Chapter 41- You don't understand

I walk past Hero to the guard booth then out of the house to the nearest taxi stand at the end of the street. I notice Hero following me so I pick up my pace until I find myself running only to be chased by him. He catches my wrist and pulls me back to stop.

''Let go of me'' I say as I turn to face him.

''Where are you going?'' He asks, his face unreadable.

''Back to the tent and most of all away from you'' I tell him and try to pull my wrist away.

''I will drive you back''

''Like I'm going anywhere with you'' I spit and pull my hand away and turn to walk away from him.

He runs up in front of me and stops me in my tracks.

''I said let me drive you back''

''No'' I say and walk past him.

''Get in the car and I will take you back'' He demands. He's now blocking my way and as I try to move past him he completely blocks my way and now we're both inches away from each other as we look into each other's eyes.

''Fine'' I calmly say and turn to walk back to his car parked in the driveway.

I walk away from him but he runs up to me and walks at my side. I fold my arms across my chest as I walk to his car. He unlocks the car and I get inside the passenger seat. We drive in complete silence and the tension between the two of us fills the small space in the car. He's quiet right now and it's scaring me because I know I'm gonna have it really soon. I stare out the window while Hero's eyes are on the road. I feel his eyes on me a few times but every time I turn to look at him he looks away and pretends that he wasn't looking when I know that he was.

''Why did you go there tonight?'' He asks.

''Because I was invited'' I look at him and his face is dead serious.

''Didn't I tell you not to go?''

''I know but it was my decision''

''It's my father's house and if I told you not to go you shouldn't have'' he says and I don't respond as I know he's right.

It's his father's house and his family and I shouldn't have gone to dinner if he told me not too but it's still my decision because I got invited.

'' You haven't talked to me for the last few days so how did you know that I would come here?'' I question him.

''Because I know you, Sia, you're stubborn and always looking for trouble so it's obvious that you would come'' he says without looking at me.

''I'm neither of those things and if anyone's looking for trouble it's you, you could be a part of their family and be the total opposite of what you are. You need people like them in your life''

''Bullshit! You don't get to fucking tell me what to do with my life you just need to stay out of it!'' he yells.

''How can I stay out of it if you keep coming around me?''

''Coming around you? It's you that keeps coming around me because believe me after a few nights ago I wanted nothing to do with you. I just came here tonight to get you out and make sure you never go back there. You have nothing that I want, I'm not desperate'' He snaps and I don't respond.

Desperate? Did he really just say that? I don't bother to respond because he'll just hurt me even more with his words instead I turn my face and continue to look out the window at the buildings passing by. What does he mean that I have nothing that he wants? I have no sexual experience and the most I have done was with him, I also don't have any tattoos nor do have colored hair, I don't drink or smoke or do any of the things that he or his group does so he's right I have nothing that he wants. I know it's true but it's just hard to hear the words. I feel a tear slowly roll down my cheek, I just sniffle and let it fall.

We keep driving until he finally stops. Fear takes over me as I notice the unfamiliar surroundings. We're parked at the end of a street or something and surrounded by long grass, it's more of a dead-end road.

Where are we?

My mind was too distracted by tonight's events that I didn't even notice that he trailed off the road to come here. Why the hell would he bring me here?

Is he going to do something to me?

This looks like a place where you lure someone to kidnap them or something. There aren't even any street lights or buildings or anything nearby, it's just pitch black and everything is barely visible. How did he even see to drive in here? I turn my face to look at him and he has one of his hands on the steering wheel while he looks ahead into the darkness ahead of him.

''What are we doing here? Take me back to the tent'' I command.

He doesn't respond nor even looks at me. What are his plans? why did he bring me here?

''Why did you bring me here?'' I ask and he still doesn't respond.

I unbuckle my seatbelt and turn my body to face him.

''Why did you bring me here?'' I ask.

''Go'' He says.

''What?''

''Get out and go back to the tent by yourself'' He calmly says.

He can't be serious. That was my plan in the first place, I was going to go back by myself but he demanded that he take me and now he brings me to some dead-end road in the middle of nowhere where it's pitch black and I can barely see anything and now he's not telling to go back to the tent by myself, what the hell is wrong with him? Something is really wrong with him, not only does he have a bad temper but he's bipolar too.

''I don't know how to get back from here'' I tell him.

''Walk back up the road and follow the signs'' He says still not making eye contact with me.

''You're not serious?'' I ask.

''I am get out'' He says.

''I don't know where to go''

''I just told you where to''

I do as I'm told and get out of his car. I walk up the dark road and it's longer than I thought it would be, I thought it was just a short street but it's not. I'm so scared right now walking up a lonely dark street at night in the middle of nowhere.

I walk slower than I should be until I'm pulled back by my arm. I know it's Hero as I feel the familiar warmth of his body close to mine as he crashes his lips against mine. He tries to kiss me then slip his tongue in my mouth but I keep my lips in a straight line.

''Kiss me'' He demands.

What the hell is wrong with him? He just told me to get out of his car and find my way back to the tent by myself and now he wants to kiss me? He needs to see a doctor for his bipolar, I can't keep up with his mood swings.

''No, let go of me'' I push against his chest and turn to walk away from him but he grabs both of my arms in his hands and pulls me closer to him as we both look into each other's eyes.

He slowly brings his face to mine and this time my mouth opens for him. I taste some alcohol on his tongue and his lips are a bit dry, I continue to moisture them with mine as our tongues overlap. He slowly releases his grip from my arm then I put his hand on the back of his neck pulling him closer to me. I slowly pull away with my hand still on his neck and we both look deep into each other's eyes. His eyes are still bloodshot but they look less angry and calmer than before. I slowly drop my hand from his neck and turn away and walk away from him.

''Don't go'' he says and pulls me back by my wrist.

''You just told me to a minute ago''

''I know but I don't want you too''

''Then why did you tell me too?''

''I don't know I was mad. We will talk about it later''

''Well I don't wanna talk about it later there is nothing to talk about. I already know the way you are and you'll just continuing hurting me, that's all there is to it'' I say and he lets out a sigh of distress.

''Just come back in the car and we'll talk about it on the way back'' He says and I nod.

I follow him back to the car and I sigh in relief as we drive out of the road and head back into the city.

''Were you really gonna leave me out there?'' I cry.

''No of course not'' he says and with that, we stay silent for a while.

''What did you do today?'' he asks casually.

''Nothing really just the usual. We didn't hike or anything today''

''Oh, so are you tired?''

''No'' I say confused. Why does he want to know if I'm tired?

''What did you do today?'' I ask him.

''Nothing, just some work, and stuff'' He says.

''Were you drinking tonight?'' I ask.

''Yeah''

''Why?''

''Because I wanted too'' he says and I roll my eyes but I decide to leave it at that.

I realize he always drinks whenever he's mad and whenever he's not with me, with me I see the true side of him, the kind, loving caring Hero not the one who drinks and smokes and says horrible things to people just because he feels like it, I see the real him when he's with me not the one everyone knows . I know many people do drink and smoke but what is the point of that? Drinking and smoking is just destroying your body but it isn't making your life or the situation or in any better it will just make it worse and I really wanna tell him that but I don't think now is a good time too.

We drive in silence for another 10 minutes before I notice the familiar surroundings of the forest.

''What? No, I told you to take me back to the tent'' I tell him.

''I'll take you back after''

''After what?''

''After we talk''

He parks the car and gets out but I don't I just stay inside with my arms folded across my chest refusing to get out. He walks over to my side of the car and opens the door. He looks at me for a second before he gently moves one of my arms away unfolding them before he unbuckles the seatbelt, he takes my hand in his and gently pulls me out of the car letting my purse fall back onto the seat. He takes my purse and holds it in his other hand as his other hand is occupied with mine.

He locks the car and leads me the way with his hand not letting go of mine. We're just going to talk and after that, I'm leaving, I've said that about 10 times so far but this time I'm serious, I'm leaving after we talk. As we reach inside his house he slams me against the door and crashes his lips onto mine, he raises one of my thighs and puts it around his waist as his hand lifts the hem of my dress up a bit and his fingers graze my bare thigh. I kiss him back with more hunger and lust as he does to me. No, no, he's not distracting me like this, he said he brought me here so that we can talk not do this.

''No'' I push him away gently.

''What?'' He asks.

''So what do you think you can just bring me here and we would do this then I would spend the night with you and everything will be okay?'' I say and his expression tells me that that was his plan.

''If you didn't bring me here to talk then take me back to the tent'' I demand.

''Fine, let's go in the bedroom''

''Why do we have to go in the bedroom to talk, let's just talk out here'' I tell him and he doesn't say anything instead he walks over to the couch and sits back with his head resting on the top back of the couch. I follow him and take a seat next to him.

I turn to face him while he looks up at the ceiling.

''Are you okay?'' I ask.

I figure that I need to start this conversation off calm and not intruding, I'll start up slow and try to get him to talk about tonight but I'm not going to push him because then we will end up fighting again, hopefully, it works and he'll talk to me.

''Yeah'' he says and lifts his head off the couch, his elbows are now his knees as he sits up with his body leaning forward.

''I didn't think you would show up there tonight'' I start.

''Yeah neither did I''

''How did you handle it?'' I ask and he doesn't respond he just looks down at his fingers.

I move from my spot on the couch to in front of him, I stoop down in front of him between his legs and gently rub his thighs up and down causing him to look down at me.

''I'm sorry that I went there tonight'' I apologize hoping it would make him less angry and feel a bit better.

''You don't understand'' he says and leans back on the couch and lays his head back looking at the ceiling.

''Seeing him after what he did, the kind of man he was, how much he ruined my life to see him here now with his perfect little family in America when he ruined mine, I just hate it'' He continues, I remain silent hoping he would tell me more.

''Every night he would be drunk and would come home smelling like smoke. When I was growing up he acted like the father he was supposed to be but when I was a teenager he changed and I think something happened between him and my mom because since then he started drinking every night which he never used to do before''

''What do you think happened between them?''

''I don't know and I don't think I want too but all I know is that I hate him and don't ever want to be around him''

''What did your mom do when he came home drunk every night?''

'' I don't know they would go out to the shed at the back to the house and argue because they didn't want me to hear'' he says.

''Although a couple of times, I followed them in the back and heard them. They were arguing about money and where he was in the last few weeks''

''Last few weeks?'' I ask.

''Yeah, a couple of times he disappeared for a few weeks without any word from him and he would just return home anytime he wanted to give us the most unbelievable lie''

''Oh'' Is all I can say. He leans forward and his face is so close to mine that I can feel his breath on my skin as she speaks.

''Don't ever go back there again. I mean it'' he says and I nod.

He moves past me and walks in the kitchen. I sit on the couch and look at him for a while then he walks into the bedroom and closes the door.

Is he mad at me? I think he is. Maybe he just wants to be alone tonight.

I move from my spot on the ground and get my purse on the floor then move to head out the door.

''Where are you going?'' He asks from behind me.

''Back to the tent'' I say and I watch as his expression changes and he looks a bit perplexed and worried.

''You really gonna leave me alone after what happened tonight?'' He says and I melt. Of course, I don't wanna leave him alone tonight, that's the last thing I want.

He wants me to stay with him and comfort him after tonight, he doesn't want to be alone tonight and neither do I want him to be. I want to be as close to him as possible with my fingers running through his hair while he's asleep and admiring his perfect features. I wanna stay with him more than anything but I wasn't sure if he wanted me to but now I know that he does so I guess I'm staying another night.

''I didn't think you wanted me to stay'' I admit.

''More than anything'' He says and so do I. I stand in my place near the door unsure of what to do.

He goes to the kitchen and takes out some food from the microwave and places the plate on the counter then makes his way over to me and takes the purse from my hand and throws it on the couch. He takes my hand in his then walks over to the kitchen counter grabs the plate of food then leads us to the bedroom.

* Author's note: Hey everyone stay tuned new chapter coming tomorrow and it's gonna be wild ;)*