Let's Talk Truth

" When I convinced you,You knew perfectly that He was going to appear." He said to me.

"I wanna leave." I said sobbing.

"I'll let you leave.... but first... I don't want to force you.... But You need to speak with Greyson..." He simply said as he started to back away.

I shook my head no.

"Honey, Look into my eyes." I did as he told me. "I'm here for you. It he dares touch you, I'll be here to kick his ass. If he dares insults you. I'm here to make him take it back. Just. Believe me. You won't be able to move on. If you don't speak with the truth."

I felt how his large hand made contact with my cheeks and how his fingers wiped away the tears.

"So?... Are you in to make your life better, or are you out?" He asked.

"What's the point of making my life better ? If telling him the truth won't make me feel better,knowing that he's, I don't know how he'll feel,but I know he won't be happy to know that I lost his baby..." I said.

"That's what you've been telling me since the day you told me."...He sighed "You know what!?...I'm not forcing you! But I will let him know that truth!..." He said while turning up the volume of his voice.

I saw how he turned around and started walking back to Amy's home. When my body reacted to what was happening, it's when I started running towards the house. As I entered I saw Nathan and Greyson walking out the back entrance.

Jazmin came up to me to block my steps. "Where do you think you're going?" She asked me in a rude tone. That actually pushed my buttons and I pushed her out the way and made my way to the backyard.

"Nathan you better shut up." I said furious.

Nathan and Greyson looked towards me. My ex lover looked at me confused. And All I thought about in that moment was ...I'm fucked....

Nathan on the other hand took advantage of this situation.

"Great. My work here is done... Greyson I want her home by one a.m."

As Nathan left I was going to go after him but instead got stopped by Greyson placing his hand on my forearm, stopping me from taking a step.

"I'm confused." He said.

In that moment was the first time I had looked into his eyes. He doesn't seem mad. Or hurt...

"Me too.." I said.

"That dude, said you needed to tell me something very important..."He said holding my hand. " He told me to take you far from here. Where you couldn't run away."

Oh So he didn't tell him anything....

"what else did he say?" I asked.

"That with what ever you say to me,not to get angry..."

"Anything else?"

"yeah..." He said while smirking but let it go quickly after.

"What?"

"That you're stressed and that you need to get laid."

I stared at him in shock. While he chuckled. "that asshole" Mumbled.

"Are you going to tell me?" he asked..

I nervously said yes. He took me by my hand and led me to the front yard. Once I made it inside his car I had the need to ask him about Jazmin.

"So.. you and Jazmin... huh?" I said scared of the answer.

"What?...Oh me and her like in dating?" He asked and I nodded. "No.. we are just good friends... Well maybe she does think That I like her. But I don't. I mean I told her a few times but... I don't know." He tried explaining... "Are you jealous?" He asked and I looked out the window not wanting to answer.. "Too soon?" I nodded. "sorry.

Greyson pulled up to a lovely house. "We're here" He said.

"your house?.. you moved again?" I asked.

"Nope.. My mom bought this house and I'm lucky you don't know how to run away from here." He said while smirking.

Greyson had made me some coffee and a tea for himself. Even tho I told him he should probably bring alcohol for what I was about to say. He obviously said no.

As we sat down on the living room floor. I started to panic... and me in panic mode is really bad. I started breathing heavily. And Greyson started to notice.

"Ella.. Are you feeling ok?" He asked while waving his hands in front of me to produce wind.

I nodded shaking.. "I.... I'm just nervous..."

"Hey look me in my eyes, don't be nervous... I'm patience.... when ever you're ready you can tell me."

Looking into his eyes made my heart break over and over... Before I know it I'm standing in the front door putting my shoes on while the tears fell down my cheeks...

"Hold up... I'm not going to pressure you into telling me but I'm also not letting you go until you tell me... Cause it must seem pretty important. It even has you crying and shaking..."

As I open the door Greyson took me by my hand and pulled me into his chest. "i'm sorry" I let out.

"You really are stressed." He said.... "When was the last time you've been laid.?" He asked,while chuckling. Making me turned red. But also made me feel worst.. Last time I got laid was the night before I went back to Mexico and the day you left me pregnant.

I pulled back and stared at the floor.

"I'm sorry.. if I made you uncomfortable" He apologized.

"No, I'm sorry.."I said while looking into his eyes. My tears were falling out of my eyes without my blinking them out.

"I know.. that you feel sorry, But I don't get it why..." He said.

"If I told you... You will never look at me the way you do now. If I tell you. You will regret ever loving me."

"Did you cheat on me during our relationship?" He yelled.

"What !? NO! Never! How could you ever think of me like that!" I yelled back.

"Well You're taking forever to tell me, why you're so fucking sorry... That was the only thing I thought you could be telling me sorry for!" He shouted.

What I continued to say, I shouldn't have said it to him in that kind of stage.

"HOW ABOUT YOU STOP TRYING TO GUESS!..." I shouted. "I lost your child."

Seeing his face change in less then a second killed me. I saw how his eyes became glossy. His eyes that were once staring into my mine were wondering all over the house but never stopped to look at me. I couldn't quite read how he was feeling, but I do know I was feeling the double of what he was feeling.

Greyson stepped back from me. when I tried to get closer to him. He probably feels disgust ever being with me. But his actions made me want to curl up into a ball and be left under a bridge to die.

Maybe I am being dramatic. I took a deep breathe and opened the door to leave. Greyson needed space.

"Are you gonna run away, like you always do." I heard him say. I wasn't quite sure if he was asking or not.

"You need space to think." I said not looking at him.

"Think?, Think about how you lost a baby. I don't wanna think! I wanna know!... I need answers." He said raising his voice.

I swallowed. "And I'll give them to you." I choked out.

I saw how he began to walk to the couch while pulling from his hair. I followed him quickly.