Never Again..
A/N
This Chapter includes self-harm and Rape. I will not go into detail because that is disturbing for me, I'll just write about what generally happened. Ok, that's it, enjoy.
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I thank Chris for all he's done for me and he walks me home. Once we arrive he hugs me tightly then leaves. I wish he didn't have to go, today was a lot of fun. Oh well, I walk inside and I no longer see my mother's body, although I do see even more empty beer bottles. I try to find my dad, which I do find him. He's in my room for some reason, "Dad?..why are you in my room?" He turns to me then looks at me up and down, "what happened to you. You look like a gay little boy." I decide not to tell him...I can't, not yet, "Oh...I just got tired of long hair..sorry." He gets up and stumbles over to me then slaps me, "bullshit...what happened to your chest?" I hesitate but say, "oh..I'm wearing a binder." He looks at me and almost immediately says "Take it off." I wait for him to get out but he doesn't, "Can you get out so I can.." He laughs, "No. Take it off. Now." My eyes widen, why would he want me to do that... I don't move and he starts to get angry. He pins my hands above my head and takes my jacket off, then my binder. I don't look at him and start tearing up, what is going on...why is he doing this. He starts...messing with my chest. It's...disgusting. I try to pull away from him but he slaps me, harder than he has before.
{Time Skip}
I lay there curled up in my bed, horrified. I have bruises all over my body now from trying to either scream for help or trying to getaway. I feel...disgusting. Why...why would he do that to me. I start crying, I feel..terrible. It hurt...so much. Everything...hurts. I start crying even more and I hold myself trying to find some sort of comfort. I will never...ever do something like that with someone. Never...never again. I get up and I can barely even walk, my legs hurt so much... I somehow make it to my bathroom and look at myself in the shattered mirror, this makes me cry harder. I walk into the shower and turn the water on and just stand there under the water.
{Another Time Skip}
A few weeks have gone by...since he's started...touching me. He won't stop...I hate it. I hate him...I hate that house. "Hey, Riley. Are you alright?" I jump a little bit then turn around to see Chris. I hug him tightly and he hugs back. Maybe I should tell him... no, not yet. He pulls away and we go to class. When class is over I walk to the roof to enjoy the view, I see Adam but try to ignore him. He sees me and he gets some of his friends to come with him. He pins me to the wall and does so violently, "Hey what happened to you, Riley? You trying to become a guy?! Well if you wanna be a guy, it seems we need to toughen you up like on-" He stops talking after he notices that I'm legitimately shaking and silently crying. He slaps me, "Already crying are we? You're so weak" His friends start laughing but stop once I manage to say, "p-please...not again...y-you already did this yesterday...p-please...I'm s-sorry...p-please don't...I-ill do anything...j-just please don't touch me..." His friends are obviously confused and one says, "dude you already did this yesterday?" He shakes his head, "no! I have no idea what she's talking about." I start crying more, I don't realize who's even touching me anymore...I don't want to be touched like how touches me, "p-please! D-dont r-rape me again..." I feel Adam let go of me just to punch me in the face, "why would you lie like that?! I never EVER touched you like that!" I fall to the ground, "p-please help me..." He starts to curb stomp me till he gets bored then walks away with his friends who were silent the entire time... I can't...I can't take this anymore.
I get up and I struggle to walk to the restroom, but I make it somehow. I look at myself in the mirror then take my pocket knife out. I hold it to my neck, I'm sorry mom...I should have been there sooner...I'm coming to join you, momma... Chris...thank you, I know I'm weak...but I can't take it. I begin to start cutting into my neck, it's extremely painful and I cry more. I hear my name being screamed...It's Chris...He runs into the restroom and I turn my head to him a little bit before I fall, everything is pitch black and I can't hear anything.
I'm coming, momma.
{Chris POV}
I see Riley walk into the restroom so I try to wave to him, he doesn't wave back. Maybe he didn't see more....or what if...what if somethings wrong...I call his name and he doesn't walk out of the restroom so I push through people and hurry into the restroom. He turns his head and I see it...the knife that's cutting into his neck. He passes out due to blood loss and I catch him before his body hits the ground. I pick him up and hurry out of this stupid school. I run as fast as I can to the nearest Hospital, thankfully one is close. I take him inside and the nurses and doctors rush him into a room. I have to wait outside but I'm sure they are stitching up his neck.
When they finish I'm allowed in his room, he's awake with bandages around his neck. There are tears in his eyes and soon I'm tearing up myself, I walk up to him and hug him ever so gently, "are you...okay?" I can't ask him why he did that...I need to just be there for him. He hesitantly says, "N-not really..." I lift my head to look at him
"Chris...I need to tell you a few things..."