Want To Be

I don't have anything to say

But I want to sound important

Nothing to do

But my to-do list is a mile long

No one to be with

But my heart yearns for a love

I don't have anything, to say, to do, to love, to hope for, to hate, to be a person

I might just be a shell

Maybe of girl with a passion that fueled fires

Or a boy with the kind of confidence that sent men to early graves

Maybe an old man remembering when he had the strength of a hundred men.

Or president with the pride of a lion

If I am…

All my passion turned to apathy

My confidence gone like the clouds in July

Strength deteriorated into nothing

My pride checked itself out at the door

I think I did this to myself

Muted my voice so no words were heard

Hid away until the burden became too much

Closed myself off until I didn't even know where the key was

But I want to be.