Is this envy?
I don't think it is.
I'm happy for you always
This isn't envy
Today you won
You cheered on every social media page
You told me first because you wanted me to be happy
Yesterday you couldn't stop talking
"Congrats, we're glad to inform you…"
I know that might of the happiest day of your life
That meant everything to you
Last week meant nothing to you
You called me crying, to comfort you
You got another win too
Your win was yours and you watched it pile up with the others
In November you lied to me
Maybe you just never got around to telling me
You hid the truth
You won
Tomorrow will be a new day
You'll have a new win, new friends, new plans
You'll be happy and everything will fix itself
You'll be okay
Is this envy?
Am I envious of you?
Maybe I'm just tired
I think I'm tired
Today I lost
I cried on the floor after saying "congrats"
I never told you because you didn't need that on your shoulders
Yesterday I kept my mouth shut
"We're sorry to inform you…"
I don't know how I held it together
That meant nothing to me, right?
Last week I got my win
I was the happiest I'd ever been for 5 minutes
I wanted you to be okay and put my feelings aside
My win was taken from me and I watched it go
In November I lied to you
I wanted something to be mine
I hid the truth
I lost
Tomorrow will be a new day
I'll have a new loss, the same friends, the same plans
I don't think I'll be happy for a while
I don't I'll be okay
Is this envy?
I think I'm envious of you.
Maybe I should tell you.
I think I'll let you be happy.