Field day: part 1

(Eros)

The morning after talking to Antonella about us, I got up to have a quick breakfast in a nearby cafeteria, because I was determined to see Antonella again at her grandparents' house, I wanted to continue knowing about myself, about us, because it was the first Once in a long time that I dared to listen to something about my past and although I know that Antonella told me that we were a couple and that we had known each other for a long time, my instinct tells me to trust her, so I want to keep asking her questions.

I hurried and drove to Antonella's grandparents' house, hoping she was still there and not gone.

I rang the bell and it opened Jena, who had a serious face and left the door ajar just seeing me.

Hello, is Antonella there? - I asked for.

- Yeah, but she's busy - she answered curtly.

Could you tell him that I'm here? Please - I asked.

- That I can, I can, but I don't want to - she replied rudely.

By now, he knew that if she kept insisting she would receive worse treatment.

-Who is she? - Asked a female voice approaching.

Eros - I replied.

- No one! - Jena answered in unison.

- I asked you who it is - said a woman, opening the door fully.

- Eros! - exclaimed the woman, who turned out to be Antonella.

Hello - I greeted her with relief.

- What brings you here? - she asked, as she asked Jena to leave her.

Well, I ... I wanted to invite you to a picnic, of course, if you accept, I don't want to interrupt or bother you ... - I said stammering.

- Hey, calm down. I am free, let me tell you that I will leave, wait for me here a moment - she answered, going to tell me that I would leave.

Good - I answered.

Antonella left her grandparents' house and I invited her to get into my car. Already on the way ...

Is it okay if we go through a market to buy some things? - I suggested.

- Sure, what do you plan to buy? she asked.

Well ... what do you buy for a picnic? - I asked embarrassed.

- Have you never been to one? - she asked, laughing.

The truth? ... no - I said sadly.

-Don't worry, I'll teach you ... although you knew before ...- she said with a kind smile.

Thank you ... - I replied blushing.

The truth is, the idea of going to a picnic came to me out of nowhere, I didn't plan it, I just wanted to do it.

We went to a market to buy what we needed, we bought a basket, some blankets, some fruit and some soft drinks while we talked about many banal things, and we laughed. Then we went to a restaurant and bought something to eat, nothing fancy, because Antonella didn't like extravagant things very much ... Now I can understand why I was madly in love with her ... she is a very simple, kind woman with everyone, always everyone who attended us or with whom we passed, she smiled at them and treated them very kindly ... it is incredible how someone can radiate so much kindness and kindness ...

After getting everything, we went to a field that she knew, where there were some horses, she told me that she knew the owner of the property so that's why we went.

Once we arrive we arrange the blankets and take out the things that we keep in the basket.

So ... I'd like you to tell me more about myself ... - I mentioned.

- So that's why you invited me to this picnic ... - she said.

Uh ... yes, I hope you don't mind - I said apologizing.

- Don't worry, everything is fine - she replied with a smile - what do you want to know? - she asked.

How was I with people? - I asked for.

She sighed.

- You were the kindest person you can meet ... - she began by saying - whenever someone needed help, you were always there; What's more, I remember that there was once a time when a colleague from the camp had her period and you simply stood behind her and put your jacket on her to cover herself, then you told her to go to the women's bathroom and that you you would give the scope with what I needed. So you went to look for me at my cabin and you told me everything that had happened and you asked me to accompany you to help her, and I took a pair of pants that I had and I brought it to her along with sanitary napkins ... - she sighed again - that's where I realized how lucky I would be if I had you as a boyfriend, and I began to wish that you felt the same, so when you told me that you liked me, I did not hesitate for a single second to tell you that I felt the same - she concluded.

So I was like that ... - I said with a relieved smile.

- Everyone loved you ... they still miss you ...- she mentioned with her head down but holding her smile.

I ... now I'm different ... I'm not as good a person as you say I was ... - I said sadly.

- We all change Eros, nobody is the same person they used to be before, but I'm sure of one thing - she said approaching and wrapping her arm around my shoulder - you more than anyone know how much you crave to be a good person, and to know that you were one before of your accident, it will only make you want to make that last, so, do not be discouraged, as long as there are people who know what you were like ... nothing will change - she said hopefully and looking at the landscape.

In that moment I could feel that I never really had much to worry about. If I had known ... or at least, I had not closed myself to see my acquaintances after the accident, maybe I would not be as serious a person as I was ... maybe I just needed to be reminded of who I was ... Maybe he just needed her ...

Right now I can't even think about Valentina or what he's doing with her, or anything about her. What's more, I can only remember that the accident she had made her be nice to me, but with Antonella it is different. Years have passed and Antonella continues to feel the same for me, she is a person who wins the hearts of others without even asking for permission ...

I no longer know if the love that she could swear to Valentina is something that she still wants to do, or that she wants to continue feeling ...