CH: 41 FOOL

We made our way out of that park, still holding each other's hand. There was a thick silence between us, but it wasn't awkward, maybe just for me. I took a deep breath before I spit few words to break the silence, "You know Krystal and Mason aren't dating?" I brought the topic again as I decided to talk about it.

He nodded his head, which made me shocked for a split second, but I questioned, "How did you know that, I remembered telling you that they were dating but never told you that it was fake."

"I will answer that, but promise me you won't get angry at me." He spoke as he looked at me, making eye contact. I nodded my head slightly before he broke the eye contact and started fiddling with the hem of his sweatshirt, may be confused or afraid about telling me about what he was planning to say.

"I am the main reason for all this." He replied, still looking towards his feet, I was still confused but he didn't let me ask any question and continued, "I was the one asked him to do so, it was my plan as I knew that you won't come out of the hose on a weekend until and unless you have some work or something happens. So I asked him to ask someone to act as his girlfriend so that you will have to come out of the house. He told me that he doesn't have a girlfriend so I asked to fake it, and he agreed on that."

It was somewhat heartbreaking at how Mason just pushed him off to a guy without his consent, after acting that he like him. I shook my thought off and smiled at Eddie, assuring him that I was not angry. He returned me the same smile but it didn't reach his eyes, as it usually did. It was heartbreaking seeing his crestfallen face.

After we ate at a nearby restaurant we decided to go back home. I sat in his car while he took his seat in the driver's seat. The ride wasn't quiet, we talked about random topics even though Eddie wasn't showing interest in my topics, I somehow managed to talk to him and cheered him, and maybe it did worked as he giggled few times at my jokes and silly comments.

We finally reached my house, and after bidding a warm bye I entered inside just to see, Mason sleeping on the couch. I felt mixed emotion going through my mind when I saw him, the feeling of anger which was fueling me a few seconds ago, got all washed away as I saw his figure curled up in a ball, wanting some warmth. I walked towards the couch trying not to make any kind of noise, as I didn't want to disturb his sleep. I slowly sat near his motionless body,

"Why are you doing this to me, you know how much I am longing to scold you, to get angry from you. But I don't know why as soon as I see you I can't control the feeling of adoration, that makes me weak in my knees and dizzy in my head. I know I may sound like a crazy schoolgirl who is all over you, but... yes, it is what it is, and I am nothing more than a crazy schoolgirl who wants you to be mine. I was so crazy that even though I got to know how you just pushed me off to a guy, I still can't get angry at you."

I spoke those words in a muffled voice, so that I don't disturb him from his slumber. I gently tucked some of his hair strands behind his ear when I again spoke,

"I love you Mason, and I hope you do too, I still doubt that you have the same feelings I have for you, because at one moment you kiss me, shower me with your affection and at the other moment you corners me as if I am no one to you, why you do this to me. You know how much your every action affects me."

I grazed my hands through my hairs as I sigh in frustration, I last time looked at the sleeping figure before I went inside our shared room with heavy steps, I wasn't angry but I wasn't smiling too as I usually do whenever I see Mason.

MASON'S P.O.V.

I woke up from my slumber when I almost fall from the couch I slept on last night, all tired. I didn't even have dinner last night as I was feeling so lazy to do that. I stretched my arms before I massaged my nape as it was all sore. The brightness were spread all over the place, I smiled before spreading my arms upwards.

I went inside my room to look for Jacob, and as soon as I reached inside I noticed that there was no trace of him, he was nowhere to be seen. I checked the washroom, but he wasn't there either, I panicked as I haven't got a single clue of his location. I ran towards the kitchen only to find it empty too. I was going to make my way towards the terrace when a note caught my eye.

It was a yellow colored paper, which was attached to the fridge. I detached it from the fridge door and moved my eyes to the words which were inked on it.

"Mason,

I know when you will read it, ill be gone. Not for a lifetime, but yes, I won't be around you. You must be thinking about where I am. I will not take any longer and will come straight to the pint. I want a break, I want to pause all this, whatever this relation is called which is between us. I may sound like a fool right now, but I am slowly getting bottled up with so many emotions, which I can't even name. I want to free myself from all that. Again I won't make it long. I am going to spend my time staying far from you, maybe for a short period or maybe forever I don't know either. ^_^

GOODBYE MASON."

As soon as I finished reading it, I felt blurriness generating in my eyes and soon after that, a warm fluid escaped my eyes falling from my cheek, which was nothing other than tears. My feet were not in my control anymore. I fell on the floor with a loud thud voice which echoed in the empty hall. My heart shattered in pieces as I again took a glimpse of the note which was in my hands.

I quickly ran to my cell phone to make a call to Jacob, but it was of no use as no matter how much I tried, it was again and again forwarded to a voice mail. Guilt rushed through my body, feeling lifeless and broken.

"Why you were such a fool mason, giving him off to someone; even though you loved him the most," I questioned myself not daring to wipe my tears away.

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I KNOW THIS IS AN UNEXPECTED TURN, BUT A LOTS OF GOOS TURNS ARE WAITING AHEAD...