Chapter Sixteen - Sweet 16

I heard the door screech, which made my eyes suddenly widen. I noticed Billie in the kitchen with Adrienne placing some cinnamon rolls on to a baking sheet and situated them into the oven.

"Oh sh*t. You weren't supposed to see that!" Billie giggled.

After Billie took the oven mets off and threw them into the drawer he started wrapping his arms around me and started to hug me.

"Happy birthday, Emily. Everyone is going to your party is going to be there like, Jakob and Joey. Also, Mike, Tré, and their families," Billie said puckering his lips to kiss me.

He kissed me on the cheek then I beamed.

"Uh... Thank you, Billie," I said to Billie smiling, excited about the party.

I was done getting ready at 3:30. I plopped down on the couch next to Billie which was on his phone, scrolling through Instagram.

"Well... Honey, your birthday party is going to be at Tré's house, all right. We'll have to be there at around, an hour. It takes about 15 minutes to get there," Billie said sitting on the couch, we were waiting for Adrienne to be finished getting ready.

"Oh sh*t, I forgot something, I'll be right back," Billie said worried, whenever the three of us gotten into the car, as he opened the passenger door.

A minute later, Billie opened the passenger car door then plopped down in the seat, I noticed he had something in his lap. Then we headed for Tré's house, about 5 minutes into the car ride I gotten a text it was from Billie, he's such a dork.

Hey Emily, I'll tell you 'the secret' after the cake and presents is done, Mike said Brixton is going to go into the other room to go play his tablet while Mickey is going to take a nap. I'm such a f**king dork for texting your this when you right there. Ha ha ha.

I smiled whenever I read his text, I noticed he was sitting back in the seat then I whispered in his ear, "I just gotten your text," I laughed. Then I gotten a notification on my phone that was a thumbs up (👍).

We reached Tré's house, which the house appeared humongous, there were about six or seven cars parked there.

"You guys go in the house, I'll be right in," Adrienne murmured to Billie whenever he opened the passenger door.

"All right, Eighty," Billie answered wrapping a black bandana around my eyes, so I couldn't see anything.

I heard the door fly open, then Billie untied the bandana. The next thing I know, everyone was screaming, "SURPRISE!" as loud as humanly possible. About an hour later, we had cake, which was chocolate. I noticed something Billie was a little off, he was depressed most of the time there he just watched TV, he even didn't want to hang out with Mike and Tré, something might've been bothering him.



Then we did presents, after cake, Billie walked out of the guest bedroom slowly, by the way his eyes appeared, they looked like he was crying recently, I wondered what the problem with him was.

Mike gotten me band merch from the concert from the other night and then Tré give me a check for 500 dollars.

Billie stood up and said, "I forgotten something, it's in the guest bedroom,uh... I'll be right back."

It was about 15 then 20 minutes passed, Billie didn't come back into the living room.

Mike elbowed me, "I think you should check on Billie, Emily," he whispered to make sure nobody heard.

The guest bedroom door was cracked, I and loud sobbing coming out of the room. I slowly opened the door and noticed Billie was sitting on the bed, bawling his eyes out.

"What's wrong, Billie?" I asked trying to comfort him, handing him the box of tissues from the wooden nightstand.

"Oh thank you... Uh... I kind of don't want to tell you 'the secret', 'cause you might not think the same of me you do now. You'll hate me. I've just been sitting in this room think about that the whole f**king time. I'll go in there and give you the gift and then we can come back in here and talk about 'the secret'," Billie answered blowing his nose.

Billie and I walked back in the living room here everybody else was situated at.

Billie whispered in Mike's ear, "I'm going to go tell her the 'secret' in private. So tell everybody to do whatever they want, but not to go into the guest bedroom," he whispered loud enough for Adrienne hear it which she was sitting right next to him.

"Ahh... Okay, I got you!" Mike answered smiling.

Billie sat by me on the wooden floor and handed me a present that was wrapped in turquoise wrapping paper. I slowly opened up the gift hearing the paper shredding and what was inside extremely surprised me, they were car keys. Then Billie winked at me, "Well... I guess you can't wait to learn how to drive, 'cause I'm gonna teach you!"

Then Mike said while Billie and me were walking into the guest bedroom, "Uh... Please don't go into the guest bedroom, Billie said he's going to take a nap."

"Good one, Mike. Good one," he whispered under his breath and started laughing. Then slowly closed the door.

Then Billie stared at me for about 5 seconds and then he asked, "Emily are you ready, to hear 'the secret'? I know, you might not like me after I tell you it but y' know, it's the truth," Billie frowned looking at the floor.

"Yes, Billie, it's has been for over a month now! Please tell me," I told Billie.

"Well, this will be a lot to take in you understand? All right...Where do I start... Where do I f**king start? Uh... Emily, look at me in the eye, you might not believe me; however, I think it's time to tell you, Lynn also wanted us to tell you on your sixteenth birthday... We... We... Are your biological parents, Emily... We you put you up for adoption when you were a baby... We didn't want the pressures of fame to get to you... So, I asked if Lynn could adopt you, since she was a good friend of ours, I knew that she would take great care of you, and then she contacted me whenever she found out that she had breast cancer, if we could adopt you back. So that's partially true about you being our adoptive child, Emily. I'm so sorry, you had go had to through the emotional trauma, I wish she would have told you sooner but it's the same time I'm kind of glad that I-I told you now, I'm sorry if you don't like me anymore. I'm probably the person that gave you all these motherf**king issues that we call 'mental problems', That doctor was probably right about that, of course, my smarta** self had to say a lie, " Billie sat there crying his eyes out.

"I can't believe my life it's been a lie... A motherf**king, lie! Probably you're f**ked up head probably was like let's have sex one more time, Eighty. Yeah... And this time let's hope it's a girl that has all the issues I have and if not more mental issues. You've never had an abusive stepfather, to hurt you on purpose or make fun of you, and/or had a mother or mother figure that cared about you than herself then she would give up her life for your own, Billie. I wish you could understand that, I wish you weren't my dad. I wish I never even existed, Billie! You are right about ONE thing I HATE YOU!" I hollered, I sprinted into the bathroom.

I was thinking maybe tonight I can run away from the house, I don't want to see him anymore. He was just a hypocritical liar, he didn't know the best for me at all. He said he was trying the best for me, however; he would have not left me at a place where in abusive person is at all, I don't even think Billie even truly cared for me. Those long talks and fun times we had together, now, I highly regret even meeting him or even living at all. I wish that the day that I thought about suicide, I should have done it.