Shocked

As they drive away, I think to myself, "Of course… I'm an Idiot. An idiot, someone that one no one wants to be around. Ugh, never mind. I just met her, I'm in no position to feel jealousy."

A few water drops fall from the sky on my face. The water drops turning into a storm. My clothes become soaking wet; I say to myself, "I should get home."

I slowly walk home thinking back to everyone that left.

"Don't worry my baby, you'll be alright. I'll be back one day, just wait."

Those are the last words I heard from my mother. She left me after I finished middle school, I don't know where she went or what she's doing. My father committed suicide, he said that this world is full of hate and unfairness, and that he doesn't want to cause others pain. Ever since then I was alone. Left in an apartment, I always used to go to the café that Nora owns. I met her when I was 16. Ever since then she's been looking out for me.

I arrive at home and unlock my door as I step inside I say, "I'm home.."

I get ready for bed, I take a shower, wash my hair and make some green tea. At least I have books, I open a book and start reading. Suddenly, my body stops moving, "Fuck!! paralysis. Argh." the book falls on the ground and the tea spills over me, "Arghh! Damnit. Why, Why?!?!"

I yell out, "What's wrong with me? Why can't I just be fucking normal? Not have depression? Not have this fucking chronic disease… I just want to give u-"

I start tearing up by thinking about everyone and everything. My thoughts get cut off by a phone call. I look at who's calling and it says, "Celia"

I answer and I hear a faint, "hey."

Trying to move again, I sit up and answer, "Hey, what's up?"

she stutters her words, "I just wanted to apologize for leaving so suddenly."

I try to dry of my tears as I answer, "No need for an apology, did you get home safe?"

She giggles softly and answers happily, "Yeah, I did. Did you?"

I look out my window and think of how it stormed, "I think so, it started raining on my way. I'm alright though."

She answers, "Are you sure?! Make sure you don't catch a cold!"

I laugh almost having to cover my mouth, "Don't worry, I'm alright. If not, I'll be alright."

I hear a heavy and loud voice in the background yelling "Hey! Who's that? Who are you talking to? Come here!"

Answered with Celia's screaming "Ah! No, let go of me! Let me go!"