Holid@ys

The holidays come and go

And with everything I have tried to get Star

To talk to me

she won't

She even changed her science class

And I hardly see her

Of course she is hanging out with Vic

And Kendrick

I'm so happy when Christmas comes and goes

And New Years comes and past

Me and mum went back to Sydney for a week

And I visited old friends

A grave of a girl I still truly love in my heart

And all I did was cry like a little bitch and tell her I'm so sorry

I'm a fuck up

And she deserved so much then what I could offer her

I didn't realize that her parents came to the grave

Her mum cried with me

"It wasn't your fault Sweety I am so sorry the cops found you and thought you killed her

But we New for a long time she wasn't okay

And you were the glimpse of hope in her eyes

Although you didn't know how to love her she still loved you so much" her mum hands me a purple journal.

"Everything you need to know is right in there

Everything she felt and cared about was in here"

Her mum walks away and she is accompanied by her husband

I'm holding the book on the flight back home I haven't opened not even when I got back home. Finally there is a game and my new friend Legus

Asked me to join him

And just like that I put the book down

I get ready to looks fine as hell

Because I'm going to show Star what she is missing

I walk up the bleachers

I can see her in her cheer outfit

And she looks banging

She is smiling so beautiful even when I catch her eye

But she looks away fast

She finally looks at me again

But her eyes meet some other dudes face

He kisses her

He kisses my fucking Star

And I can feel heated

But I finally get my shit together watch the rest of the game I leave in a hurry that Legus said let's go smoke and drink

Party back at my house

I follow

Didn't even realize

Star was trying to call out my name

But I was so pissed that when I finally heard her say my name I gave her a look

That just said back the fuck away

I get in my car from my aunty over Christmas break

It's a 1967 Camero

Owned by my uncle

Who we lost over thanksgiving time

I show up at Legus house

And I grab a beer

People start rolling in

I'm half a bottle of vodka and three beers in

When a sweet voice says

"Maybe you should slow down"

I turn around and there she is

As beautiful as a sunset

"Please go away Star I can't handle you being this close. Go kiss you New founded love."

"His name is Mathew"

"I don't give a shit what his name is please Star just walk away"

"Fine don't care it fits you well"

I want to turn around I want to tell her I'm drinking because she is breaking me

My heart is fucking breaking

But what I do next really just fucks shit up.