Chapter 1 The Beginning Of My Troubles

Well before I introduce you'll to Erica just know that she has a story that will have you on an emotional roller coaster. It's base on real life event's that have happen in her life. I wouldn't wish this on nobody's life not even my own enemy life. But you know things happen for a reason in life. But you never question what God have in plan for your life during the time of hurt and disbelief.

This is how Erica became the women she is today because she never stop believing. She stood tall through her storm while holding Gods hand through the hurt and pain. She still managed to hold on even when hit with danger.

But enough of that I'm going to introduce Erica Marie Williams. She not your ordinary female that some would consider love able in tolerable. She has always bundle up her pain. But she always fought with depression even when dealing with her baby girl. Yeah I said that right she had a kid at in early age that she love with all her heart. As a mother she tries her hardest to keep her one in only child safe from a life she been through, so now I'm going to give you'll the beginning of Erica's Life Of Beliefs.

Tallahassee Florida is where I Erica Marie Williams was born at Tallahassee Memorial Hospital. On a special day of my grandfather birthday September 25,1989 at 4:54 am. I was welcome by her loving parents with open arms. I was such a loving baby that was always smiling in was so beautiful. Anybody that would get me would love to dress me like a baby doll. Until my second birthday came about. The day I wasn't looking forward too.

Never knew that day would change my life so soon. I was turning two years old when my mother welcome my baby brother Thomas Willie Williams Jr. I was a jealous little something. I never like my attention being took from me. I would show out and start throwing fits. I wasn't use to having another baby taking my place. I was always the spoiled one in when he cam about he took all that away from me.

One day I decided I wanted to be the little bad girl I was. On this particular day the baby sitter left the iron on and Jr was next to it. I decides to push the iron on him but unfortunately it caught both of our leg's. Jr an I was rushed to the hospital. While we where getting treated we heard people arguing about what happen, I got up and went to see what they was talking about.

My mama stop talking in I look at her in ask where are we going? Baby you'll going to you'll father this weekend till I get in my place. As kids me Jr and my oldest brother Mike Evan Jones we're close as kids. But the older we got our bond was unbreakable. Until my oldest brother went off to live with our grandfather that's the day I never thought our bond would be gone. He was never home he was always signed up for sports or private schools.

He was treated like the golden child out of all three of us. He got the world from my mother in granddaddy. I got better treatment from out side people not my own family. We went our separate way's it was never the same it was no longer a happy home or family no more after he moved out. Of course me and Jr was left to do for ourselves. Nobody was ever home it's like they had to work or they was to busy for us two.

As a child I watch my mother struggle to make ends meet because our fathers left her to take care of all three of us by her self. I had to learn to do labor work early. My oldest brother didn't have to learn because he had our grandfather in his life for every thing. We wasn't lucky like that. Mike always had it easy he never had nights with no lights or hungry. Mike never went without because he had everything on demand but we wasn't able. We knew about the struggle we knew about the hurt.

You can tell growing up wasn't easy cause at 7,8 and 9 me and Jr both had to learn to fry chicken on the stove and cook other stuff on the stove at our age. We even had to take baths in cold water and eat miracle whip and cheese sandwiches at night Mike never had to experience like me and Jr.

But as the oldest I had to cook, clean, wash clothes and wash dishes for me and Jr because our mother had to work over night all her life. In she needed help so I had to grow up before my time to grow up. One day I never thought my life would change so fast at only 10 years old. I never knew the devil existed in this world until I had to go with my father on the weekend's. They say the devil is always around but in different forms never thought it would be the person I expected to keep me safe or love me as there flesh in blood.