Goodbyes suck @ss

Ash is explaining to me

All the things

The arrangements we will make for visits

For the holiday plans

For all this stuff

I'm crying

I don't want to live this far from each other

I don't want to have to say good bye

I wish her mum was never on the road

I wish that semi never flipped

I wish she was still here

My world is starting to separate

And I'm not ready to let go

Ash hugs me

"Don't cry yet baby doll

We still have a whole week together

And we will make it the best damn week"

And it was after the funeral she took me to the bay to see the ocean and the Stars

I saw jelly fish glow

And the ring of Sydney

I ate amazing gelato

And all different kinds of dishes

She made love to me every night

Washed my body in the shower

She would rub lotion on my body

She treated me like a princess

And when it was time to get my bags ready to leave

She hugged me so tight at the air port

She looked in my eye

"In all my life I would have never thought of a love so grand that God himself would send me a Star as beautiful as you

I love you so much Star Rosemay Diaz"

"I love you so much Ash Marie Simmons"

I gave her one last hug and boarded the flight

I put my head phones in

She made me a play list

And the first song to come on is

Marianas trench beside you

Text to Ash:

And if your heart wears thin

I will hold you up

And I will hide you

When it gets too much

I'll be right beside you

When you're overwhelmed

And you've lost your breath

And the space between the things you know is blurring nonetheless

When you try to speak

But you make no sound

And the words you want are out of reach

But they've never been so loud

I'll be there

I send the message with out re thinking it

Because I love her with ever beat in my heart

And I don't know how we will survive

But I hope to God we survive.