TOGETHER AND APART

Saiph anxiously looked around to find the newspaper .

Blue looked at the newspaper which was laying on the kitchen table, as he saw Saiph coming toward the kitchen, he immediately displaced it  from over the table to under the it.

Saiph looked one moment on the table and around " Blue give it go me "

" what,  ?"

" I know you hid it, where is it?"  He moved all around the kitchen quickly.

" go back and sit there !  There's nothing..

" there, move aside! " Saiph found it, Blue's attempt to lean over the table to cover it only made it obvious.

" Saiph,  Saiph " blue held the paper high in his hand and was pushing away Saiph.

" DONT,.. HEY... GIVE IT TO ME " and with one good snatch, he succeeded.

Blue ran to save the burning omelette.

" when your heart gets burned up enough after reading it ,  you can happily eat this burnt omelette " blue took off his apron and threw it aside.

And carried the breakfast to the living room. Saiph was too involved in reading.

                  Merry Christmas

A person is supposed to live, keeping in balance his negative and positive sides. As sometimes he needs more goodness to balance out the darkness in his life. For times the opposite is also needed.

Your other side, although may seem bad, but is after all your own, and when you can't find all the answers by being the perfect angel, it's okay to reach out for your other self for help.

Saiph Raven is this is what you did?  It's was a good choice, facing your adversary but also a bad one.

Merry Christmas, and sincere wishes. And a gift from me, a small extract from your biography ( that I wrote) :

            Saiph Raven :

Saiph being the name of sixth brightest star, and Raven representing the color black. It's beautiful to say you are a bright star of a dark night.

A song lyrics from sixth song of your album ZERO :

I fear, could it be

Darkness grow and

Win over me

Completely

Could it be that your name means : darkness that eats away the brightest star! 

coincidence or planned, it's peculiar ,that the name is in accordance with some of the important events of your life. Why the sixth brightest star?  For what happened when you were six, or six teen, or sixth of June, or the year 2006  , or six years before the beginning of the new century or your song "six" ?

But it is just a number isn't it?  Six days from now, I will begin my sixth year as Damien, and for you  ,you will be turning twenty six.

Best of luck .

Blazing fire was dancing under the dark sky, and the reflection of its moves was shining in Saiph's eyes. His eyes were lost, and to enjoy the present moment water came to sit there and reflect back the spirit of playing fire as a cheerful audience.

" my burnt omelette made you fall in love with fire, I guess! " Blue stared in Saiph's eyes. " the fire will die out,  and so will your attention from it! "

Saiph looked at him , his emotions overflowing but mouth quite.

" everything shall pass "

" it's not what you think. I am not worried about effects of his words ,nor the news ,not the public , not myself as a celeb . I am .....afraid , I as myself. I've dealt with my name on stakes , my career at risk, pride at damage,  but this time  I feel it's an attacked to nothing I can save, but me myself. "

" Don't take it hard on yourself . Damien's words are just ..artistic... They captures your mind and show it back to you. It's decisive "

" you don't know, you don't " he shook in an urge to be understood.

" when you try to understand the meaning of his words and you dig deep in them, you are only digging in your mind and searching yourself, that makes it...  Something to fall for "

" let's just go back, deal with everything. "

"are you sure?  As for me you should savor this break, you are not in your best state . "

" I feel it will grow worse, let's not wait for the best "

" don't be so pessimist "

" if you want" Saiph got up to leave.

" look,  I don't want you to act a certain way, I understand it's hard.  But I don't want you to fall in the negative emotions either. Feel what you feel like, don't becomes what you feel. "

" I.. Don't really understand anything right now.  Umm..  " he said rubbing his face with his hand " I am going to sleep and hope we go back soon with as good as is left " and he turned and went inside. His shoulders ,looking like a hanger on which the oversized shirt was hung and his back lost inside  as if don't exist. He had suddenly started to look like a boy his his age, not a star of fashion and media industry.

Blue knew how to handle Damien and  Saiph public life about this rising matter of interest . That Damien is shooting blindly in the dark ,and his such keen interest is appreciated but will bear no fruit. Matters like this, are all about how well you portray and mock your opponent. It's about acting strong  and faking it. 

But Blue didn't know how to make Saiph feel better at a personal level that Blue don't and can't have access to. Blue knew that Saiph need help, beyond the boundaries that he had set for himself ,but Saiph himself need to break them down first, let someone in, allow himself to trust . But Saiph is blocked off from letting someone effect his emotions ,too much and for too long.

For now the best would be to make things flow for Saiph. Like ending this vacation, going back to spotlight, facing everything , and getting involved .

Blue thought it would be best if they arrive back at new year.  Other topics, other activities and other concerns.

For this he need to engage Saiph ,to delay the plan, for six days.