DESIRES
" get away from me " she pushed him. He was too strong and she too tiny.
" you have come to it yourself ",he said bitterly.
" Saiph what's wrong with you? I can't breathe " , she fought between his arms , his body covering her from even free air.
He kissed her.
" stop, let go " she cried struggling with all her strength to push him away.
She started crying in helplessness.
" please, don't do this. " she sobbed.
When he stood back, there were tears in his eyes too, shining more then the moonlight.
He wiped her cheeks and released her crushed body.
He stood away.
" what did I do? " she asked while sobbing.
" so what did I do? " he answered
" you killed " she was horrified by her own words.
He stood as if bored of hearing such a normal thing as a reason for anything.
He held the knife and forced it into her hand, and placed it at himself.
" so kill me then "
She held back as much as she could, but he strongly kept digging the knife in his skin.
" Saiph, stop " she put her other hand over his fist to stop him.
" no I am serious, " he unbuttoned his shirt with other hand .
He was already bleeding around his waist, her eyes widened with horror.
And with one quick thrust, the knife drew a long streak of blood , all the way on his front.
She felt the pain of being powerless . She stumbled on her feet.
" I won't hurt you " she whined.
The knife dropped on the floor, and she dropped herself on him. She hugged him like she won't ever let go .
" I can't loose you " she cried in tears, tightly holding him. Their skins touched, his blood stained her.
Her ripped shirt left her shoulders, exposing the strap of her bra.
He held her waist " I've lost myself ".
" I believe in you " she soaked her tears. " you didn't kill anyone Saiph "
He pushed her away and walked away to his bed.
" just go away " he tossed himself on the bed.
She let go of her shirt hanging from the elbow , and sat on top of him.
Leaning her face close to his, she said " I won't go away "
" when will you? After I tell you how i stabbed my brother ?"
" and? " she kissed his forehead.
" and I stole from my home and ran away "
She kept giving him softly kisses on his face .
" Bliss! " he said innocently
" hmm! " she held him tightly.
" I killed Blue "
She felt her soul leaving her body, but there was nothing she could do.
She hid her head between his neck and remained silent.
" Bliss? " he called out again.
She held back her tears and kissed his lips to make him silent. Carefully moving her hand on his face she whispered :" it's okay " her own words killed her.
She was breathing in his breaths .
" why do you hurt yourself? "
" it hurts me to heal from the things I've done "
She thought if he cuts himself, and the scars are results of his own harm, and his father wasn't abusive then why he became rebellious.
" he used to hurt you? " she asked.
His words stuck in his throat and didn't left his mouth. He gently moved his fingers down her waist, slightly inside her trouser.
Raped. She understood his expressions. He was sexually abusive to him.
" what happened this day? " she whispered in his ear.
His hand slowly pulled down his trousers as he spoke.
" she died "
" your mom? "
" yes " he pulled down her waist close to him.
" she said she needed me but I left , so I was sorrowful "
Bliss moaned with pain as he got inside her.
" I lost the last link to my past "
She was unable to hear him, in that pleasure and pain.
She continued to moan and move against him.
" what? " she whispered between the groans.
" then I felt I didn't want to "
She couldn't take time to utter her words between her whining.
" so.. What did you do? " she said breathlessly.
He got her under him, and trapped her between his body.
" nothing " , he kissed to hush her.
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