Part 12

Selena's POV

I looked at Justin who bit his lip like he was thinking deeply about something.

I hope he wasn't thinking about that Jeremy.

Fuck, my mind went to his hands wrapping around my legs, cock thrusting into me and I gulped at the painful memories.

His dead body on the sofa.

Justin let out a cough causing me to snap out of my thoughts. "Do you want me to leave so you can change your boxers" I asked him even though I kind of wanted to stay with him.

Only cause I liked the view in front of me.

He looked at me and hesitantly nodded "Y-yeah" He said slowly looking over to the boxers on the bed and then to the ones he was wearing.

Does he need help taking his boxers off?

I gulped as I looked down to my hands and thought of Jeremy and Jacob.

How my hands have touched their now dead bodies.

"Should I help you take your boxers off" I whispered and he looked at me and I saw his face slightly turning red.

"Erm yeah" Justin said continuing to nibble his bottom lip which was a little bruised and I looked at it wanting to brush my thumb against it.

Why didn't Justin ever fight for himself?

If he did then maybe I wouldn't have done what I did.

"Ok" I said as my mind went to other placed and I kneeled in front of him placing my hands on top of his boxers. I heard his breathing quicken and he started fiddling with his fingers.

"Are you scared" I asked raising my head to look at him. And he shook his head.

"N-no, I-I just. " He stuttered trying to find the right words to say but was failing.

"I wont look at your dick" I said reassuring him as he gripped onto his thigh nervously.

Why am I being nice to him?

Cause you like him

No I don't, he's too innocent for me and I'm gonna end up hurting him.

You sure its not the other way round.

I sighed at my thoughts. Maybe it was because I killed his dad, even if Justin didn't mind it, he's become an orphan now.

I wonder what his mum would've thought of me if she was still alive.

"O-ok" Justin whispered snapping me out of my thoughts and I heard his breathing slowing down. I looked at the tattoos on his arm as I slid my fingers in his boxer pulling it down till it reached his ankles.

Ok was it wrong that I actually wanted to see his dick.

I heard a cough making me snap out of thoughts and I got up looking at Justin making sure I didn't see any parts I shouldnt.

*Cough* his cock.

"C-can you h-help me w-with wearing t-the new b-boxers" He whispered looking down and I gulpped trying to control my hormones.

At this point I'm gonna end up fucking him.

Do it do it

Shut up brain

Ugh why did this nerd have to be so hot?

"Sure" I slightly growled at him trying to control my horny self and he jumped up a little bit causing me to sigh.

"Sorry" I heard Justin whisper seeing my reaction and I shook my head with a quiet groan.

"Its not your fault but can i say there is a hot naked guy in front of me" I sajd grabbing the boxers and kneeling down again.

"I'm not hot" I heard Justin whisper more to himself.

I was about to correct him but I remembered that he was still naked.

"Pick your feet up" I said to him and he did as I said and I placed the boxers on him successfully.

"Thanks" Justin said shifting his feet awkwardly.

"Whatever go to sleep" I said feeling a little tired. Justin nodded leaning back to his bed and I left him and walked back to my room.

I went into the bathroom and instantly headed to the shower.

I had to get rid of the touches of Jeremey and Jacob.

Their dead touch now.

I cleaned every part of my body and I couldnt help but think about their last breath they took.

Their chest riding up and down.

(Like Justin with his mother)

Their thrusts into me.

I groaned as I couldn't help but collapse to the ground.

I rememebered my first time.

My first time was guess who.

Jeremey

Me being naive and undressing in front of him.

Thrusting into me as I begged him to stop.

But forcing myself to enjoy it for my Cassie.

Remembering that if he had me, he didn't have her.

Remembering his fingers ripping me open.

Remembering his uninvited friends bending me over and fucking me from behind.

My first time was a rape.

My breathings turned a little bit harsher and my mind slipped to Justin.

I killed his dad.

He should've told me before what was happening.

I still remember the question he asked me about how I knew his dad. I just, I cant tell him. If he knows then he'll hate me forever. I don't even know why I cared but I just cant stand Justin being away from me. I don't know why.

Lets just say my feeling are fifty shades of nerded up.

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