(Chapter Eight) Humiliated Hatred

I walked around the oval upset almost tearing up. I was humiliated, Why? Well, Blame my P.E Teacher. She made me and my class mates do all of these exercises. The worst ones are the ones that test your strength. And when your in my body.. *Laughs* that's when my self hatred comes in. I did all kinds of exercise s. Mostly weight lifting. The wind blew threw my hair. Makeing me blind. my boyfriend Gavin called out and said. "Oh Hannah! you sad because you GaVe uP!". he laughed jokingly. That only made me feel worse.

"Oh yeah? Well you don't know how it feels to be humiliated because if your strength". "Look at you!". "Be THANKFUL you have strength Gavin because I don't!". I said as I felt tears well up in my eyes but I diddent dare cry.

People that fight don't cry. "Do you want to know why im Weak??!!!". I said angrly.

"It's because i was born 24 weeks premeture!!". "Good on you Gavin!!!".

"Blame the fucking doctors that brought me into this fucking world!". Kanisha and Gavin just looked at me. When your in a special small class No One Is Supportive when your upset. Not even when you try to hide it.

then I walked off upset. "You don't know what it's like to be humiliated...". I wispered.

We walked back to class got our bags and had lunch... I hate that I'm Alive... Why couldn't I have been a NORMAL kid.... :(