Chapter 48- Where is she?

''So where were you and Hero coming from?'' Livia asks.

''A football game''

''Oh yeah Hero's obsessed with that, he used to take me to them all the time'' Brooke says and I turn to face her.

''What do you mean?'' I ask with great curiosity.

''When he first moved here from London he took me to a few'' Brooke says.

''London, he's not from-'' I cut myself out. He told them he's from London when he's really from Ireland. Why would he do that? He obviously doesn't want them to know so I'm not gonna tell them.

''How long did he move here?'' I ask them.

''A year'' Brooke says and looks out the window.

''So did you and Hero ever date?'' I ask her.

''No, Hero doesn't date and neither do I''

''Why you wanna date him?'' Livia butts in.

''No uhm I was just asking''

''Have you fucked him yet?'' Brooke raises her brows. Oh my god, I have no idea how to answer this.

''Uhm...'' Is all I can say.

''He's good isn't he'' she says.

''God I'm feeling for him right now especially his mouth''

''Okay... ladies let's keep those thoughts to ourselves'' Dash says from the driver's seat.

''Nothing could be better than that night though''

''What night?'' I ask hoping to know more.

''Gangbang night'' Livia says and I lower my brows in confusion. What is gangbang?

''Wait, Livia, I think little Sia doesn't know what that is, do you?'' Brooke asks and I shake my head.

''It's like where a group of people all have rough sex with each other'' Livia tells me.

''So you guys did that?''

''Yeah who didn't'' She says.

''Hero was so good and he got hard so fast that night'' Brooke says and I feel to throw up and cry at the same time.

Gangbang sex, that's the first time I heard about that and it's disgusting. Why would he do that? That's so disgusting just thinking about it, all ten of them. This just shows how disgusting he is.

Gosh I don't even wanna see him again after those hurtful things he said and after I just found out he has gangbang sex, that's the most disgusting thing ever and he disgusts me.

''Wait where are we going? I thought you were gonna drop me off by the tents or something'' I ask.

''Why don't you come to the cabin for a while'' Dash says.

''No it's uhm late I need to get back''

''Don't worry we won't be long'' he says as we pull up in front the cabin.

We walk inside and I notice the rest of the group sitting on the couch in the living room except Hero, thank god.

''Sia long time no see, where has Hero been hiding you?'' Axe asks and I walk and sit down on the couch and Stone gets up from the ground and out of all the places he could sit he sits down next to me.

''Where's Hero?'' Stone asks me. If anyone asks me one more time where Hero is I would literally scream and run out of here.

''I don't know'' I say the truth.

''Surprising you came here without him''

''I can go anywhere I want, I don't need his permission''

We continue talking for a while and they ask me questions like how long I'm here for again and some stuff about Hero but I tell them that I don't wanna talk about him right now. I try to keep the conversation about everyone else but me so I ask them questions about themselves. Stone's phone rings and he gets up to answer it.

Hero's POV

''Is she there or not?'' I ask Stone.

''Oh yeah she's right here naked on top of me'' he says and I feel all the air leave my body and replaces it with anger and all I wanna kill him right now.

''What the fucking hell do you mean! You fucking son of a bitch, I will kill you!'' I scream through the phone. He can't be serious, she wouldn't do that.

''Woah Woah Woah I was just messing with you dude, calm down. She's inside the cabin. Since when did you become so obsessive?'' he asks.

''Don't ever fucking say shit like that again and how did she get there?'' I ask, my voice and tone much softer than before.

''She came in with Dash, Livia and Brooke'' he says.

''Did Brooke say anything to her?''

''I don't know''

''Tell her to keep her mouth shut and don't tell her anything''

''Yeah alright''

''I'll be there in 10'' I say and just as I'm about to put my finger on the end call button he says something.

''Did you really think I would do that bro? You know I wouldn't fuck her if you weren't okay about it. Bros before hoes remember?''

''Brothers for life''

''Brothers for life'' He says and I hang up.

How the hell did Sia get there? What the fuck is she doing there? It's like the places I forbid her to go to it's the same places she goes just to piss me off that's why. I'm now driving back from a bar in Escondido. I've been calling Sia's phone every minute in the last hour but she hasn't picked up, expected. She fucking pissed me off so much I wanted to slam the wall right next to her outside the pharmacy. I had a few shots and now I have a terrible headache that Sia caused. Brooke fucking better not say anything to her, I know she hates her and wants to get her mad but now is not the time to tell her until it's over.

Every time I touch Sia or she's in my arms I feel this feeling that I've never felt before and I wonder if she feels it too. Nah, it's nothing, every time I feel it I just push it back but I've been feeling it for a while now and ever since the first night we slept together I felt it the most.

When Stone made that joke about Sia being naked and on top of him, ugh just thinking about that makes me want to punch something then kill it afterwards.

I felt a rage come out in me and I immediately wanted to kill him and I didn't even care if we are brothers for life, I just wanted to go after him for even touching Sia, no one will ever touch her but me.

Sia will never be anyone else's but mine and she said that herself, at least for now and the thought of anyone else's hands on her makes me wanna kill them. I can't stand it, seeing her with anyone else, ugh I erase that image from my head.

My mother keeps calling all night but I ignore her, I'll call her back in the morning. She's so annoying sometimes, she calls me for no reason just to ask me the stupidest question: how am I? I can't stop thinking about what Sia is doing there and if Brooke told her anything.

I finally reach the cabin and park my car right out front next to Dash's car. I rush inside and I see Sia sitting on the couch next to Stone but he's sitting away from her. As soon as she sees me her eyes snap up and she freezes. Is she scared? She should be.

''Let's go'' I tell her but she ignores me.

I walk up to her and grab her arm.

''Let's go'' I tell her again and she says no. I'm aware of everyone's eyes on us but I don't care.

''Sia, don't be stupid okay let's go''

''Leave me alone, you don't get to tell me what to do''

I grab her wrist instead and pull her outside. She tries resisting but she is no match for me. As we get outside I let go of her wrist and immediately she starts running.

What the hell is wrong with her? Why is she running?

I catch her and lift her from behind and pull her back. She's soaking wet right now from the rain and so am I but I think I'm wetter. I grab both of her arms roughly and turn her to face me and tears are in her eyes but she stays calm and doesn't try to resist, she just holds onto my hands keeping her in place. We both look at each other for a while and I watch the tears as they keep falling from her eyes. The only sound to be heard is the raindrops as they impact with the ground. Gosh is this storm gonna last all night? What is she crying so much about? Was it what I told her?

She finally mutters something that I can understand at first but after a while I finally understand it and I feel the saddness sweeping through me, Sia's saddness is contagious.

''Sia that was a long time ago okay. When I first got here I used to do it but I don't anymore and I haven't done it in a while at least since I met you. Sia, please don't cry I know it hurts to hear but that was before a long time ago. Back then I was even a worse person than I am now and most of the time when we would do it I was drunk and I didn't know what the hell I was doing but most of the time I wanted to do it because I was stupid and I would have nothing better to do with my life but I don't do that anymore, that was in the past'' I tell her and she looks me in the eye and her expression is unreadable but I notice her a bit calmer than when we first came out here.

''All that stuff that I said, I'm sorry. I didn't mean any of it but you just kept pushing and saying things to get me mad and I- I just snapped I guess but I'm so sorry for saying those things I know how much it hurts you and hearing about the gangbang made it even worse. I haven't done that in a long time and it didn't mean anything to me please just try not to think about it, it'll only get worse if you do. Let's just put all that behind, it didn't mean anything'' I finish.

''Please say something'' I beg. Since when do I beg?

''That's so disgusting, I don't know why you would do that'' She says.

''I know it is and I don't know why I did it either and I wish I could take it back''

''You can get sick by doing that with so many people. I can't believe you would do that'' she says.

''Look that was a long time ago, just please forget about it and don't let that come between us''

''Did you also take Brooke to a football game too?'' She asks. How may fucking things did Brooke say to her?

''Yes but it was only once when I now moved here and I didn't meet Stone or Axe or anyone yet it was only her and Gigi and Gigi was busy and Brooke offered to go with me but it was only once'' I say. I hope she didn't tell her anything else.

''Sia let's just forget about tonight okay? After the football game, things started getting shaky and then it led up to this. The things you saw in the pharmacy, the things I said and the gangbang. That's in the past, it doesn't define who I am especially when I'm with you. Can we just forget about tonight? Please'' I ask and to my surprise, she nods.

''Don't cry'' I tell her and put both of my hands on each of her cheeks and kiss her forehead before I bring her into my arms. Her hair is a bit wet from the rain but her face is soaked with tears.

''How could say those things to me?'' she says in my chest.

''I'm so sorry, I'm just an asshole that's why''

''No you're not'' she whispers against my chest and I kiss her head once more.

''Where's your jacket?'' I ask her.

''Inside'' she says softly.

''Wait here let me go get it'' I tell her and walk inside.

''Did you fuck her in the bushes?'' Livia laughs and I walk up to Brooke and look her dead in the eye.

''You need to fucking shut your mouth and stop saying things to her. Why the hell would you tell her about the gangbang and stuff?''

''Oops she didn't know'' She lies.

''Watch your mouth''

''Or what are you gonna do to me?'' She wickedly smiles. I wanna fucking slap that smile right off her face.

''I thought you said you ended it?'' Gigi says and they all look at me.

''I will soon''

''It's been a while since we hooked up, how about tonight?'' she asks.

''Got work to do tonight, maybe some other time'' I lie and walk off.

''Oh hey Stone was just about to talk to you'' Stone says as I reach the door.

''Want a drink?'' He asks.

''Nah I'm good'' I say and he gets up and slings his arm on my shoulder and looks at me.

''Everything alright? Why have you been acting so weird lately'' He questions me.

''I'm fine it's nothing'' I tell him.

''Why have you been so distant? you barely come to any of the parties and we don't get out like we used to'' he accuses me.

''Alright when do you wanna get out?''

''Wednesday, we have something planned. I'll text you it later'' He says and we slap hands before I walk out the door.

I see Sia with her arms folded across her chest and she looks cold as she looks out into the distance.

''Here'' I say and give her the jacket.

I put the hood over her head we rush off to the car trying not to get soaked for the tenth time tonight. We drive in awkward silence for a while until she breaks it.

''No I wanna go back to the tent'' She says.

''I don't think you should be alone tonight especially with this storm'' I tell her.

''It's already almost midnight, I should just stay in the tent''

''I'll take you back early in the morning'' I tell her and park to the front.

I grab her hand and hold her bag in the other as we run inside.

''Can I take a shower?'' she asks as we reach inside my room.

''Yes'' I tell her.