"time"

Notes: i am trying to make this better, im kinda not looking forward to making the bts povs thanks for reading this book to those who reads this i guess i will rewrite the chapters im not satisfied with

yuna is gonna make mistakes and is weak, she has some dark pasts and depression that are gonna be revealed throughout the chapters as they go by she is not perfect but nobody is perfect, she is weak but she has pride and her own methods of loving herself and making herself better

She is not gonna be this weak all the way to the end what you read now is not all of her but her weak side that is her form of trauma and anxiety

Enjoy 💜

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Sounds of water running filled the insides of the small but clean bathroom, the cold water caused the body to shivers at the touch, the rusted clock on the wall had shown 5 o'clock.

Water dripping from her hair as she wiped her body from head to toe with a navy thin towel.

Harsh, the skin goes red from the hard strokes of the previously innocent navy fabric on her hand as she wiped the unmoving ink on her skin wishing that it wasn't actually there.

The fear in her eyes showed nothing but anxiety and stress accumulated into her desperate gestures of strokes.

Red, red liquid began to show on scarred skin despite the never leaving  ink still on her body.

"cry.... Crying isn't going to make this better.... "

And she smiled, a gentle but hurt smile she used to show to the figure she had called "mom"

She continued to changed her clothes and sat once again, her hand reached the remote tv on her left side and pushed rhe red small button on the right end

Yuna still continued to stare at the unmoving set of movies showed on the screen.

And finally pushed the play button to a movie she had never seen before

"thorn of destiny"

As she watched the heart wrenching story of two lovers suffers the thorn of loving one another without destiny's blessing.

A small ironic laugh came from her mouth

"it's a happy ending anyway? They found their soulmates and forgot about each other? What an irony... What even was the point? How selfish were they to their own soulmates and the people around them?"

Her hand grabbed the small red mug on the table and proceeded to make another coffee, her small figure left the kitchen and the cold water on the stove, she once again looked in the mirror to a small chubby looking woman in front of her proceeded to open her already loose T-shirt.

"maybe the seven of my soulmates likes bts? Can it please be that instead of me getting punched by army?..........do i.... Want to meet them? Im still not even sure if im in my right mind? If this is real? Is it really 2017? April 4th? Isn't that bts wings concert ticket sales?"

Her mouth shuts and she stared long into her foot for a long while,  before the sounds of ringing began blaring through the kitchen.

Hot Water poured into the small red mug, causing the smell of instant coffee filled her nose,a happy smile plastered on her face for the first time today.

"tickets..... I guess I'll try buying one.."

Her body relaxes into the sofa as she pulled a small laptop from her work bag and her long forgotten phone.

The weirdness of it had taken her by surprise yet again, the date had still shown the 4th of aprill 2017 while her lockscreen is still displaying bts with the boy with love outfits in 2019

Time had taught her many things,  and one of them was "never take it for granted" and that you could never reverse it to have what you couldn't have, so having the chance to have the ticket concert that she had desperately wanted was a weird feeling.

Her hands began typing the ticket sales websites she had seen in the internet and entered it the queue had gotten long and she was beginning to think that she may not be able to get the ticket.

But then she finished her transaction smoothly and had chosen the middle priced seat she had found.

Yuna had the money, but it was the last bit she could scrape up from her emergency savings and what was left of her monthly wage, she might even had to fast for a few days to make it through next month's daily meals.

(fasting isn't starving yourself its a form of healthy diet you could do for your health you eat at sunrise and do not eat untill sunset its not starving yourself for days)

Working was not pleasant, living is not pleasant, her way of life wasn't anything to be called happy, but she had the need to "survive".

Her only joy was music, and her life was saved by THEIR music, she wasn't even sure she would be alive right now if it weren't for them so fasting a few days isn't anything she wouldn't do for having even the chance to take a little glimpse of their shadows and thanked them for her life.

"but i hope these marks doesn't mean anything to them im not there to meet my soulmate....."

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Notes: a short chapter but I'll update again tomorrow

Thanks for reading anyway I'm trying to improve