After the Disaster

I woke up after a day. The ceiling was different. Where am I? When I thought that all the things that happened ran through my mind. I felt like I'll throw up.

Ma came in as she heard me cough. Did I really try to suicide? Ma came and took my hands, "Are you okay? Do you feel weird anywhere?"

So, they know I cut huh? That's the first thought that came to my mind. Weird how I don't feel a bit of pain in my hand. It's the first time I cut with a razor.

Ma gripped my hands tighter and I stopped thinking instantly. "No, no I'm okay I think. Everything is fine ma." She started crying and hugged me.

Was it bad? My situation? Was I on the brink of death? But who would bring me here? I pat her back gently, she took her arms back. "Who took me here?"

She was still crying. "I don't know, the receptionist called me from your emergency contact." Huh? Who? The only person who knows my situation are Stephan, Ray and William.

But Stephan and Ray wouldn't skip classes, I mean they could but I don't know. And William would never, never ever. I gripped the sheets with my right hand.

I figured I don't have any strength in my left hand. I thought ma would ask me about why I cut and everything, she didn't. Well I guess it's better this way.

I was in the hospital for three days. They wanted to see if something was wrong with my body or not. I cut through a vein. But I was brought to the hospital quickly.

But who? Who would know that I'll do something like this? It was my release date. Ma and dad came to take me home. I asked ma on the car, "What did you tell the school?"

"You graduated from middle school Samantha, did you forget?" Ma replied. Ahhh my brain. I forget everything.

I came home and Sara came and hugged me and cried. She didn't come to see me though. Ma didn't tell anyone about this incident. And she wasn't brought because it would scar her, as ma said.

She cried so much and shouted like you're the worst sister ever, and I just laughed. I still don't have much strength in my left hand.

I came to my room and got changed, slowly. I took my phone and 99+ texts from Ray. Ahh he is crazy. He even called me so many times.

Me: Heyy Rayyy!

He replied to me instantly as if he was waiting for me.

Ray: WHERE THE FUCK WERE YOU!

Me: Something happened. I was actually gonna die.

Looking at how he asked me what happened I knew instantly it wasn't him. Who then?

Ray: Tell me the full story. I was worried dead asshole.

I laughed, he never called me asshole. Haha, why'd he call me asshole?

I explained the whole situation to him.

Ray: Are you fucking crazy? What if you died Samantha!

Me: I didn't die right? I'm right here, I was just on the verge of dying.

Ray: JUST ON THE VERGE OF DYING! ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME RIGHT NOW?

Me: Hey hey calm down, I can't type much. I talk later, I'm tired.

Ray: Yeah take rest.

I put the phone down. Ma knocked on the door. "It's open." I shouted. She came in with lunch. She came and sat beside me. I started eating because I was starving!

"Why did you do this? Did something happen in school?" Huh? Wait I thought she wouldn't ask me? I looked at her, what am I gonna answer her?

"I don't know." I lied, it's not the first time but I lied. She started crying. Ahh, I get really anxious when ma cries. I don't know what to do.

I dropped the spoon and chewed the food quickly. "Hey ma dot cry." As I told her that she grabbed my hands, "Then tell me why did you do it!" I don't know if I should tell her.

I have never told her my problems because I thought she had her fair share. I can't tell her anything. I kept quiet. She looked at me and then left my hands.

I get scared too, seeing her like this. School started after two days. I need to go to the hospital everyday to get my bandage changed.

I couldn't chat much because chatting with one hand is hard. But Ray texted me everyday. He called me once. We talked but mostly he shouted how I shouldn't have done this.

Stupid? I know, I know I'm stupid, I shouldn't have done this. Stephan texted me the day before school starts.

Stephan: Hmm so now you're also crazy enough to give your life to someone this easily?

Ahhh, this, I don't want to see this.

Me: Yeah I know I'm crazy and I'm stupid, now what?

Stephan: Give me your life, I will get more years to live.

Me: Lame and not funny at all.

Stephan: Oh then what you did was very cool?

Me: Ahh Stephan I shouldn't have done this but I did right? I'm sorry.

Stephan: Yeah, that's more like it. See you in school tomorrow.

Ahh at last he left. Even if I text him now he wouldn't actually see but I did text him.

Me: Yeah kay.

Who took me to the hospital? William? But why? What actually happened? I don't know. I started having a headache thinking about all this. I tried sleeping and fell asleep.

It was the first day so all the classes won't happen. I came to my classroom after finding it a bit and came to the orientation.

People were gossiping about something. Ray and Stephan wasn't still here. I stood at one corner.

"Hey you know the William? The Al famous William?" "Yeah what about him?"

People are talking about William? I don't know where he is or what happened. But I kept on listening.

"His sister died because of him." "What really? OMG, but why nobody talked about it before?" "Yeah, can you imagine leaving your sister to die?"

Huh? It's not his fault, his sister died and it was her decision to die. It's not his fault. Wait, huh? Why am I taking his side?

They changed the topic. I stood there with earphones in my ear. As I was getting lost in my own world, I realized something.

Who took me to the hospital and who saved my life.

Also I ended up destroying his.