Chapter 49- Detroit

Sia's POV

I walk into the bathroom alone. Hero looked like he wanted to say something after he told me that I can take a shower but he just kept quiet. I get in the shower and I try to let the warm water calm me as I think about all that has happened tonight. Just before the game Hero was comforting me telling me that I'm beautiful and intelligent and I'm not a horrible person, it's hard to believe that 3 hours later he told me the opposite making me feel like I'm nothing and stupid. His words hurt so much more than he thinks it does.

His hurtful words weren't the worst part about tonight it was finding out that he used to have group sex, images flash in my head about him and Brooke, him touching her and her touching him. I know he isn't mine or anything and he can do whatever he wants with his life but I don't want him sleeping with other girls while he's sleeping with me.

Wait, is he still sleeping with her? or worst of all is he sleeping with others?

No no, I hope he isn't, would he do that? Of course, he would before he apologized he told me that I don't satisfy him and I don't have anything that he wants and I believe that it's true. Dejection takes over my body as I think about him with other girls and tonight's events. At the cabin, Hero looked a bit hurt himself when he was talking to me and he made it clear that he used to do those things a long time ago and I saw it in his eyes that he looked a bit hurt when he saw my tear-soaked face.

I get out of the shower and I reluctantly change into my pajamas, I wanna wear Hero's shirt instead. I walk outside and I notice Hero lying down on the couch reading a novel, he quickly closes it and looks up when he sees me. He tells to wait for him and he's gonna take a shower.

''Can I uhm wear your shirt?'' I ask and look down as my cheeks turn red.

''Yeah sure, just look in one of the drawers right there'' he gestures to his dresser.

''Uhm actually I wanted to wear the one you're wearing now'' I say even more embarrassed. His dirty shirts are consumed with his scent way more than the clean ones.

''Sure baby'' He says and throws it to me.

I change from my pajamas and put on his t-shirt as soon as I hear the water start running. His dirty shirt smells so good, his scent inhabits it and now it inhabits my body. I walk over to the couch and I notice he was reading 'Outlander'. It really surprises me that he reads romance novels, he just doesn't seem like the type of guy who does that. I walk around his room and it's really clean, his clothes are neatly folded in his drawers and are sectioned according to the type of clothing and his bed is made and the room's really clean, cleaner than usual.

Did he clean it?

I highly doubt that. I always wonder if he cleans or if he has someone who does it for him? I doubt he cleans this place himself. I look through all of his things that he uses on top of the dresser, I smell almost all his cologne, look through his watch collection and I even spray some of his cologne on my hand just to smell it even more. I never really liked watches before especially men's watches but I really like all of Hero's watches and they look really good on his wrist, I try some of them on but they are way too big for my wrist. I continue to smell some new cologne I think he got recently because the bottles are filled compared to the others. If he only knew what I was doing right now he would think that I'm a creep. All the scents of his cologne are familiar, I've smelt almost all of them on him so far.

A vibrating noise makes me jump and stop my snooping. The noise leads me to his phone on the bedside table and I notice the name 'mom' appears on the screen as it continues to ring.

It's his mom calling. I wanna answer so bad but that's not my place too and Hero will get mad at me then we'll start fighting again, for the tenth time tonight. Besides, even if I answer it, who will I say I am? but maybe she has something important to tell him so I should answer it and take a message for him. The shower continues to run as I hit the accept button.

''Hello'' the woman says on the other end.

''Hi'' I say back nervously.

''Who are you?'' the woman asks in a gentle voice and I hear a thick accent, just like Hero's, it's Irish.

'' I'm Sia, Hero's friend'' I say.

''Oh hi, I'm his mom Victoria'' the woman says.

''It's nice to meet you well talk to you. Hero's in the shower do you need me to take a message for him?''

''Uhm no, not really. I was just calling for the hundredth time this week hoping he would pick up to just see how he's doing''

''Oh'' Is all I can say.

''Hmm Sia, I have heard that name before''

''Really from him?'' I ask.

''So you must be the prettiest girl he's ever seen with dark brown soft hair who smells like lavender whose skin is so soft'' The woman says and I'm bewildered.

''He told you about me?'' I ask with broad eyes, I still can't believe it.

Did he really tell her those things about me? Well he did because she knows about, I can't believe he described me like that, 'the prettiest girl he's ever seen with dark brown soft hair who smells like lavender whose skin is so soft' I can't believe the last part that he told her my skin is so soft.

''Yeah, I knew he was seeing someone or something because he was acting a bit different''

''What do you mean?'' I ask curiously.

''Well he was a bit calmer the last time we talked and he didn't just hang up on me, he talked to me and when we video called last week he was smiling, something I've never see him done before since a long time '' His mom says and she sounds as surprised as I am.

''Really?'' I ask smiling myself

''Yeah, he's happier and I think that's because of you'' she says and I'm astounded. Did I hear her correctly? I think I did and my heart warms as I take in what he just said and the unusual feeling that I've been feeling for some time has come back.

What is that feeling?

''I doubt that, all we do is fight all the time''

''Well sometimes the more you fight the closer you get and the more you get to understand the person and you can work out your differences. Every relationship is different and maybe you and Hero have many differences but you will work it out'' She says. She thinks we're dating and is so sure about it.

''Hero and I aren't dating'' I tell her.

''Oh'' She says and I just destroyed her happy spirit. Oh, great Sia! I just crushed the woman's spirit. I could've just gone along with it as I did with his dad and his family.

''You should come to Ireland one day'' she says.

''I don't know it seems so far and I have never even left my state''

''It's very beautiful and Hero loves it here'' She says.

''I know he does'' I smile.

''So what were you and Hero doing tonight?'' She asks.

''Well we just came from a football game and we might just sleep together after when he's out of the shower'' I say and I put my hand on my mouth to shut myself up.

What did I just say? I just told her that we aren't dating and now I just told her we're gonna sleep together after. This is so embarrassing, what is she thinking of me?

''I'm sorry I didn't mean... I uhm...'' I stutter.

''It's okay Sia, I trust that you both are being safe'' She says and I feel so embarrassed right now.

''Can I uhm ask you something?'' I ask her. It's the question I've been asking myself and I know Hero's not gonna tell me but she might.

''What is it?''

''Why is Hero in America?''

''Okay honey if I tell you, you can't tell Hero that I did at least not now because he might get mad and say that I'm spreading his business around and you know how he feels about that. He's very private about things but I think I can trust you to tell you and I hope you won't mention it to anyone or Hero yet because the last thing I would wanna do is argue with my son'' She says.

''Yes of course I understand. I won't mention it to anyone'' I say ad she says'okay'.

''Well, it wasn't-'' She starts and voice behind me makes me almost drop the phone on the floor.

''Sia!'' Hero shouts from the doorway by the bathroom. Oh god!

''Who are you talking too?'' he walks up to me and snatches the phone out of my hand.

''Your mom'' I whisper and he puts the phone to his ear as I take a few steps back.

''What mom?'' he says and she says something on the other end that I can't hear.

''Well I'm going to sleep now, I'll call you in the morning'' he says.

''Okay I'll tell her'' he says and hangs up.

He puts his phone down on the table and he looks me dead in the eye, his lips form a straight line and his expression is unreadable but I know he's angry. He's shirtless and the only thing covering his body is the towel wrapped around his waist. His hair is soaking wet and droplets of water fall onto his face.

''What were you two talking about?'' he asks after a few moments of silence.

''Nothing really just that maybe I should come to Ireland one day and how she was trying to call you'' I lie, I'm not gonna tell him about the rest.

''That's it?'' he asks.

''Yes'' I say.

''Are you done in the shower?'' I ask.

''Yeah'' He says and walks over to the drawer and pulls out a pair of joggers.

I watch his every move, my breathing begins to pick up as he pulls the towel down exposing his bare behind and he pulls the joggers up his legs without even putting on his boxers.

He walks past me, sits down on the couch and turns on the tv. Is he mad at me? I'm the one who should be mad at him after all that he has said and done to me tonight.

''Do you want me to leave?'' I ask him

''No come here'' He pats the seat next to him.

I sit down a little bit away from him and his eyes are focused on the tv. He's watching some fighting show and I'm bored so I just look down at my hands.

He then flips through the channels and I ask him if we can maybe watch the weather channel. It says that Escondido is experiencing one of its worst storms tonight and it's gonna last all night so everyone should stay indoors. It's a good thing I am, I'm with Hero in his house. All I wanna do right now is get under the covers with him and snuggle together in his bed.

He takes my hand in his and walks us to the door, he locks it then pushes me back against the wall, places one hand on the wall above my head. He moves his head close to my ear and whispers something. He tells me to stay here and he's coming back. I do as I'm told and sit on the bed while I wait for him. After what feels like 2 hours he finally returns with a bag in his hand and a garment carrier bag. Oh god, I have to change again, I was so embarrassed the last time.

''Go change'' He says and gives it to me.

''Again, why? You don't like the clothes that I wear'' I ask him.

''No I do like it but you just look much hotter in those outfits that I pick out'' He says and I blush hard then he laughs and gives me a quick kiss on the cheek and I turn around and walk to the bathroom.

I go into the bathroom and take the shirt on and change. The bodysuit is even more revealing than the last one, the part that covers my sensitive area is even thinner than the first one and my butt is hanging outside. The bodysuit is blue this time, dark blue and way more revealing. I change and I almost forgot to put on one thing, the stick on butterfly tattoo. I put it on my upper left cheek and I'm all done but scared to go outside. It really makes me wonder how he knows my size for everything because as usual, they all fit perfectly.

''Sia, you done?'' He knocks on the door.

''Yeah, I'm coming out''

I walk out no less humilated than last time. This time I'm even more embarrassed because the bodysuit is thinner and you can practically see everything. As soon as get out Hero's eyes rake up and down my body as he stands by the bed. He walks up to me and crashes his lips onto mine, I put my hand on the back of his neck as I savor the taste of his mouth.

He then pulls away and leads us over to the wall, he pushes me back then he bends down in front of me and slings my leg onto his shoulder over his back as he moves the part covering my area to the side before his mouth makes it's way down. I tilt my head back and moan as I feel his mouth down there.

He licks me from the bottom going up to the top near my stomach before he starts sucking. He uses his fingers to part me then slides his tongue deeper inside making me moan loudly as I put my hand in his hair tugging by the roots. My legs feel wobbly and my body feels like it's on fire but yet I feel a bit cold from the AC.

My stomach tightens and I press harder into the wall trying to keep my balance. God, his mouth feels so good down there, I don't want him to stop. He devours me sucking me dry before I feel a strange feeling forming in my lower stomach and my legs begin to feel weaker, the feeling is getting more intense and is going lower and lower.

''That's it come for me baby'' Hero looks up at me while he continues sucking.

Is that what I'm doing?

My moans become louder and my stomach tightens as I reach my climax with Hero's mouth never leaving my area.

''Gosh you're so sexy'' he purrs in my ear.

Hero takes my hand in his as we walk over to the bed.

''Bend over'' he instructs and I think I know what he means but I'm too embarrassed to do it.

He brings me closer to the edge of the bed, holds my waist then pushes me over. I now realize the position I'm in, I bent over with my hands on the bed and on my knees for support, while my butt is sticking out, this is the dirtiest position ever.

Hero spreads my legs a bit from behind then rubs my area up and down with his callused hand making me moan aloud. I don't what's better his hands down there or his mouth, I want them both. His hands are so rough and hard as they touch me, so hard that they make me shudder a bit but I love the feeling.

I feel him get on the bed behind me then I feel his hard erection rubbing its tip against my entrance.

''I'm gonna push in now'' he warns and I nod and turn my head back to see.

He slowly pushes inside me and stays inside then pulls out slowly then pushes back in faster. I bend my head down and try to keep myself from screaming. It hurts, it's not as painful as last time but it isn't pleasurable either, it's still a bit painful. It feels like something big and hard is trying to fit through a small, really soft hole. His erection feels even harder and rougher as this time he's not wearing the condom so the skin on his erection feels so rough pushing inside me. Hero was right it wouldn't be as painful as last time but it still is a bit. He continues to thrust into me then he turns me around on my back and spreads my legs apart.

He looks at me straight in the eye then I hear a ripping noise. He tears the bodysuit off my body, he doesn't do it roughly which I'm thankful for. I don't like anything rough or hard that'll hurt me, especially sex and I think he's aware of that too as he's always gentle with me.

He throws the ripped bodysuit on the edge of the bed then he unclasps my bra. He does all of this with his eyes never leaving mine, I look down at him and his erection is hard and near my entrance making me want him inside me so bad.

He makes his way closer to my face then crashes his lips against mine, our tongues overlap as I put my hand on the back of his neck and the other on his back. He kisses me slow and deep and I can feel the consuming passion between us.

His head moves down to my neck and he kisses very inch, he sucks down hard on a few spots that I know is gonna leave a mark tomorrow, his hands cup my breasts then his mouth sucks on each of my breasts before his mouth trails down to my stomach.

He plants a trail of kisses from my breasts all the way down to my lower stomach then he makes his way back up to my lips. He kisses me with great hunger and need and my lips try to keep up with his, we continue kissing until I hear a vibrating noise.

''Your phone is ringing'' I tell him as I pull away.

''Ignore it'' he says into my mouth as he continues kissing me.

Who is calling him this late?

He's so strong and his body is so much bigger than mine, his body pushes mine even further into the bed and I feel his hard stomach pressing against mine, all his body weight is on me and my hand trails up and down his huge biceps while the other is on his upper back pulling him closer to me. His entire body is so hard, especially against my soft skin. After an hour of us kissing with neither of us stopping a second to breathe, he finally gets off of me and turns me back over to the previous position.

His erection feels even harder as he rubs it against me then pushes in. He continues to thrust into me while his hands grip my waist keeping me in place. He then turns me back over and spreads my legs wide for him, he rubs his callused hands on my area then I he tells me to look down. I look down and he spits some saliva into his hand and rubs by my entrance. I moan and grip the sheets and he enters me and continues to thrust. He lies on top of me with his mouth on mine and his hips continue to move as he enters me.

His back starts to get sweaty and he lets out a loud moan and I'm assuming he's at his climax. He rises from on top of me and looks down to where our bodies are connected and I do the same. He stays in me for a while and I watch as he moans and tilts his head back then I feel a thick warm liquid shoot out from him and splatters inside me filling me. He pulls out and some of his liquid makes a long trail from the tip of his erection to my entrance and it's the dirtiest yet sexiest thing I have ever seen.

''Oh fuck'' he coos as some of his liquid drips out of me.

Some of the liquid drips from the tip of his erection into my area. He rubs his liquid all over my entrance with his callused hands making me moan and grip the sheets tighter.

''Look down baby'' He says and I oblige. I see my area covered with his white sticky liquid.

''This is how I like to see you dripping and covered by me'' He says and makes his way up to my lips kissing me.

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I lay my head on his chest and play with his fingers on one hand while his other hand slowly touches my hair.

''How was tonight? Was it less painful?'' He asks.

''A little''

''It'll become less painful and more pleasurable the more you used to it''

''Why did you tell your friends you're from London instead of Ireland?'' I ask.

''Because I wanted too''

''Why don't you want them to know where you're from?''

''Because I didn't want to tell them to Sia'' he says and I know he's getting mad so I decide to drop it.

''Did you tell him?''

''No''

''How long have you moved here?'' I ask.

''Two years'' he responds but Brooke said one year, they've only known him since last year so where was he the year before that?

''So how long have you moved in here?'' I ask.

''Two years'' he says and I know he's lying. I raise my head up and look at him directly in the eye.

''Brooke said that you moved here last year and I know you're lying so where were you the year before?'' I question and he pushes me off him and gets up from the bed.

He pulls a pair of joggers up his legs and walks away.

''Why do you always get so angry whenever I wanna know something about you?'' I ask as I follow him towards the bathroom.

He doesn't answer he gets inside and slams the door shut leaving me in great apprehension.

I wait outside the door for a bit then I move to tidy up his room. I change my clothes, make his bed and just as I'm packing my stuff in my bag I hear a forceful punch followed by glass breaking, I hear glass shatter then fall on the floor.

Oh my god! Is he okay? What happened?

I hear a grunt then I hear things smash onto the floor, what is he doing? He's gonna hurt himself.

I run to the door and to my surprise it's open, I push it open immediately and sight in front of me terrifies me. Glass is all over the floor followed by blood on the counter from Hero's hands. Hero's face is pounding with rage as he stands before the counter with his hands firmly placed on the top. He turns his head to me and I regret opening the door, he looks like he wants to kill me. I back away and run out of the bedroom then as I move to open the front door his hand slams it back shut and he throws my bag on the floor then slams his hands on the door on either side of my face. I stare into his eyes and he looks like he wants to hurt me or something, I begin to cry and tears fall from my face, I wanna get out of here and never come back. He looks at me and I watch as he relaxes and his face falls as he sees the tears fall from my face. He moves much closer to me and buries his head in my neck.

''I'm so sorry'' he whispers and I feel his lips brush against my neck.

''Let me go'' I tell him as he backs away.

''Never'' he says and I feel so frightened by the tone of his voice.

He grabs my wrist and pulls me over by the couch, I try to resist but he continues to pull me. I sit away from him still terrified that he might hurt me.

''I used to live in an apartment in Detroit before I came here. Some things happened and I moved here to get away from it. I know you're gonna ask what happened but I'm not going to tell you because if I do you wouldn't want to be with me. What happened in Detroit stays there and I don't wanna bring it up again. That's all there is for you to know and I don't want that to come between us. Please don't bring it up again. I'm so sorry that I scared you but I didn't mean too. After I saw you crying I wanted to hurt myself for hurting you like that. It hurt me even more to see you cry, I'm so sorry'' He says and kisses me on the cheek. I nod slowly and move to stand up, even though he apologized I still don't wanna stay here.

I walk out the door and Hero follows me. As I reach outside the thunder roars aloud followed by lightening flashing across the sky and the storm has gotten worse. I scream softly and back away a bit then I feel huge arms wrap around me. Hero pulls me into his hard chest and puts his hand on my head.

''Come on, let's go back inside'' he says and kisses my forehead. He puts his arm around my shoulder pulling me closer to him as we walk back inside.

Hero walks over to the bathroom and I notice him start to clean up the glass. I unpack my clothes and put them back in the drawer Hero cleared for me. I walk over to the bathroom and I notice Hero standing there looking at himself in the broken glass on the wall. I walk over to him and wrap my arms around him from behind. I look down and I notice his knuckles have dried blood on them and they're busted.

''What are you thinking?'' I ask him as my hands roam his back.

''You are too good for you'' he says and that's the last thing I thought he would've said.

''Well maybe I am but that would never stop me from liking you or being with you''

''You shouldn't be with me'' he says and I back away a bit as my face falls.

''You don't wanna be with me?'' I ask my voice cracking.

''I do I do more than you know but-'' he stops.

''But what?'' I ask and he turns his head around to look at me.

He catches me totally off guard as he crashes his lips onto mine. I almost stumble over but he wraps his wrap around me to hold me in place close to him, I feel my stomach against his hard one. I put my hand on the side of his face and kiss him back trying to keep up with his mouth. He lifts me onto him and before I know it my back hits the bed and he's on top of me between my legs.

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''Your mom seems really nice'' I say as my fingers dance on his chest. I wanna bring up her description of me what he told her.

We both said that we will not ever talk about tonight again. That side of him scared me so much, it's the side of him I never saw before.

''She's okay'' He says and makes me laugh.

''So she uhm says that she heard of me'' I say and he doesn't say anything he just continues to play with my hair.

''How come you told her about me?''

''I just mentioned you once'' He says and I know he's lying, his mom said that he talked about me quite a few times.

He described me as the prettiest girl he has ever seen, did he mean that? I decide not to bring that up now, maybe I will some other time.

I remember his mom's words about how he smiled at her the last time they video called and he was acting different and how he's happier and it's because of me and I think I have realized that too. Hero does smile a bit more, when I first met him he never used to smile, he would just have the same angry expression all the time but whenever we're together somewhere and it's just the two of us he looks so different, he smiles and his eyes are a bright blue and he looks so happy which makes me happy.

I get on top of him and rest my chin on my hands on his chest looking up at him as he looks down at me. I turn my head to the side resting on my ear as I give him the biggest smile and he lowers his brows at me in confusion.

''What are you smiling at?'' he asks.

''You''

''Why?''

''I don't know, it's just that I was thinking about everything that happened since we met, how much has happened since I met you'' I say and he frowns. I meant that in a good way.

''No, no I mean it in a good way, I like spending time with you well, when we're not fighting''

''You need to stop fighting with me'' he says.

''I do not''

''Do too'' He says.

''Do not''

''Then what are you doing right now?'' he asks.

We continue to lie in bed together with me on top of him with my chin resting on my hands on his hard chest while he looks down at me and plays with my ear until he notices something.

''Where'd you get this earring from?'' he asks.

''Uhm Nelson gave it to me'' I say. I have never worn it in front of him before but this is the first time I forgot to take it out. I feel extremely guilty mentioning Nelson with him. Nelson! I need to break up with him soon but I don't know how but it has to be soon, I can't keep doing this to him.

Hero's expressions totally changes and he looks away from me and looks a bit sad.

''But this is nothing compared to the gorgeous necklace you gave me. This is the greatest gift I've ever gotten'' I hold the pendant of the necklace looking down at it as I read the words again for the hundredth time. He brings his eyes back to me and I smile at him and I notice him ease and he gives me a small smile back.

We spend the rest of the night lying in bed with my head on his chest looking up at him while he plays with my hair. We make lots of jokes and Hero makes me laugh at his, he knows so many. He even tells me about some real-life ones back in Ireland and I burst out laughing and try to come up with jokes myself but mine are so lame that he doesn't even get it and when I explain it to him he says that it's the lamest joke he's ever heard and he starts laughing and I join him as we laugh at my lame jokes and the combination of both of us laughing makes a ravishing sound that I wish I could hear forever.

Eventually, Hero and I fall asleep after about an hour of talking, I'm so happy that he told me some things about his life back in Ireland and some of the things he loved doing and still does and how much he misses it.

I just can't stop thinking about what happened in Detroit? It has to be something bad because the way he reacted told me that it was something terrible. I have this strong urge in me to find out more but I won't ask him because he doesn't want to talk about it and we might end up fighting again. I need to find out more on my own, I need to know more about Detroit.

He said that if I knew I wouldn't want to be with him, is it something that horrible? is it something so horrible that it might push me away?

There is nothing that can push me away from him, nothing that can make me not wanna be with me and there is nothing that will ever stop me from liking him.

He falls asleep with his head tilted downwards close to mine as his lips are parted. I trace my finger along his face admiring his perfect features, his jawline, lips, and his hairline. I place a small kiss on his lips then on the snake tattoo on his neck then I move closer to him hugging him even tighter as I fall asleep.