Loves Addiction.

Dear Bubbles,

I like to think that once you learn how to love, you learn to fall easily. Now that maybe a good thing or a bad thing. It all depends on the person you're falling in love with.

And I'll be honest I'm not ready to admit I fell in love with him. Especially so quickly and so weirdly. Everyone in my life knows it though he knows it, you know it, your girlfriend knows it, fuck dude my internet friend knows it and we barely talk. Everyone knew it before I did, I didn't realize it was true till he said it. I still don't want to accept it though.

Cause what if it doesn't work out? What if I get hurt again? There's so many "What ifs" I could go one for days about it. Especially with what our relationship has been lately. We want to stay friends so he can focus on school but then we continuously flirt non-stop. Like on FaceTime he'd randomly blow kisses or make comments about cuddling and I'd comment back and so on. It's impossible to be just friends outside of public. Cause on campus it's so much different. There is little to no affection in person unless we're 100% alone.

He confuses me sometimes, but there are times I understand what he's trying to do or think. He's just one of those people that are hard to read if they don't talk much. It's frustrating.

But my mom is feeling better, I can go home. And that means I'll be able to do the homework for my classes. Meaning my stress is going to decrease. My life is calming down, now it's just a matter of keeping it calm.

I know I didn't write much today, but there's not much to tell. Just thought I'd get that little bit of information off my mind while I still remembered.

Yours truly,

Tomoe Grayson