Accepting reality

When she saw Bethan her heart pondered for a moment. He looks thinner and the dark circles of her eyes make him like a zombie. Though she is sad, she can't blame her parents. Nor she did want her parents to see like this.

She wanted to hug him and scold him a lot for not taking care of her father but stopped her urge. At first, she couldn't understand how to act later she decided to act normal as if nothing happened.

''how aeee you, papa? aeee you ill? waat haapened to you?'' when Bethan heard her voice his heartfelt warm. He didn't speak for a while but started to feel sad thinking about the reason for meeting with Bianca.

''I... I am fine. nothing happened. my Bian baby''

''Papa please, take caeee of you. ok??'' she snorted ''I like my handsome papa not this papa'' hearing this, Bethan started to laugh.

"ok, ok. I will. But what about you? why don't you take care of yourself, huh?"

"umm, it is because I was ill. huh. I will eat a lot and will look prwwwetty hmmph. I take care of my self okie" then both of them started to laugh. the environment is warm like they had before one month ago.

They both chattering like birds.

Bethan forgot the main purpose of having meals with Bianca. She also didn't say anything cause it would ruin the moment. She thought it would be better if he forgot so she will be able to meet with her tomorrow too.

But her luck is really bad. At the last moment, Bethan suddenly remembered and his face became stiff. Seeing his facial expression Bianca already understood what her father was going to say.

"well Bianca, for some reason you will stay in a new house. We won't be with you. I know you don't be able to understand the reason. So I am not going to explain."

Though Bianca was ready to hear this, she still felt so sad. She gritted her teeth to stop her tears. being a baby felt like a curse because it is hard to hide the expression. She lowered her head and started to eat. Her eyes became red.

"Bianca for you, I will bring a new maid.'' Bianca nodded with a faint smile.

This smile sliced Bethan's heart into crore pieces. He wanted to hug her but he can't. his eyes got red

"Bianca after few days you will stay in that new house. Your new maid will come today. She will go there with you. If you face any problem, you can let tell her, she will inform us.'' He gave a fake smile.

Bianca nodded silently, after a pause ''ok papa. I will don't worry.''

Then she lowered her head and started to drink her soup. She does not feel like eating but she needs to eat. She doesn't want to let her father worry.

After returning to her she didn't have anything to do. Sitting on her bed, She started to watch the travelling clouds and thought about her past life and present life.

She can't find that much difference.

In both life she had bad luck, if she could know it earlier she would only wish to have good fate from the God in past. She felt like being cheated.

Now she can't even blame her past family. the fault is with her, to begin with, so she decided to stop blaming others.

She can now understand the feelings of past Bianca. Thinking about it, in the manga, Bianca didn't have any interaction with her parents though she led a luxurious life. She now feels pity for manga's Bianca. Bianca was near to her family but couldn't even see her family. She had everything but she didn't have the most important thing in her life.

It is normal for mangas' Bianca to act like that even though she was excessive. Maybe she was afraid of losing love and the afraid was quite real, isn't it what she will suffer now??

She had her past life memories and she can understand everything so she knows the reason for being abandoned. But Bianca didn't even know the reason because she was so little so it was normal to blame Zoey for stealing her parents.

At first, she thought there was no difference between Zoey and Yoonji but now she could realize Bianca is actually representing herself. What she wanted to do but couldn't do was done by Bianca. Nothing more.

Thinking this she sighed. The sadness is surrounding her again. At least in past, she had something to pass her time but now she is so small that she can't have anything except toys. Which are way too boring. She only liked to play with her mom papa but now these are useless to her.

She misses her past life now.

She already made herself believe that getting love or care is not for her. These are fantasy just. Nothing more.

Love and care are funny words to her now.

The talkative cute girl is turning into a cold and gloomy lady under everyone's nose. No one realized the changes but thought she is like this because of her illness.

In the afternoon, a little girl was being introduced as her personal maid. That girl is not that big. She is so small. Seeing her Bianca felt so sad but she didn't speak anything.

After introducing her she took her back because Riela needs to have proper training after all she didn't know about how to take care of Bianca. Bethan said yesterday, where Bianca will live, only that girl with be with her. So need to learn everything quickly.

She remembered she didn't ask her name. She forgot to ask anything after seeing that little girl.

After that day Zara locked herself into the room. After seeing her mental depression, Bethan was in tension. because it will affect their unborn baby too. So he forced and took Zara to her parents and asked his in-laws to take care of her for few days.

He didn't explain that much but her family understood the reason as their grandchild's 2nd birthday just passed away.

They are trying their best to change her mode and Zara's mom is spending time with her. Her other siblings didn't know the reason but they are so happy to see her.

Zara was so sad at first and cried a lot thinking of Bianca. Seeing her like this, Zara's mom made many plans which can make Zara busy so she won't be able to able to think about other things.

But now Zara changed a lot, she stopped thinking about Bianca that much and busy making plans for her future baby. She already accepted reality and started to pray to God every day for the future baby.

She doesn't want to lose anyone.