CH: 42 ALONE

My thoughts were battling as I thought of giving up on him or still looking after him. But as every second passed it was getting harder and harder to decide what to do while the tears were flowing out of my eyes nonstop, I never imagined that things would turn this way as they turned out. He left the home, leaving me and everything was the worst nightmare I could've got and it happened, just because of my silliness and only mine. I was feeling like a worthless, brainless, and heartless person at that moment. Hurting him and pushing him away all the time, ignoring the pain he went through.

I stood up from the floor and went to take a bath thinking that it would help me to wash away those thoughts which were killing me from inside, as I knew even though I forced myself to think about that there was no way he was coming back. I was doubtful about the fact that made him take that decision but I was sure that it was because of me because I was the only one who unknowingly hurt him.

As I let the water, fall on my body I again thought of anyway which would help me contact him. Closing my eyes I started thinking of every possible way to reach him when I thought of contacting Eddie, as he was with him the earlier day, and maybe he knew where he was.

I instantly finished my shower, and after wearing casual clothes, I first called Krystal to tell her that I won't be joining work for the present day. She got tensed too when I suddenly asked for a leave but she didn't ask me anything when I told her that I will tell her everything later.

When I locked the door behind me, the memories of us leaving home together and joking around flooded in my head, which made me feel broken again, but with a heavy heart I walked toward my cycle, which I didn't use for almost a month and seeing that bicycle, his memories again struck me.

FLASHBACK~

"You know there is no way I am letting you go alone, after what happened yesterday," Jacob spoke sternly while keeping his hands folded near his chest, looking at Mason, who was whining about the fact that he wasn't letting him take his bicycle to his work and neither allowing him to leave for work alone.

"I can go there alone hyung, you know I am fine now," he said still sticking to his point.

"No means no Mason, you already hurt yourself one time and I don't want it to happen another time, because I can't bear that. I can't see you getting hurt." Jacob spoke and instantly regretted as he realized that he picked the wrong words to speak. But Mason wasn't noticing the words that time he just wanted his hyung to let him go to work alone as Jacob was continually asking him that he will regularly drop Mason to work and then will go to his workplace.

"But your workplace is opposite to my hyung." He again spoke as he pushed the piece of bread in his mouth.

"So what, it will keep me fit and you too, don't you remember the doctor told me to exercise and it will work as an exercise to me." He said as he stood up from the dining table to place his dishes in the sink to wash them.

"Ok! Ok! You won. There is no way you are letting me make this decision." Mason said finally agreeing to his hyung as he playfully rolled his eyes.

After washing the dishes and picking up their bags, they made their way out of their house; Mason glanced at his bicycle which was parked. He then looked at Jacob who was already looking at him and sobbed, "I am sorry my bicycle, I will ride you soon." , Earning a chuckle from Jacob.

"Let's go now otherwise well get late to work," Jacob said as he pulled the younger with his hand and walked down the street.

FLASHBACK END~

"I no longer want to drive you," I said, looking at my bicycle, and decided to go there by walking. I dragged my feet to his workplace, hoping that I would find him there, and even if he would reject to talk to me, I would do my best to talk to him. I was thinking of ways to make him come back, after I'll see him.

I opened the door of their café, hearing a bell rang which was settled above the gate, some people were sitting there but a lot of seats were still empty. I grazed my eyes everywhere to see any trace of Jacob, when I heard a voice, "hey, Mason, what brought you all the way here." My body perked up as I looked at the source of the familiar voice, just to see a smiling Eddie.

I tried to smile back, but it was so obvious that it was a fake and forced smile. "Are you okay!" he asked with concern visible on his face. I walked towards the counter and asked, "Do you know where Jacob hyung is?"

"I got his call this morning he told me that he will be taking a break for a few days because he is sick, but didn't tell me anything else. He said that he will join work after the breaks will get over, probably after 10 to 15 days." He said as his smile dropped.

"Did something happen to him, he was all good yesterday. Did you both fought or did something serious happened?" he continued as he kept the cloth aside, which he was using earlier to clean the counter.

"How should I tell you hyung?" I said as I sigh left my lips. "He... he left the home." I completed my sentence and I could feel he tensed up even though I was looking at the floor.

"What? How? Why? When?" he asked, instantly. Without giving any break, he shook my body and again spoke, "why he did do that, how can he take such a step, what happened between you both, he was normal till yesterday."

I wasn't able to answer his single question as I was also asking myself the same questions, why he left, what I did which made him take this step. I was as confused as the person who was standing in front of me.

He inhaled sharply after taking a long pause as he removed his hands from my shoulder, "ok! I don't know what happened to him; maybe it is my fault or maybe yours or maybe none of us. So, we should just give him some time. He is not the type of person who will do something bad to him. He uses patience and if he has taken this step, he had probably something on his mind, don't worry, he'll be fine and you better don't try to contact him right now, maybe he wants to be left alone."

"But I want him to talk to me to tell me why he did that."

I said as I looked towards Eddie, who was already looking at me.

"You've been with him for almost 2 months now, you should've understood that he is not the type of guy who easily shares his problem, and especially to a person he loves. He doesn't want to act like a burden to someone." He spoke as his hand made its way to my shoulder to calm me down. I didn't listen to his last words as I was trying to empty my mind from his thoughts.

I nodded my head as I turned around to leave the café after bidding a small bye to Eddie, he tried to cheer me up, but that was of my use, I was broken to the depth, and there was no possible way that I could be healed this quickly.

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I KNOW GUYS THE THINGS ARE GETTING A BIT MELODRAMATIC BUT DON'T WORRY SOME GOOD THINGS ARE WAITING AHEAD.

HOPE YOU ALL STAY SAFE...

I AM SORRY GUYS TO TELL YOU THIS BUT I THINK THE STORY IS SOON GOING TO PAUSE FOR A WHILE BECAUSE OF SOME ISSUES.

SORRY...