The talk

I jolted up as the sweat dropped down my face, I clawed at my chest slightly before looking around in a panic, trying to get myself to calm down.

My eyes finally set on my alarm clock and I read 11am, it's time to wake up anyway.

I steady my breathes before walking downstairs to make more coffee, coffee should help me.

I set the cup up just as the door bell rings.

With a groan, I walk towards the door and force it open, where I bet I look like shit but at this point I had no fucks to give.

Benjamin stands there with a smile on his face but it turns into a frown as he takes in my appearance, concern.

"Are you okay?" He asks concerned, why does he even care.

"I'm fine, I just—-what are you doing here?" I question before walking away from him and into the kitchen, wanting to get back to my caffeine before I continued this conversation.

"A check up" he states as if it's obvious, right duh, why didn't I think of that.

I sigh before pouring another cup and handing it to him, it was wayyy too early to be calling him out on being a stalker.

"I'm fine. I'm actually going out today and buying a kitten" I say and his eyes widen, he needs to take life more seriously.

"A cat?"

"Better than living alone, I offered Marie to move in, but with Liam and all she felt he would be more comfortable in a familiar space" I explain and his sudden interest in Marie shows, stalker.

"How is she?" He asks me while he sits down on my couch, inviting himself again.

I walk over and sit in the other couch before taking a sip of my coffee, wanting this to be over as soon as it began.

"She's stress cleaning, she wants everything to be perfect for him"

He smiles at this and then takes a sip of his coffee too, slightly cringing because it had no sugar or milk in it.

"I've got to plan a party for Liam. I'm starting the planning later" I open up, god knows why, maybe Marie is right and I do need a good vent, again.

"That seems cool" he says as he places his empty cup down, "need help? My boss would be glad to help his Fiancée"

"I'm not engaged to him and I don't want his help" I say in a suddenly angry mood, "what's his first name anyway?"

"Ethan" he states proudly and I give him a nod in response, too exhausted to comment about it.

I set my cup down and clear my throat, preparing to say goodbye.

"Well, as nice as this is you should probably leave"

"We still haven't talked about how I found you, you were all sweaty and in shock." He frowns, I was hoping he had forgotten about that.

I sit back and look at my hands, "my father used to hit me with everything he could use. Words, fists, knifes. My mother would always take most blows to defend me but she couldn't be there all the time"

He nods in understanding and signals for me to continue, I was past the point of no return.

"He killed her, he actually killed her during a family meal after he had beaten me up. I got so angry and saw red, so I killed him." I look up to meet his eyes, "I'm a monsters daughter and I'm becoming like him"

He gets up and crouches in front of me and grabs my hand, even though it's all sweaty.

"You are not a monster, what he did was a cruel and twisted thing and he deserved to die. You rid the world and yourself of him" he says and I nod before removing my tears, not wanting anyone to see me crying.

He lets out a nod and soon I lead him to the door where we bid goodbye, I close the door and let out a huff as I feel a load being lifted from my chest.