Chapter 9: Warm Silence

My body froze as I embraced her. The sun began shedding its reddish light through the clouds. The leaves stood still over us. Silence flooded the surrounding scene with not a word from either of us. Despite that, I could hear one thing, my heart running at mach speed.

"She can hear it, can't she" My head breaking, pulling back my arms at light speed. Hiding behind my knees, I felt my face burning. Closing my eyes through the silence. I tried to convince myself that my near death experience today was a dream. Such thoughts swimming until the silence broke. A light-hearted laugh resounded right beside me.

I turn to look at Ray as she stared straight at my eyes. Her golden eyes glowing in a carefree, warm light. A relieved sigh echoed in the back of my head. Despite noticing the sadness behind them.

"Even though nothing bad happened, thank you for being there," her words forced their way out. I could see her right hand into a fist, as she forced a smile on her face.

"Thats not true" the thought spreading to my lips. They opened, my voice trying to reach her, but it didn't come out. I was shaking, my vision turning red. My breath broke as I once again so that dreaded panorama. Bitting my lip, I turn to look at the ground.

"Why can't I just break free?" My fist clenching into a fist, nails digging into my palm. Tears filled up my eyes as they caressed my cheek. "I must look pathetic" my only few thoughts. Without a piano or Jishi, I'm useless.

"Hey, you okay?" Her hand fell on mine, I looked up at her. Seeing her eyes as they filled themselves in tears, I realised. "We're the same" We take in our pain and just keep it to ourselves. Despite that, I tried my best to help her, and she even told me her problems. My clenched left fist flew to my cheek. A stale noise followed it.

"Tha-that's not true" my scarred voice broke free. I don't want this pain anymore.

"You have your ma-mom's expectations, that isn't jus-just nothing, it hurts to not do what you want, doesn't it?" my words fighting their way up my throat made it to her ears. Even though it pained her to admit, she nodded. Tears fell from her eyes as she then pursed her lips.

"Yes it does, but what about you, what scares you?" her voice shifted the topic while quivering. Something inside me shook. Without straying from her eyes sincere, golden glow, I purse my lips.

"That people won't accept me. Be-before pe-people made fun of me, they hurt me. Be-because I'm deaf, be-because my vo-voice is silent." That horrid noise turned into words. Even then her eyes didn't stray from mine. Her arms climbing my sides before she embraced me with them.

"It was a terrible voice, the one you let out before those people" a warm whisper relished in my implant. Her arms restraining me in a soothing lock. My heart for once slowed to hear her words. They made it seem like I was never a convict of silence to begin with.