Don't Leave Me.

"So, finals are in a month from now." I stated to gain everyone's attention.

"Who will remain in this tution next year also ?" I curiously eyed everyone one by one.

"If results are bad then no, if good then yes." Our dear Timothy declared.

"And you Jim ?"

He looked at me and smiled, "Yup."

Before I could ask Tyler, he gave me a thumbs up.

"And what about Bianca, Sherly and Stephanie ?"

"Ah, I will stay." Sherly said. "If she is here then me too !" Bianca smiled pointing at Sherly.

Stephanie thought for a bit, "yes." She said oh-so-seriously. I knew Sam was staying and so was I. But I was worried 'bout him. Would he stay?

"Paul will not study here, I think. And if he doesn't, then I am also quitting."

Ryan's words broke my heart.

"Can't you stay? We will miss you."   

No, I will miss you.

"Let's see." Ryan shrugged.

"But all will have to write a memo ! I am not hearing any refusals." Sam chimed in with her all 32's. "Yes. I agree." I smiled at her.

"Hey Bri ! Can I ask you a question?" I just nodded in approval to Ryan.

"Do you have a crush?"

I stared him in his eyes, "yep." You.

He just pursed his lips into a thin line. "Oh. Okay."

Why did he ask though ? Who knows.

And with lots of talks and some maths our last class of 2019 came to an end. Nobody wrote a memo, and I was so sure about this happening. But one sorrow struck me hard. I won't be seeing his face from next year. Never again.

*****

"Please Ryan stay. Why leaving ?"

Me alone.

I sent the text and waited for a reply.

"Why? Any reason?" Typical Ryan type answer.

"I will miss you ! You are like the light in our tuition!"

Typing...

Why am I so anxious ?

"Really ? You don't seem like you will miss me a bit. Because you are always with Tyler, Jim and Timothy. You are supposed to miss them not me."

I was shocked. Out of my wits. He is angry.

Very angry.

"No no you also have a crush to look after right. Do I even matter to you ? We are not even good friends. So now why ? Nobody is gonna miss me. And you missing me is the last thought on my mind."

No, he is fucking furious.

"Ryan, I was never ignoring you, never. You matter to me man. But the thing is that we are a bit distant. Please forgive me. I am sorry. But I know that I will miss you more than anyone in there."

Sent.

"Hmmm. Okay apology accepted.

So whatcha doin'?"

Think. Think. Think. Gotcha !

"Chatting with my crush." I pressed the send button with a sneaky smile tugging on my lips.

"Hmmm. OK. Chat with him."

"I gotta go now bye."

I frowned.

"K. By. Night."

My inbox chimed, "night."

I smiled.

Please don't leave me...

Letting you go so easily is not on my mind.