CH: 43 CONTACTED

I sat in my room, it was already night and Jacob hasn't contacted me, there was no trace him, I was feeling mixed emotions inside me, the feeling of being broken, the feeling of fear, the pain, and the tension. It was my first time having those feelings after my parents left. I never felt these emotions inside me and that's how I realize how important Jacob was in my life, as he made me feel every single thing I haven't felt in years.

"I LOVE YOU HYUNG. JUST COMEBACK." I said to myself. As I again started tearing up. I snuggled into my pillow before I heard the door click open. I instantly perked up thinking that it was Jacob, but as soon as I reached near the gate I saw Krystal opening her shoes. I didn't waste any second and ran to her and quickly snuggled in her as I craved for warmth, warmth of someone dearly. She was shocked my sudden action of pulling her in a hug, but then she realized that I was not in a good state of mind, so, she started caressing my hair as she kissed my forehead. I tired up more as I got that warmth from her.

"What happened Mason is everything okay?" she asked me as she continued caressing my back.

"I am not, I am not at all okay Krystal, and I ruined everything. I broke everything apart, which I never planned to do." I said and continued to sob in her arms.

"Are you crying Mason?" she asked, but after not getting an answer from me she held my head high and said, "Are you crying because Jacob left?" she asked which made me shocked. "How did you know that?" I asked as I looked at her face.

She smiled a bit as she wiped away my tears and said, "He called me and asked me to take care of you, Mason."

"He contacted you!" I asked, surprised that he called Krystal.

"Yes, he did. He told me that he has somewhere to go, as he wants to take a break from everything." She replied

"He called everyone, but just left a letter for me and didn't even pick up my call." I said to myself, which was audible enough for Krystal to hear every word.

"Hey! It is not something to get jealous of." She said as she tried to make me laugh, but at that moment it was no use.

She broke the hug and made her way to the kitchen and kept the bags she brought with her, and started unpacking them and plated the food, while I just stood there looking at her, which again made me remember of Jacob, that how he used to plate the food for me when I acted like I was tired, even though I wasn't.

"Come here and eat now, I won't wait for you if you don't come because I am hungry af." She said gaining my attention towards her. I made my way towards her and sit on one of the stool as she plated the food in front of me.

"See, I brought your favorite one" she again said as I picked up my fork and started fiddling with the noodles which were plated in front of me.

"Mason starving yourself will bring nothing good to you; you have to keep yourself healthy." She said gaining my attention.

"I am not hungry" I replied, standing up from my stool, but stopped as I heard Krystal speaking.

"You have to let go him Mason, he needs time to. It isn't something wrong, he also wants some time for himself, because he is tired of everything around him. You have to stop looking after him; he wants to be alone at this moment." She said

"Why are you all asking to let him go, you all know i can't do that. I can't let him leave me as if he never existed." I shouted out of frustration

"I am not asking to let him go forever. I am just saying to let him spend some time alone, so that he can relieve himself from everything that is bothering him." She said gently and as soon as she spoke I regretted for shouting at her and instantly said, "sorry Krystal I didn't mean to shout on you. I just can't think of anything properly."

"I know Mason and right now you have to eat food properly, then only I will forgive you." She said with a pout as I smiled at her and sat down again to eat my food.

As I ate the food I made my mind to do as Krystal said me to, I will give him his time, maybe he need it the most right now, he needs to be alone more than needing a company.

It was already late night after Krystal left. She did all the dishes and after giving me a long hug, she bided me her bye and went to her home. I lay on my bed feeling the emptiness beside me, but I let go of that feeling as I closed my eyes and decided to plug my earphones and listen to music until I fell asleep. It was helping me, but still there was a space in my mind which was forcing me to stay awake. But I was determined that I won't let that space bother me as I had decided to give him his break that he wants.

I didn't know when I drifted into my slumber, but I remembered that the last song I heard was the song from the boy, whom I used to listen in my college music hall. I, "I hope I dream of you until you come back. And I promise as soon as I see you I will never let you go again. I promise." I spoke to myself as I smiled before my eyes got heavier and I slept in a deep and comforting sleep.