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How are you? Are you really good? Or do you just say that since that is what you also want to believe?

I too have this struggle within me, an everyday battle that i keep having. Someday i win (or so i thought), and someday i loose.

I have a lot of question and a lot of fear. And I choose to always stay above it, but there will always come a point were you cannot hold anymore and you just cry and wished that everything just stops.

You see, you are not alone. I too, experiences this. 

So be with me and I will lead you to a journey full of struggle and hope.

And When The World Stops

Have you ever felt alive, excited, and happy simply because you are preparing something else or because you are in the process of creating something memorable?


Or just simply because you feel that way?


Me? I can actually count the times when I felt this way: When my son visits me or vice versa, when I received high pay check or got an increase, when that special opposite specie give me surprise or whenever I know and feel that mom is happy.


I seldom felt alive, but I need to be alive because someone I love the most looks up to me and I want to give him a happy and comfortable life, it may not be the same to others but that is how I survived --- that has always been my motivation.


It was this month last year, August 2019 when my oxytocin (happy hormones) level was so high. Not only was I planning for the birthday of my son but at the same time, I was also planning a trip in Cebu with my colleague the coming month and the first out-of-the-country trip with my family.


Everything has been planned, the hotel reservations, tickets on every tourist spot or amusement park for the little one, souvenir shops destination, food park and plane ticket of course.


What was left to do, is to just go and enjoy the tour.


Busy Being Happy