Threesome?

TAY'S POV

A rollercoaster of emotions. Dixie still has a pull on my heart, so does Lee. I can't choose, I love them both. Not equally though. If Lee finds out I still I like him, he'll feel bad and if Dixie finds out, she'll hate me. They both don't feel the same way but here I am hoping, wanting and longing. Are they both too much too ask? Apparently yes. I tried to move on, cause there's no where else to go but one look at either of them brings everything I've tried to hide come out. Each time it happens, those feelings come back stronger. I need to stop saying "I love you" what if I never meant it? They should stop saying that too, I know they don't mean it and are saying it just to make me happy.

There's a song by Lewis Capaldi called 'Before You Go' that explains me trying to move on.

"I hate you, I hate you, I hate you but I was just kidding myself."

The more you love someone, the harder it is to move on.

I really don't think Dixie knows the effect of her touch. She could be strangling me, shoving me, it doesn't matter. Every touch is electric. All of this is great but I'm such a coward. I keep running and hiding and denying when its crystal clear.

DIXIE'S POV

What. The. Fuck. Is. Happening.?