Chapter 38

"You will never understand, the hell I feel inside my head...You told me I can handle it, what were you thinking ! cause I'm going down, It's so selfish how you've handled this " I kept playing with her hair "How am I gonna forget? How do you expect me to do it?, make me forget you Moon...How am I gonna unMoon my life ha? Come back and Unlove me, Unkiss me, Untake my heart..." I wiped my tear that fell on her face

I inhaled a deep breath "I'm missing you already...Moon who will apologize to me ten times a week?, Who will mess up my mind and make me question my heart every night?...I can't picture anyone else but you" My voice broke balling my eyes out "I don't know if you can see me but if you're...you can't hear me cry, or see my dreams shatter" I froze for a second when my eyes landed on the notebook, I sniffed and started to move my thigh from under Moon's head gently then I snatched the note and opened it to meet up with only two pages

One has "Sadly now I'm dead" As a title and the other one has "Ian" as a title

»»————- Sadly now i'm dead ————-««

I'm sure by reading this, I'm now in another side of this magical life...Ian to finish what I started

You've to send a message to all their parents with my address after the purge ends so they can arrive there when everything is back legal so no one loses their mind and hurt mom or dad..In the message I want you to include a clue that it's about their kids

Between the pages you'll find an envelope please give it to my parents

In addition to this I left back home a note to my parents informing them to wait for a call

You'll call them and inform them that there are people coming home and about my diary you have all the freedom to decide what to do with it.

I think thats all...

»»————- 1 ————-««

»»————- Ian ————-««

I know you're wondering how have I known that you will end up reading this, but honestly I didn't I wrote it in case you came after me...and as I expected you came

You never left me even when I done the worst to you

You never saw me differently even when I made you a second choice and it kills me every time I remember how bad I treated you...maybe if I weren't a stupid selfish person I'd have spent so much time with you I regret every second was spent far from you.

I want you to know that I loved You truly and deeply maybe it was cleared to me that you're the one late but it was the best thing ever

From the first day I came to this school and saw you, I knew something was unique about you an attraction was leading me towards you every time but I couldn't figure it out soon

I adore everything about you Ian

Even when you tight up your fist without realizing it.

Thank you for the uncountable times you saved me

Thank you for making me feel safe anywhere you're with me

Thank you for loving me

Thank you for everything

I love you

Moon...

»»————- 2 ————-««

A tear clouded my vision and fell down on the paper as the countless tears followed, I looked at my watch and it's 6:45 Am, I flinched standing up took Moon's phone and made a group with them all and sent the address then..

Me: If you want to know where are your sons/daughters head to this address.

I pressed send and then looked again at the watch it's 6:50 " I don't have time" I said to myself while putting everything in the bag, The gun, the diary and her phone then I wore it and all I have left is Moon's body..

I kneeled down and looked at her face one more time " I will do it" I kissed her forehead while putting my arms under her, held her body bridal style, headed downstairs and waited in front of the door waiting for the siren, It's 6:59

"Three. Two. One." I whispered and immediately the siren started one after one until the the electric shook system went off and I was able to open the door, the sunlight filled the room, getting Moon's body out was a hard task but I did it anyways

I was about to lose my breath till I reached the car, opened the backdoor, rested her body on the couch then took off my jacket and covered her face

I hopped in the car and took a look at Moon's phone and it's filled with messages saying 'who is this?'

When I got out from the neighborhood and started seeing lots and lots of ambulances I grabbed my phone and dialed Moon's house number and they answered after the first ring

"Mrs. Robin!!"

"Who is this?"

"I'm Ian, Moon's friend.."

"Oh my god Do you know where is Moon ?"

"You will know everything, I just called to let you know some people will come in minutes to your house, let them in and I'll come and tell you everything "

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