Meet-up 2

I woke up around 8am. It was early. I thought what should I wear. After thinking about a bit on my bed, I thought haha it's just a meet-up, nothing else.

I freshen up and had a light breakfast. I told ma that I was going out, she didn't ask me much.

I came to change my dress, I opened my wardrobe, ahh what to wear. I just kept on forgetting it's not a fucking date. So I just threw on some pants and a t-shirt.

It's still early to leave the home so I kept on scrolling MInstagram.

*notification sound*

Will: So hey? I'm outside your house. Wanna go together?

Huh? What! I looked out from the window and he was literally standing in front of my house. But his house is in opposite direction.

Will: Ah don't you wanna how with me?

Wait, no hold on. Ahh what is this.

Me: Yeah yeah I'm coming wait a min.

I put on some shoes and brushed my hair quickly. I ran out of my house with my phone and a lil bag.

He was looking good, like insanely good. He was in his casual clothes, a pant and a t-shirt. But yeah I guess that's why people swoon over him.

And then I looked at me, ahhh I look like a mess. He smiled at me. So I smiled back at him I guess?

"Woah I've never seen you in different clothes before." Ahh fuck it, I knew I looked like a shit. I should've worn something better.

"Umm soo, yk I thought I'm just going to grab a coffee so I thought a pant and t-shirt would work." I laughed, awkwardly. He quickly said, "Wait, no I meant, you look comfy you know."

Comfy? Lol, that's what people would say to someone lazy. "And cute." Wait, hold on my brain didn't get that. Cute? I am cute loll.

"Haha thanks you know." I smiled awkwardly. "So you know it's not a date like I mean it didn't sound like this in my head I didn't mean it like this."

I laughed looking how awkward he was getting. "Yeah yeah I understand, it's just a casual meet-up right?" He smiled and nodded.

He's cute, in his own way. I wonder if someone saw him like this, what'll they think. I mean most people find it weird, guys being cute.

Or guys watching romantic movies and reading something related to romance. But I liked it, like it's cute, in it's own way.

We reached the café. There were not many people. Some got their caffeine and walked out and some was doing their works.

"So cappuccino and a brownie?" I was so busy looking at people I was kinda like pulled back in my own self. "Yeah sounds good."

Then I remembered he said brownie. "Hey hey no brownies. I mean they're expensive here." He laughed. "It's my treat don't worry."

He ordered and came to the table I was sitting, my usual table beside the window.

"So hey." He came and said that while sitting down. Lol. Hey? "Umm hey back to you too?" I laughed. He laughed at himself.

"So umm I know I told you about why I changed to someone like this, I mean I told you I'll tell you about it." He seems nervous. "I mean if you don't want to it's okay."

He sighed, like a long deep sigh. He was fidgeting a lot, does he not trust me? Well our coffee was made so I got up to get them. He got up with me in an instant.

"Wait lemme help you." He smiled. I nodded. We both got our drinks and brownies and sat on the table again.

"So umm-" "You know if you feel like you don't trust me enough, it's okay you know." He sighed again. "It's not like I don't trust you, I'm scared you know."

I didn't know what to say so I kept looking down. "You know I had a sister." He started talking. Oh wait! Had a sister?

"She died." He sighed again, "All because of me." I looked at him. He's terrified. "Hey sip some coffee and calm down."

He took a sip of the coffee and looked at me. "I feel like you'll hate me if I tell you all this." Hate him? What's his big secret all about, did he kill someone?

"I won't, I guess I can say that, but I won't hate you." I don't know how to help him or make him at ease. I'm bad at that. "She suicided." And my heart sank, just dropped down.

"Why?" I didn't know what to tell so I just asked him why? Hah, to think I can help someone where I can't help myself. "She, she read this book, "Looking for Alaska" and said she wanted to disappear."

I want to disappear a lots of time too. "She had some issues with her friends and also her boyfriend. Something happened, I also don't know." He sighed.

He was sighing a lot and I was sitting there, helplessly. "When she told me about it like about disappearing I thought she was joking. Like it was a sad joke in the internet."

She died huh? And he blames himself for that. "Then one day, she told me she wasn't feeling very well but she looked okay. I didn't understand she was telling me that she wasn't feeling mentally okay."

I want to hug him but I can't you know. He's really sad. "But I just left her there-" he sighed and paused for a moment, "I left her there to die." He was holding back his tears so well.

I put my hand on his hand and rubbed it. It was an instinct. I didn't do it intentionally. I thought it'd make him feel good. "Before I would only talk with her."

So she was his best friend. "But she would always tell me to go out, meet with people and make friends because she'd always tell what if something happens to me."

"She's gone now, but I know she doesn't want me to blame myself because she'd tell me don't blame yourself if something happens you know." He put his hand over mine. He's cold.

"So that's why I just trying my best to be the best of myself. For her." He wiped one tear drop from his face. "Hey hey it's okay don't cry." I told him.

"It's okay, it's not your fault. I mean who would've known. It's her decision. Please don't be sad." I don't know how my words came out. He looked at me and faked a smile.

"I know you also cut." Wait that's random. It came out of nowhere. I cut and how does he know? "Ah wait, that? Haha I did that you know just wanting to see how much it hurts."

He took his hand away and crossed them and gave me a look like dude what the fuck? I laughed seeing his expression. "Hey I'm serious, I don't want to lose you."

I put my hand on his shoulder. "You won't lose me." He smiled and took my hand. "I hope so." We finished our food. But then I remembered, "Does anyone know about this incident?"

He looked at me. "No, no one does and I plan to keep it that way. There are many people who won't understand everything." Yeah I know about this, people not understanding anything.

We left the café and stood outside. "So umm should I walk with you to your home?" I laughed, he's really cute. "Well if you want to then."

We started walking. It's kinda chilly outside. "Wanna have a ice-cream?" He asked me. "Yeah, yeah I love ice-cream."

We stood outside a ice-cream place to grab some ice-cream. They had lots of flavour. "What's your favourite flavour?" "Butterscotch or chocolate chip cookies." I literally screamed.

He laughed. I got one butterscotch and he got one chocolate chip cookies. "Wait you also love chocolate chip cookies?" He smiled. "You're cute."

Heh? It isn't the answer to my question. "Wanna try out this?" He asked me. I was so excited that I grabbed his and bit into it. He held mine and ate from mine.

Then I came to my senses and just stood there, frozen in place. Ahhh it's so embarrassing. He laughed. "Hey it's okay, you don't need to feel embarrassed."

It was so embarrassing like why the fuck did I do it. "And anyways I like the way you are. So you can have it if you feel like it." Shit, he's making me feel more embarrassed.

So I was in front of my house before I knew it. "So here's your stop." He stopped and put his hand on his pockets. "Thanks for the day. It was amazing." I said.

He smiled and waved me and I waved back at him.

I thought, it was a very good day. A very good day indeed.