Never Ending Trouble

I don't know what happened, how my first kiss was like that.

I came into the class, Mr Murchison was already there, "Hello Samantha!"

He greeted me really, like really cheerfully, "Hello Mr Murchison. How are you today?"

He smiled, "So Samantha I heard that you are in a relationship with Miles. How's he?"

I was stunned for a moment, "Yes, yes, Mr Murchison."

"Why are you fidgeting? Don't you love him?"

I hesitated, if I should tell the truth or if I should lie, "I don't know, I really don't know how I feel about it."

He sighed, "It's okay to be confused you know, you won't know the answer of your life in a second right?"

I wanted to cry because I kept on thinking that it was weird for someone to feel it like that, "Thank you, thank you, Mr Murchison."

I heard a loud voice in the hallway, I knew Talia was here. She came in bursting the door. "Hello Mr Murchison," She looked at me and went on, "Oh hey Samantha, didn't see you there for a moment."

Yeah as if it makes them happy to pick on me. Well, I didn't care I just smiled at her. She saw it and came on me like, "Oh my, why your lips are so pink and like this?" It seems someone sucked on it."

I was thrown back. I took a deep breath and said, "Why you feel like that?"

She opened her phone and played a video. I didn't know what it was about. Because I couldn't hear the sound. Mr Murchison seemed kinda surprised. I asked him what it was about but it was like he didn't want to talk to me.

Finally, he spoke, "Oh Samantha I thought you didn't love him. You don't have to lie to me you know."

I was really really scared of what was in that video. "No sir, I did say that I didn't-"

Talia snapped, "Oh you don't love your precious lover? Sam you playing with his feelings?"

I was really really curious and shocked about what was going on. Talia again said, "Wait you'll get the video."

I saw my phone beep, there was a video from Miles. I opened it. I was scared to open it but still did. To my horror, I saw myself and him, Miles. It was the moment he kissed me, no, I thought to myself. How. Did I miss something? The room didn't have any windows or wait, wait wait, there was. There was a washroom and there was a small window. I can't believe my eyes. They were there, inside the bathroom, waiting to take the video. I wanted to kill myself.

Talia said, "We were there. It looks like you were into the kiss."

I wasn't I thought to myself, I wasn't enjoying it or was super excited about it. I didn't say anything. Mr Murchison saw that and felt he should start the class. "Okay now, let's start the class."

After the class ended, I ran. I ran to my home. I couldn't bear this anymore. It was too much. My mom was also entering the home. She was coming back home from school. She saw me gasping and said, "Why are you early today?"

"I wasn't feeling good."

She opened the door and I went straight into my room. She wanted to ask me something but I just went in. I knew my phone is gonna buzz up with his texts and everything. But I just went into the washroom cleaned my mouth and face thousands of times. I came out and my mom shouted, "Are you hungry? Sick?"

I reassured her, "I'm not sick ma, I'm just tired. And yes can you make me something please?"

She went to the kitchen and started cooking. I just started there, laying down on my bed. It is frustrating. Like really frustrating. I was looking at the ceiling thinking about how it came to do this. My mom came to my room with sandwiches. Yes, I loved my mom's sandwich. She sat on the bed, "Are you okay?"

I sat up, "Yes ma. I'm good. Thanks for the food."

She was worried I could see it. I didn't want her to be worried. Actually, in my family, I'm not so close to anyone. Not my mother, my father not even my sister. But I try to make the relationship better but I just can't. I slept after eating. Maybe for 2 hours and woke up to study. After studying I checked my phone and saw Miles has texted me.

Miles: Hey babe! Do you miss me?

I thought do I miss him? No, I don't. I really don't. But I need to lie for what reason I also don't know.

Me: Hey, yeah I do.

Miles: I miss you too. What are you doing?

Me: We have school tomorrow, so I'm gonna sleep.

Miles: You okay?

Oh, so he noticed it right now? Okay great. I guess I really should sleep and make myself ready to face everyone tomorrow.

Me: Miles I'm really sleepy right now and tired. I'll see you tomorrow. Okay? Bye, I love you.

I had to tell him that because if I didn't then it would get weird and he'd ask thousands of questions, why this, why that. So I just gulped my pride and told him that.

Miles: Okay babe, I love you.

I lay down to sleep but couldn't. Thoughts rushed in my mind. It's weird that I always think about everything. Everything I've done, every decision I've made. I kept on thinking and fell asleep. Like when I woke up, I thought, how can I fall asleep so easily like this. I wasn't ready to go to school today. I'm scared. Really, really scared. I just don't know how many people have it. But then I felt a bit of trust sparkle for him. I trusted that he wouldn't share it with anyone. I was getting hopes that something bad won't happen.

I went to school, my class was on the 5th floor. When I went up, I saw people staring, I don't know if they're looking at me or not. But that feeling I had inside said to me that they were looking at me. But little did I know I was right. Loren came up to me with s surprisingly happy face, "Omg you and Miles are so cute. Ahhhh I never knew you guys are so into each other."

I stood there for a sec and laughed. Not nervously but laughed. "Ahh, it's not what it is."

I saw Miles waving at the back, I laughed and said that Miles is looking for me. I just looked at everyone and saw everyone whispering, eyeing me. I ran to him and whispered, "Why? Why Miles?"

He looked at me and smiled. "It's memories babie"

I wanted to say fuck your memories. But I didn't. I was scared that he might get angry and snap at me. I didn't I just came to my class as we don't have the same classes. I came and sat on my desk. As I sat down I felt people staring at me. I knew it. It shouldn't have been this way. I hated every bit of it. This sucks.

Nick came up to me, "Hey I didn't know you guys were serious!"

I was so tired that I didn't want to talk about it. "Nick can you please leave it alone. I'm not in the mood of talking about that right now."

"Woah what happened to your mood? Aren't you happy about that?"

I was so pissed that I stood up and shouted, "Nick leave me alone."

He went away. But people kept saying 'Sam didn't need to shout, she did it too, ahh she's such a drama queen.' I was tired. This is shit. And more shit was coming for me. Lara was with me in the same class. I told her not to talk about it so she didn't. Well, at least she understands people and their situations. School finished and Miles came to my class. Not again I thought. I'm not ready, I'm never ready for anything. I just came back home that day. Ignoring everyone and everything. And then I was waiting for more of this drama.

It just never ends.