chapter 1

As long as I can remember , my husband always has been a part of my life , I first met him in my freshmen year , in high school , I was that unseen and ordinary guy , with all the typical and state of mind , I was a huge fan of lady gaga , I already came out to some of my closest friend , but not my family, unfortunately, I came from a really traditional one and know so well that they will never accept me for the way I am even thought I was one of the excellent students in the whole school, anyways we have the same age but he looks older, he was tall and slim with large shoulders and beautiful eyes that only appears once he takes off his glasses he was my complete opposite, he has bunch of friends , he was popular and known as the sexiest and badass of the whole school , his name is Neil , the first day of school , he was there standing in front of the main door , with his friends , he was laughing out loud , he looked at me straight in my eyes , I turned my head and ignored him , and had to hear his mocking laugh through my headphones , I wished he wasn't in my class , and guess what ; he was in there , sitting in the back of the class with his friends , I was stunned , I hated every second of it , all class was around him , I stayed in my own , as always far away from troubles , I was hearing the moaning of my name and laughs ,I just wanted to escape ,as I felt someone who had a sit next to time and said " what a jerk that so called Neil , and for the first time since that hideous morning I felt less lonely , I smiled , the girl was looking at me with adoration , I loved her the moment her eyes met mine , she was funny and intelligent , wish I was straight I thought , for the next three years ,Douae became one of my best friends I will met during those long and wonderful 3 years of high school, I never understood why I was the center of his bullies , I hate him, I hate seeing him in those extra classes , we go to , nearly every day , and that he curiously attend more often than casual classes , but at that time, I didn't get those straight desire eyes that he give me , every time he was alone , which is really rare .

All the freshmen year went smoothly I get used to that bullying I was lucky to never get hurt and my friends who were there to have my back and stand for me whenever I had troubles because of him; until one day when I had to do a class project with him I was told that our teacher was the one who chooses our project partner, but I knew after then that he was the one who wrote our names in the list, I was scared to share even school assignments with the guy who showed me bad and evil behavior towards fragile and weak people.

A weekend, I was staying at home, when an anonymous phone number called me, with no second thought I picked up, it was sweet hello, I didn't recognize the voice, so I kept asking who's on the phone, he was teasing me and I freaked out when he said: it's Neil, it's a shame that u didn't know your friend's voice my jaw dropped, without a word I locked up my phone and went to shower with the only question in my head, what's wrong with him suddenly?