Update

Sorry its been awhile ive been focusing on what im gonna do after high school. Ive also been visiting my grandpa alot.

  They found a mass in his brain which turned out to be cancer so its know in his lungs and brain. Its also spreading to other parts of his body. Hes not doing good and weve just been visiting him and spending whatever time we have left with him. My dad sent him so.e pictures from my senior parade that my friend took and he saw my Facebook post about it and when i I visited him in the hospital we talked about that and he told me some really funny stories so its been nice hanging with him.

   Also i graduate in about a monthe which is kinda crazy and my school is doing a senior picnic the 14 so im kinda excited about that.

     But amyway i havent been good recently my brother got a job so hes been out of the house alot and then my dada and his girlfriend hve been going on alot of motorcycle rides so ive been home alone alot recently and its given me time with my thoughts and ive been here bored. Amd the places ive applied to havent gotten back to me.

     Anyway the thing i really wanted to talk about was that i broke down today. I just kinda stopped was i was doing and bawled my eyes out. And after i cry i feel drained and just wanna sleep. But today i wiped my tears away and did my laundry and tided up my room. Then because i haven't had anything to eat today and havent drank any wayer o got me food and grabbed a water bottle and im proud of myself.

I know it may seem like a lame thing to be proud  and people may just think im stupid for talking about it the way i am but i took care of myself and got out of bed and im happy about it.