"First Love"

His tired eyes stared deeply to his white porcelain pale right palm

"its going to wear out if you stare at it that intensely hyung"

A small laugh came shortly from the tall man sitting in front of him

"i can't help it joon, its too good to be true"

As he strokes the ink on his right palm gently as if he was afraid that it will smudge or disappear

"don't say that hyung, you deserve it, we all deserve it, and they too deserve us"

"i know, but i have given up for a long time just to wake up this morning to a hope that has gotten too old"

"i guess its destiny's choice to make"

"but namjoon ah...ow"

His brows furrowed slightly as he flinched.

"what's wrong? Are you okay hyung?"

"they're hurting themselves right now..... I can feel it... "

Namjoon frowns at that.

"symbol of pain.... "

"but why would they do that? Why namjoon ah? Why to themselves?"

"i don't know hyung.....though i wish i do... "

Min yoongi is an introvert

and always will be one.

he was never happy surrounded by people and hated society, but he loves all his brothers, his parents and of course his music.

"the pain stopped.... "

But, his love for his destiny waseven greater although never granted...

He used to wish he had a soulmate but all his parents said at his 18th birthday was only a hundred sentences of apology with pity in their eyes, Even now they still smile with pity in their eyes

His feelings was never shown, but it had destroyed him alive to know that he had no soulmate..... So he stopped hoping at the sametime he stopped showing his emotions.

Untill he met his brothers....

He loves his brothers and they Healed him from his own self hatred and loneliness, but the small hole inside his heart was never filled even with their love.

But then it was filled the moment he woke from his sleep that evening.

"First Love"

The black ink stained his white porcelain palm in black cursive letters, as his hand traced the letters one by one, a drop of water stained his hand and then rained.

His hand began to touch his face full of tears.

"finally.... Mine"

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That was hard to write damn it i don't know him in real life so it was hard

Btw idk if this is him in real life, its my character so don't think of him as the real person okay?

His personality is gonna be a bit hard to show so be patient with me 🥺