I'm Nervous, Don't Come Near

I woke up feeling tired because I barely slept last night. The scenario of Travis kissing me before he went inside his apartment kept me awake. I almost barged in to his room to confront him but what good would it bring to me? What if, he'll just tell me that I'm taking things too far? That would be very embarrassing.

I checked my phone and saw tons of messages from Adora and Neo. I didn't read them one by one but they just asked who took me home and if I am fine. They're totally drunk last night, they can't even remember a thing.

I got nothing to do, and I don't want to just stay in my room and think about my feeling all day. It will make me crazy. I picked up paint brushes and canvas and headed out. I'll be exploring today, paint something new to freshen my mind.

As I got out of the unit, I tried really hard not to stop and stare in front of his door, hoping that by staring directly at it, it will spit out Travis. No. It's really driving me crazy.

I hopped in my car, and fate really know how to play with me. I saw Travis walking towards my car. To my horror, I immediately started the engine and drove off. I didn't know how I did it but I let out a huge sigh of relief when I was meters away from him. Just seeing him made my heart race, how much more if we're much more closer to each other? I'm hysterical.

My car brought me to Neo's restaurant. Hoping that he's inside as I walk towards the door, I became nervous. I vividly remember what he said last night about Travis. I want to ask if he's fine, he is so drunk last night maybe he forgot who brought him home.

Luckily, he is here serving the customers while smiling. He looked very lively today, I wonder if he has a hangover. He stopped in his track when he saw me at the door. I smiled and waved at him, he walked towards me with a smile. I always love his smile, especially when his dimples are showing.

"Hi, how are you last night? Are you okay? Who brought you home?" he asked.

I laughed at his worried face. He really can't remembering anything that happened last night.

"Can I order first? I'm starving," I told him and he motioned me to an empty seat near the window where I can see the forest and green field from afar. The same spot when I first came here.

"What do you want to eat?" he asked, handing out the menu.

"Just pasta," I said.

He smiled and walked away to get my food. The place is quite busy, waiters and waitresses walk around the hall to serve food and attend the customer's needs. The foods they serve are also delicious, no wonder this place is well-known.

"Pasta is served," and he placed it in front of me. He sat down in front of me and looked at me.

"I'm really sorry about last night, I can't remember anything. I woke up and I'm already in my room. My parents won't tell me who brought me home," he explained as I swirl the noodles on my fork.

"It's fine. I got home safely," I said and digged in.

"Who brought you home?"

"Travis," I replied. I looked at him to see his reaction. His face just went blank at the mention of Travis.

"How about Adora?"

"Travis asked someone to take her home. She also texted me earlier, telling me that she is fine."

He and Travis clearly know each other. There's this eeri feeling that they're not acknowledging each other's presence for a reason. It might be a heavy reason, that broke their friendship and started a cold war between them.

We suddenly went quiet. No one talked. I just digged in my pasta while he's looking at me awkwardly chewing my food. If only I can ask him about him and Travis, I would. But I already told myself not to meddle with anyone's business.

"Uh, about what you said last night," he looked at me waiting for me to finish my sentence. "About Travis-"

"Forget about it. That's just nothing," he cut me off. He smiled to reassure me.

So he remembered saying it. I understand, he doesn't want me to know. He left me to get back to work as the place is almost full of customers. I just silenty finished my food and paid for it. I left the place without Neo noticing it. I should care about it less. It's their business not mine. I have my own issues to deal with.

After driving for a while to find a good spot to paint, I lost my interest. My mind's in haywire, I couldn't focus. I would just ruin my canvas. I decided to go to Target to buy some stuff. I decided to buy more room decors as my room feels empty and plain. I kinda want my room to be minimal but aesthetic.

I got a mini lamp shade, a small picture frame, a small flower vase and anything small that could fit in my room. As I was strolling around, fate keeps bringing me closer to danger. I saw Travis and his model sex girlfriend inside. They are literally not buying anything, just looking at some stuff while the bitch's hand wraps around Travis' arms. She's smiling wide and talked about something not very interesting as Travis' face is just blank. And why would I be happy that Travis' face is blank with her?

I blinked when Travis saw me staring at them. No, at him. His eyes widened and immediately threw off the bitch's hands around him. He started walking towards my direction. I got startled, I immediately walked away leaving my things behind. I got so nervous, I immediately started my car and drove off. Deja vu?

I almost cried when I remembered my stuff left in there. What was he thinking? What am I doing? Why am I nervous around him these days? My heart jumps hysterically when he's near me. Maybe I should get my heart checked.