Bad Place

I know theirs probably nobody reading this but this is a way I can get my feelings out. It's like my online diary.

So I like this girl and it's not just some school girl crush. This girl makes everyday seem better. Just the sound of her voice and her laugh makes everything so much better. I walk in a room and immediately look for her and when I see her I know its gonna be a good day and I cant help but smile. She notices the little things about people and shes a good listener. When I'm near her I get so nervous and I feel like I cant speak. Before she found out I liked her we would joke around and we would occasionally hold hands and she would jokes about us dating. But then she found out I liked her. She stopped all that. She told me she liked me back but then told my friend shes just gonna ignore my feelings and hope they go away instead of confronting me and hurting my feelings but she dosent realizes that kills me. Either way I'm gonna get hurt so you mine as well tell me you dont like me. I mean if you need an excuse just tell me you dont like me cause I'm genderfluid or I'm got so many issues and you dont want to date someone this tattered and torn. Just tell me you dont like me instead of letting sit her and having me think you care. Just tell me to my face because not knowing hurts just like being rejected does.

    Theres some other things dancing around in my head that's bringing me down but I dont yet know if I want to put that on here.

So for now bye ✌