Shattering Dreams

A gloomy sunny day.

Bianca woke up after having a good sleep. After freshening herself, she went to the meal room for heaving breakfast as usual. ''But something is not right'' she thought because she didn't see her mom or dad till now.

But she kicked out the idea and started to eat. Because sometimes, Bethan needs to go to his office earlier because of work so he isn't able to have breakfast every day at home.

And Zara is pregnant so maybe because of feeling feel sick or tired today she is not her here. After all, yesterday she was so busy because of her birthday.

So Bianca didn't think that much, though it was the first time to have breakfast alone.

After finishing her meal, she decided to go to see her mom.

She was thinking her sister may be giving Zara a hard time now.' I should scold her if she makes any trouble'. Thinking that she started to giggle and went upstairs.

When she was about to enter the room she was stopped by her mom's personal maid.

''Miss Bianca, Lady Britanni is having rest. She told me she can't meet with you now. She told you to play by yourself today''

When Bianca heard this, she felt a little sad but didn't think about it that much. Because her mom is feeling sick so she might feel irritated by noise, it won't be any good. Zara wouldn't stop her if it was a normal problem.

So she didn't say anything, just returned to her room and prayed for her mom the whole time.

Bethan couldn't sleep last night.

He was thinking about the past, present, and future. He doesn't know what will happen in the future. he felt like he is in an unworthy person. He doesn't know what will he say to his family nor he knows how he will deal with Bianca's situation.

He doesn't want to let Bianca be with them cause it will create problems nor he can leave Bianca alone.

This is the first time he is in a big dilemma.

When the long night passed, he left early and ordered the butler to make a new home near their mansion as early as possible and make all of the maid permanent. Let not spread any news about their house. He doesn't want anyone to know what is happening.

After then, he went to his office directly.

He needs to send the news to the main Britanni mansion. He doesn't know what to write.

After thinking a lot, he wrote that they will not be with Bianca any more. Bethan and Zara will visit them once then he will explain it later.

He doesn't want to give any detailed explanation. Because his family will pressure him then which will be unbearable to all of them.

After sending this letter, he ordered to find a permanent maid for her around her age. He thought it would be good if the girl can become her playmate and personal maid both.

After dinner, Bianca came to see her mom but got rejected again. She felt lonely, so she waited for her father.

Because she is missing her mom today. After getting so love and care, she is now carving for more love which made her so greedy that thinking one day without seeing them is impossible.

She waited for a long time for Bethan and fell asleep while waiting for him. A small 'quaaaak' sound broke her sleep. She understood only by hearing the footsteps that her father came to see her.

'now you remembered me. Hmmph, I am not going to talk with you ' thinking that she pretended to sleep.

Bethan came back late at night so he won't meet with Bianca. He still doesn't know how to talk with her. He blamed himself whole day. He also blamed the ritual of taking this type of fate exam whole day.

When he heard Bianca is sleeping he directly went to her room. He thought it is a good chance to see her.

He missed her a lot, it is hard for him to become heartless within a day.

The room was dark with a little candle. Instead of removing the darkness, it realizes the meaning of darkness. One can not see another person with this little light.

He tried his best to open the room without making any sound. But he didn't know Bianca already woke up when she heard the sound of opening the door.

He sat beside the sleepy Bianca and started to sobbing without making any sound,

''blame to your heartless father who can't let you live a happy life. I am sorry because of my family I am sacrificing you.''

Bianca felt dumb because she couldn't understand what is going on. 'sacrificing me? what do you want to say?' She wanted to speak but she felt like someone stole her voice, she couldn't utter any sound. She looked at her father like a paralyzed person. But Bethan didn't realize it.

'' I don't know how to face you, I don't know how to say about your fate, I don't.... know how to say you not to go to see your mom anymore. you won't be able to see your sister for whom you are so excited. I don't know how to act heartless in front of you''

''I don't know. I don't know what to do!! Why I became so soft-minded when I think about you??''

''what to do Bian. We can't even touch you….'' After a little whimper, he wiped her eyes.

''What we did in our past life that God is punishing us.'' He sighed ''I really miss your hug and kiss I want to hug you so much.''

'' Ahh Zara might become crazy.'' then he spent a little time, stood, and leave the room.

Only some immortal beings and Bianca heard what he said, he didn't know what wrong he did.

It was hard for Bianca to digest what she heard. She was in great shock.

She thought she might get good luck otherwise her mom and wouldn't behave like this.

She thought maybe her mom is sick and tired, so she didn't want to see her today.

Maybe her dad is so busy so she couldn't see him today.

But all her perception was wrong!!!

She was in a great shock that she didn't know an hour already passed.

Then she started to cry. She was crying so loudly that her maid ran to her thinking she is hungry and brought her food to feed her.

She didn't know when she slept without her realization.

Tomorrow she woke up as usual. She comforted her saying it might be her dream, those were in dreams, couldn't be real.

So after having breakfast she went to meet with her mom again and got rejected.

But she till now comforted her say ''it is ok maybe mom is facing any pregnancy problem so let not disturb her.

At night, Bethan came to her room again and started to sob. This time Bianca was fully awake and didn't sleep.

He said a lot of things regarding her fate, his shortcomings, self blamed again, and again.

And then left the room.

Whole moment Bianca was breathless. All her dream was just broken into pieces. She didn't know what to do. She felt like her life is full of tragic drama.

Until tonight she comforted her saying these are all dreams, just some nightmares. Though she knew her all thinking was lies, she wanted to believe those lies.

She tried to cry without sound which made her headache. So fell asleep again.

The next day, when she couldn't see her mom, she returned back to her room and cried again. Because of excessive crying and mental shock she got attacked by high fever.

Because of her illness, she couldn't go out of her room, her maid took care of her. Every day her dad came and cried silently and blamed himself. Bianca heard everything but pretended to sleep in front of him because she doesn't want to hurt him.

It took about a full week to recover Bianca from her illness. She became thinner than before.

She thought because of her illness, her mom and dad might come to see her. Although her dad came every day, it happened at night so she couldn't see him. But when she saw no one came to see she gave up.

After got recovering from the fever, except for having meals she didn't go out from her room that much. She already habituated to locking herself in a room so she didn't feel bad that much.

everyone thought she stayed in her room because of her weak body so they didn't think that much.

Bethan came every night no matter how late it was. He speaks about a lot of matter what he did what may happen in the future. He still didn't understand that Bianca knew everything about what he says.

After a month, Bianca had her breakfast with her father. She knew it already because Bethan told about it yesterday night also the reasons for having breakfast together.