so let's continue

"you see Arima that was my first kiss and it was with my first love. I was super happy it felt like I was living in a dream but then.....

but then everything changed"

*next day to Soma's birthday after school was done*

"I'm gonna go holding hands with Soma, I wonder if he'll talk about last day's kiss"(*smile*)

"Som---"

"I've some work so I'll go home quick today

bye Mira"

"..."

"tch, he didn't even let me say anything? I wonder if he's angry? is he?

can't be possibly right?

after all he kissed me more than once too.

I think he really had some important work to do

but I really wanted to go home with holding his hands"

*after 4-5 days*

"let's go home together Soma after school ok?"

"ok"

"it's finally over it's been some days I couldn't go home with him and I want to hold his hands too it's been so long"

"hey Mira"

"hey Soma how's it going"

"everything fine I guess beside some work"

*grab*

"Mira don't hold hands for today"

*grab again*

"but why it's so col---"

"I TOLD YOU DON'T HOLD MY HANDS"

"So-sorry I won't

but you don't have to get this angry

I was just doing it out of habi---"

"HUH? ANGRY?

YOU SEE I'M BUSY AND I'M BARELY GETTING TIME AND I STILL TRIED TO WALK HOME WITH YOU BUT THEN YOU HAVE TO FIGHT ON SUCH A LITTLE THING?"

"I'm sorry I'll go home"

"you see Arima after saying that I ran to my home and I didn't even looked back.

I was scared of his angry face and I didn't want to make him more angr---"

"Mir----"

"shhhhhhh!

I told you darling don't speak till I'm finished talking about my past

so let's continue"

"I think I would message him

I shouldn't have run off like that.

I would apologize to him.

but still he got too angry.

I just wanted to hold hands....."

(Mira's eyes were as sad as it could be)

"well I'll just message him apologizing for suddenly running off like that"

"I'm sorry for suddenly running off like that after we get to walk home after so long" send~

"it's ok" received~

"but I won't be able to walk home with you anymore, I'll be busy from now on" received

"Why are you angry with me:(" send~

"it's my fault right? I'm sorry na:(" send~

"we won't be able to talk if we can't go home together please don't do that" send~

"it's not your fault but I'm really getting busy and we can talk on Instagram" received

"but you know I don't get phone for much time" send~

"then there's nothing we can do, I guess we'll talk a little less" received~

"okay:(" send~

*half an hour later*

"so he ignored me.....

what did I do wrong?

everything was going so good why did this happen to me?"

(Mira slowly whispered these word to her as she was smiling with teary eyes)

*1 day before Christmas eve*

"I'll invite Soma tomorrow to a date, tomorrow he'll be free and he'll be relieved of his stress too

and it's too long since we've been together or had a real conversation.

but it's ok as long as we're in relationship nothing can go wrong right?

I'll message him"

"Wanna go on a date tomorrow Soma?" send~

*seen*

*2 hours later*

"why is he not replying even after he saw the message.

huh?why am I crying?

Why won't I?

it's been weeks since we had a real conversation and we've talked face to face.

I've tried to hold a conversation but he just runs off to home.

I feel lonely sometimes.

can't he see that

and now he's ignoring me too.

*New year 12 AM*

"Happy New year Soma"

*next morning*

*seen*

"he has seen it but didn't reply?!

it's been like this since Christmas"

(good morning

how are you Soma

wanna go on a date

is everything ok?)

"all these messages are left seen without any reply"

*February 7*

"I guess it's been almost 2 months since we've talked to each other, I just get his glimpse

but he doesn't even look at me"

*February 14*

"what's this he doesn't reply to me? he doesn't care about the Valentine week?

now I'm pissed I'll ask him what does he wants"

"tell me Soma what's the meaning of this do you really love me or not? you don't reply to me and you don't even talk to me anymore." send~

"huh?love? with you? don't make me sick?

you just clinged to me all the time and you kissed me on my birthday? I was about to throw up.

I just went with the momentum I didn't knew I would be dragged into this shit.

I just used you to move on and I'm done playing with you" received~

"you're joking right Soma?" send~

"I'm serious I'm done with putting up an act" received~

"I'm sorry for clinging to you, good bye.

never talk to me" send~

"that's it about my first love and that was the last time we talked....

to be continued