Part 18

Justin's POV

"M-my dad" I stuttered nervously looking at her and she looked back at me tilting her head to the side nodding.

I mean I wanted to know but at the same time, I didn't.

"You asked me about it so why not tell you now then" Selena sighed with an unknown expression on her face and turned to face me.

"Y-yeah" I whispered wiping my sweaty hands on my jeans and she sighed looking down.

"Well I work with drugs" she said causing me to gasp but I knew she hadn't finished yet. "and I sold some to your dad which was a bad mistake" she sighed causing me to look at her curiously.

What did she mean by that?

"I-I remember my dad being a real father sometimes but then it all started to worsen as life went on. Did he change cause of the drugs you gave him?" I asked honestly not wanting to even know the answer to it.

When I was around the age of 5, I remember my dad rarely being around.

But when he was, he was actually a decent father.

At least I didn't remember any bad things that came to mind when I was younger.

He bought me sweets and toy guns, bubbles.

But then after a while, he started to change.

He started to shout a lot more that my mum couldn't deal with and she would lock the front doors of the house to stop him from getting in.

She filed for divorce for a couple of times but he would always apologise to her and my mum being a religious Christian, she believed in forgiveness and would always allow him to come crawling back.

But how would it be Selena, I mean she would've been young when my dad started to abuse me.

"Probably and maybe that's why your mom died" she whispered looking down causing me to stop in my tracks.

"What" I sasked shocked as she closed her eyes.

She was lying.

Selena couldn't have been the reason for my mothers death.

And she hadn't known that my mom had died or mostly died cause of my dad.

"You're lying" I said raising my voice and grabbed her close to me. "Plz tell me you're lying" I whispered clutching onto her hands and she had a guilt look in her eyes even though she forced her stupid smirk on her face.

"And if I weren't" she whispered looking at me blankly.

If she wasn't I probably wouldn't control myself.

"Anything else?" I choked out on the verge of tears and she opened her mouth making my heart beat faster but quickly closed it.

WHY DOESN'T SHE FUCKING TELL ME.

"I killed your dad" Selena finally said and I felt like the air escaped from my lungs.

I always wanted him dead but fuck.

No that's not true.

She's lying.

I tried to gasp for air but I didn't work.

"Justin" I heard Selena say worried but I ignored her clutching onto my chest breathing heavily.

Fuck I was having a panic attack again.

"I-I can't b-breathe" I gasped closing my eyes shut as I felt dizziness surround me.

Mom.

Death.

Selena.

Drugs.

Dad.

I felt something grab my hands but I tried to push them away.

"J-Justin" I heard a shout before I felt my lungs collapse and everything turning black.

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Selena pov

I looked at Justin in horror as he collapsed in my arms.

Fuck why did I tell him the truth?

I swear if something happen to Justin, I wont be able to forgive myself.

I had found out about Justin's mum's death after he had told me. I couldn't help but curiousity and asked one of my mates to do a background check on her.

I found out she had cancer, but I had noticed there were marks around her neck as if she was strangled.

And when I found out Jeremy was Justin's father, I clocked it all together.

"HELP" I screamed feeling tears roll down my face. I saw a teacher and I screamed again trying to wake Justin up but it didn't seem to be working. The teacher rushed towards us and looked at us with a shocked expression.

"What happened" He asked as I looked at us both in shock and my mouth went dry as I clutched onto Justin.

I couldnt speak.

I felt something clogging up my throat and all that mattered was Justin.

"I'm calling the hospital" He said but it turned out muffled for me as I cried into Justin's neck ignoring everything else.

I could hear gasps but I didn't look. I shook Justin screaming for him to wake up but he didn't.

I took deep breaths and felt hands pulling me away but I viciously brushed them off.

They were able to take me off and I realised they were doctors.

They picked Justin up and placed them on a stretcher. I tried to hold Justin but I couldn't as there were too many people around him.

I wanted to see him even though I knew he was safe.

With them, not me.

I took a step back and saw Justin being carried out and I quickly followed them. He was placed in the hospital van and I felt something bubble in my stomach causing me to ache for him in pain.

"Are you his sister?" I heard one of the doctors asked and It was hard to process her words.

"You can only be with him, if you are one of his family member" She said and I didn't say anything but I could feel myself nod.

She dragged me to where Justin was and I raced towards him once I saw him. I sat on the seat next to him and watched him, he looked pale with the oxygen mask on his mouth.

I could see his breath fogging the mask then turning clear and then fogging and clearing as Justin breathes in and out.

"He's going to be ok" I heard a doctor say from behind me scaring me slightly as I didn't realise he was there.

"You really care about him, don't you" she says with a slight smile. "Yeah, more than anything" my voice cracked as I held Justin's hand with mine.

It felt like hours till we reached the hospital. The people who placed Justin into the stretchers came and picked Justin up and walked inside and finally placed with in a bed rolling him into a room. I quickly followed behind them but as Justin went into the room, I was stopped by a doctor.

"You can't go in there, we need to operate him, then you will be able to" she said and before I could argue with her and she walked into the room where Justin was.

I sighed with a shaky breath. All I could thing about how Justin will act when he wakes up.

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Why?