Once it was me fighting for her now.....

It was worse , much worse

I stood there tears trail down my cheeks

My mother screaming , sister standing next to me . Holding my hand for comfort , tears dried fast and anger blazed through me .

I spoke words rushing to meet my mother's

voices rising , hands moving . Hearts spoke than but only ended up hurting each other .

Emotions nameless , words forgotten , but still hung in the air . My sister stood , strong , lifeless like a stone cold wall .Built not to betray the fear hidden deep down . I stood against everything with her behind me .

She was my reason to be a better person .

She was the only thing that made me

feel sane . Now even she is poisoned by this world , her child like innocence long lost as she turned into an adult . One that no longer needs to hold my hand nor needs me to wipe her tears .

She is now the eldest , protecting me , guarding me , saving me from my demons.

~A.