ACCUSATIONS

"ANGEL ANGEL ANGEL!" I heard Anna, shouting as she run towards me. I'm here at the practice room with Sunnie and the 3 girls that made me irritated but I need to meet teacher that's why I'm here

"What?" I asked. She showed me a packaged box. I gasped "OMG IS THIS FROM PARIS?!" I exclaimed. I immediately opened it and there's a lot of things inside like cologne, shoes, clothes and bags

"A famous brand from Paris gave you that because they knew, you're styling your self so they want you to give these to you because they said you got a nice fashion sense!" Anna exclaimed in excitement too

"OMG Don't forget to send my thankies okay? Goshh this is so beautiful!" I exclaimed. It's nice that somethings good happen. I still can't recover what happened last night. I don't wanna think of that because.... I have another babies!

"Ms. Angel, the teacher said she can't come. She had an urgent meeting" A lady said. I nodded and she went outside. I looked around and saw Sunnie was not around which made me sighed in relief

"Let's go?" I asked Anna. She nodded and carried the box. I waved at Chungja and the 2 before going outside. they smiled and bowed at me too

I put my shades on as I walk towards the lobby "Gosh she looks scary" I heard other trainees said. So that's what oppa's are talking about. I'm really scary so you should be scared of me!

I was already in the lobby when I saw Jeonghan, walking towards me with his serious face. We still did not talk but who cares? He's looking at me as he walks towards me. I looked around and there's no people around. I took of my shades and stopped to wait him come to me

When he's already in front of me, I was shocked that he slapped me. Anna gasped in shocked too and luckily, there's no people around

"What is wrong with you?!" I shouted. It's the first time he hurts me. He always touch me with care like I'm an expansive vase that's easily to break and now he slapped me?!

"Why did you do that to Sunnie?!" He shouted. Ha! I can't believe it! Sunnie again?!

"What did I do? If this is about last night, she started it first-!" he cut me off

"I wished it's about last night because that's acceptable. But this? it's not!" he shouted again. I really don't know what he's talking about!

I noticed Sunnie at the side, her hair was messy and her clothes was tore and she's wearing Jeonghan's jacket just to cover her body. She's looking down but I can see her smirked face

"Can't you just go and tell me, straight to the point?!" I said, getting irritated

"You ordered a man to rape her!" he shouted that made me shook. How dare he accused me?! He don't have evidence and I won't do that even though I wish her dead!

"Why would I do that?!" I said, stopping my tears again. It hurts that he's accusing me. Like he don't know me because he accused me so easily.

"That's the question! Why would you do that?! I know I'm wrong, We're wrong! But isn't it too much?! You already slapped her last night! Isn't that enough and you still ordered a man to rape her because you want to get even?!" He said continuously. I can't stop my tears anymore and they fall. Just by hearing all of what he said, made my heart broke

"You already experienced that right? You experienced that kind of situation so why would you like someone to experience it?" He added. My tears falls again as I remembered that incident where I almost feel disgusted about my self

"You're right. I already experienced that. So why would I let other women experience that nightmare? I'm not a bad person! Yes, I have bad attitudes but I can't do that! You know I can't do that... Or so I thought... You don't know how I felt that time. I feel disgusted about myself! and now you're accusing me like you don't know me? Jeonghan I'm your girlfriend! It seems like you're not the Jeonghan I know anymore... Because the Jeonghan I know, wouldn't hurt me and accused me like this" I said to his face and walked out. I wiped my tears and I felt Anna, beside me

"Angel" She called me, worried. She gave me tissues so I accepted it. "You can go now" I said and hailed a taxi. She can't do anything but to follow me because I already entered the taxi

"Han River" I said. My phone rang and it's Jeonghan. I shook my head and turned off my phone..

He always hurt me these past few days.. What's happening to him? A little more and I'm nearly giving up...

I can't anymore....

I payed the taxi and went outside. I just stared at the river, don't know what to do. I watched at sun set and in waited until there's no people or vehicles crossing the road. I stood up the railings and widen my arms, asking the wind to hug me....

I need comfort now...

I felt the wind, passing my body. I just noticed that I'm crying again. Stupid tears, when will you stop? just stop okay? are you not tired?

because I'm tired....

I was about to jump when someone hugged me from the back and get me out of there

"What are you doing?!" I shouted as I tried to unwrapped the hug "Angel, stop okay?!" I heard Joshua's voice. My tears started to fall again and I managed to escape the hug. I faced him and I started hitting him on his chest

"Can't you just leave me alone?! I'm tired okay?! I'm tired can't you understand?!" I shouted "I'm tired" I whispered and sat down

"I'm tired" I whispered again "If you're tired, we're here! I'm here! you can lean on me, you can lean on us!" he shouted to me

"Lean on them? How? When I felt like everyone of them are turning their backs at me? I really didn't do it"

"My boyfriend. Ha!" I faked a laughed but my tears fell again "My boyfriend accused me like he don't know me" I said to him like a child, telling her dad that someone stole her candies

I wish I'm still a kid.... So that I can easily just tell my Papa everything and he'll understand me..

"He accused me like he don't know me. Like, I'm not his girlfriend. It hurts. It broke my heart into pieces. Why is he hurting me over and over again? I'm tired!" I shouted again

"I don't want this feeling anymore but I don't know why I can't give up!"

"Simple, because you love him!" he shouted back

"Curse that Love!" I shouted again

"He knows what happened to me back then.. He knows how I traumatized because of THAT incident back then. I know how it feels so why would I do that to her just because I hate her? Even though I hate her and wished her dead, I wouldn't do that. I can't do that! I didn't did that!" I shouted again and again. I just want to release my anger, hiding deep down my heart because right now, love reigns in my heart.. Just my love for him. My heart can't stop feeling the pain so I started hitting it with my hand

"Can you please stop? I don't want to feel hurt! I don't want to feel this right now!" I said to my heart, like it's gonna answer me and hit it again

"Angel stop" Joshua oppa said and went to me. He hold my wrist to stop hitting me chest and he hugged me "Stop.. please"

"Oppa... I'm scared.... I'm tired.... I don't like these anymore.... I'm scared" I whispered as I cry on his shoulders

"I'm scared..... I don't like these anymore.... I don't want to feel these anymore... I'm really scared..."

"Shhhh everything's gonna be alright...."