so eventually i did. She told me she liked me too and wanted us to get to know each other before anything happened and obviously i was ecstatic. Well about a week or so passed and we didnt say a word to each other and i got worried. I told my friend about it and he got kinda awkward and told me he talked to her. She told him she didnt like me that way and didnt wanna regect me and ruin our friendship. i was obviously heartbroken and i was also upset with her and kinda told her i knew the truth and told her she didnt have to lie. She told me that she wasnt ready to date and that she wasnt really out to her family and i told her i understand and that when and if she would be ready to date i would be their. Also i wasnt quite ready for a relationship because i just broke up with my ex who assaulted meWell then obviously things were different between us and she kinda does this little flirty thing and i dont think she ever ment to but like it i just kept getting mixed signals. Well anywho im now graduated and still like her and slowly getting over her while her and 99% of the group dont talk to me anymore.