Chapter 33

Kater's POV

I couldn't fathom that am still in my car staring at nothing in particular in the basement garage of my apartment. My version is so blur from the tears that have been flowing uncontrollably all the while I was been driven to my place with these new bodyguards my mother assigned for me.

I can't still come into terms of all that happened today, I just can't. I can't believe my father is in the mafia, the man that I love has always been in the mafia all this time, I'm the daughter of the most powerful man in this dirty cruel life am living in.

I just hate my life, the life that has been nothing but a filthy lie. Everyone has been lying to me, my brother, my mother, Quinn. Does even Cam know what my brother has been through from our past? Who should I even trust? All that everyone is enjoying to do is just lie to me, another after another.

The way that Quinn held me in his arms today as if I would dissapear anytime, as if it would be the last time he would hold me like that just broke my heart into piece. I could still feel the jitters building up in my chest, in my limp as saw how vulnerable he was right infront of me, he even cried for me, he pleaded for me to stay but I couldn't not after everything that has happened. I just didn't know what to do in that moment. Forgive him immediately for the path he didn't choose for himself or just end everything that we have? I just don't fucking know.

'I'm in the mafia, Kater'

Those words are still ringing in my mind. His in the mafia. I didn't even know what was going through my own mind as I sorted through this new information. My brain was telling me to run as far as I could -maybe to the other side of the world, maybe a different country. But my heart was saying otherwise. He said he would always protect me, but how could I know that was true? Did he really expect me to believe that he, a killer, had more morals than those men that attacked me?

I remember how he regarded me with a solemn look in his eyes, waiting for me to say anything, something but I couldn't put my thoughts into words.

The mafia.

My world has been surronded by gangstars like in the movies. How fabulous and ironic. Once again I was so naive to see the truth, Jax played me, my mother lied to me and now Quinn, isn't my life the best? Everyone would like to switch lives with me seeing how dramatic it is.

Everything was just right infront of my face, the way Quinn cordinated everything in the company, the new investors that would come with tones of billions to just invest in one project. The way all the workers in that company would be payed handsomely, even the washroom cleaners they are paid like they stay in the office making new plans for the next meetings and lets not forget how he would go for trips and come all grumpy and cold.

But the problem is my heart still pleads for him, my body aches for his touch, his caresses, his kisses. I still love him even though I remember the threat his sister told me, thinking about it I think she meant every word. Is she even into this business? Now because I know they are in the mafia will they come for me and kill me too like in the movies.

Oh Lord, my life is really fucked up.

I wiped my tears looking through the backseats window, seeing the two bodyguards standing like statues both sides of my car, that my mother changed giving me this land cruizer she recently bought. The smell of how new it is just suffocates me, it doesn't know which world it was made into.

I take my phone dailing my brother's number through my blurred my eyes because of the tears, I just want to know if he knew this too and if he did why didn't he tell me. I have a right too, to know everything that involves me. The call goes to voicemail after three attempts which only pissed me off than am already. Why isn't he picking up? What is so important than to take my calls? Oh right his annersary with Cam or at whatever Cam call it.

"Um hi, I really need to speak to you. So please.." my voice broke, a small sob leaving my lips, "..please call me when you get this" I ended the voicemail for him, my tears never stopping to flow.

I take two steady breathes before I opened the door letting myself out of the car, the two men already standing by my side not letting me have my free time. Maybe they think am a loner seeing have been crying all the while from the company.

I make my way to my apartment feeling all wasted up and as if all my energy has been drained up. Just as I reach my door I find two other men wearing the same attire as the ones beside me infront of my door already opening for me the door.

Just great, I will be having four bodyguards following me around. Thanks mother, I really appreciate your concern for me. I rolled my eyes entering my apartment happy that they won't follow me inside here, I wonder how Cam will react when she finds two enmours men right outside our door.

I pour myself some water to cool myself down before I head my room and take a long shower to atleast release the tension in my body. Now that I have no job, no freedom and no nothing I will just have to stay in this apartment until my graduation day.

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I am being woken up by my dry throat and the need to quench my thirst because of the same nightmare I usually have. I unconciously look for the jug of water that is on my stand, not feeling like to open my eyes but I had felt the jug of water is empty.

Just great, now I have to wake to fetch some water.

I check the time in my phone seeing its almost midnight. I haven't even slept for long from the thinking have being doing. If I wear a child right I would be forcing myself to go back to sleep fearing the demons will come to haunt but now I know the demons are also there in daylight lurking around you when you have no clue.

I switch on the lights on my lampstand, stretching a little before I started dragging myself to the kitchen. I pour myself some water feeling the cold thing hit my throat refreshing me a little.

"Its wonderful to finally see you again, Katerlina"

I shocked on my drink, hearing a man's voice from my living room and I immediately run to switch on the lights to see who is in my apartment. My heart thudded in my chest as I switched them on, seeing the man infront of me smiling warmly at me.

I can't believe his here, how could he enter here with all the bodyguards my mother assigned for me? How did he know where am living?

He still looks the same after this twelve long years, his brown eyes, brown hair that has a little of grey stricking in the corners. The warm smile that he used to give me when I ran to his arms. People say I have a stricking resemblance to my father than my mother, which is true and I hate myself for that. Even if his a bit old you can still see the charm he always had.

My father is here, right infront of me. Not even giving a damn that am running for my bat so I can bit him up.

"I wouldn't do that if I were you" he warned me getting up and I catch a glimse of his gun hanging in his waistband. I tried my best not to seem scared but who am I kidding, his a mafia, a fucking leader of that crime world, he can take my life with a snap of his hand.

"Why-why are you here? How-how did you manage to get inside here?" I tried not to sound scared but by the way am stammering its not helping. He chuckled deeply scratching his chin before he sat down plopping one of his legs over the other.

"Those bodyguards your mother assigned are nothing compared to my men. They are bleeding out right now, right outside your door"

I gasped immediately slapping my hand on my mouth stopping myself from screaming. This man right infront of me is not the father I knew. His a cold hearted, ruthless man who doesn't give a shit about anyone. His just took out four trained men with so much ease am sure his men right outside waiting for me, or do they want to kill me too.

I stayed still on my spot not knowing what I should do. Should I try to run away? Should I scream for help? What should I do?

I watch him stand up, walking towards me, each stride screaming the power he has. He left out a breathe taking my hands in his but I immediately scramble away from him, how can he think I would allow him to touch me after everything have learnt about him.

"You don't know how much have wanted to this close to you for all these twelve years. I have been watching you and your brother but I couldn't find it in me to come to the both of you-"

"Wait, you have been watching us? That means you knew we were alive?" I cut him off confused by what he said earlier. He looked at me with the same warm eyes he used to look at me when I was young that for a minute I forgot what he does, what he is.

I moved away from him, wanting to have some distance between us. He chuckled a little from my behaviour which made me to scowl at him,he has no right to remove that sound especially at this moment. "From your behaviour I guess your mother told you what I do" he said sitting down removing his gun from his waistband. I held my breathe as I watched him weigh his gun before setting it on the coffee table. "Now am unharmed, sit so we can talk , now" he said more like an order motioning to the couch opposite from him.

From the way he said it, he seems like a man who doesn't like to be refused. Funny, am assuming what my father is like instead of knowing him. I hestitedly sat down before squaring my shoulder, I want him to know that am not afraid of him even though am dying here. "You look more beautiful than when you were little" he said offering me a smile and I only rolled my eyes. Is he here to talk about how have changed.

"Is this why you came here,buldging into my house to tell me how beautiful I am?" I asked huffing a little remembering how he told he just killed innocent people right infront of my door. "Your just like your mother, wild just like her" wow we are really doing this. I crossed my arms over my chest not really happy to listen to this shit.

"I always knew you were alive even if it took some time to be sure of that"

"So it was you, who tried to take me away in Italy?" I asked him and he frowned a little before massaging his temples, "no that was one of my many alliances" he answered and from the hint of his tone the alliance part is more like an enemy. "They found out my family is alive and they knew the best part to hit me is by taking away my daughter"

"Wait, what? So your telling me the reason am in danger is because of all the crappy things you do out there?" I am frustrated, no beyond frustrated. Even when his not in my life he still comes to haunt me with his many demons.

"Lets not get ahead of ourselves, now" he said sternly giving me a cold stare which I almost cowered away but I didn't because I almost. "You are in danger and thats why am here"

"Right, right. After 12 years now is when you show up and try to protect me. Nice, thats great. Just fantastic"

"Don't say that" he looked at me as if his pleading for me to understand him but why should I even trust him. His a gang leader, a mafia, his from the crime family. They kill not love, they don't have that kind of feelings if all they think of is when they have to kill someone.

"Don't say what? That I haven't had a father figure for 12 years" I said getting up tagging my hair lightly, "did..did you even think about us? You said that you knew we were alive, why didn't you reach out for us? Why didn't you-" I didn't even know what to say next. That I cried for him to at least come back and tell me why he left us all to be a lie that it was actually my mother who took us away from him. I know am supposed to be thankful to her but his still my father, I always knew him as my guardian angel. My protector.

"Believe me I wanted to but I just couldn't. I saw how happy all of you were without me and coming back would only bring misery to your lives, to your mother's live. She tried so hard to cop with my life but I knew, she knew she didn't belong there, neither of you belonged there. Thats why I had to let you go, all of you"

I felt like running to him, I wanted to feel how it felt like to hug my dad once again but I just couldn't bring myself to that. Reality is he's not the man I knew him as, his a monster, his a cold blooded killer that is what he truly is.

"But now I came here to get you because I have to take you"

"What? Take me where? Am not going anywhere with you" how could he think I would go anywhere especially with him. One thing I know is that I can't just go anywhere with a man who just killed all four of my bodyguards and is casually sitted here as if he just didn't committe any murder, well its not him who technically killed them but he ordered them.

"But thats the problem am not asking you, am informing you. I was to practically drag you out of here but I had a change of heart"

I looked at him as if horns had just grown on his head. Oh now his gonner ne a control freak. "How nice of you. I appreciate the kind gesture but I never asked for it" okey I am being a total bitch now and do I care? No I don't really give a fuck about it partly because he already ruined my life and because I don't know how to control my mouth. "...but to make myself clear am not going anywhere" I stated not giving in and see him smirk removing the sleek device from his pocket.

"I knew it would come to this thats why I usually have a plan B" he stated tapping his phone and I eyed him not really catching up to what a stupid device can do to make me agree with his silly command. "You see since I knew you were all alive I made sure to keep tabs on you all, that means I know all your friends, everywhere you go, what you eat and oh I also know who you take to bed with" he said the last part as if he was gaging.

"So if you refuse, I have some men near your friends, Chloe I think house and Quinn Linch I never thought I would be interacting with that family again. Tell me what did you see in that boy, I guess you never knew he is a cold hearted killer just like your father?" he looked at me as if searching for the answer in my face, which I guess gave in because by the mention of his name it just made my heart sink, I clenched my fists trying not to give away what I feel about him. "Mmh that answers my questions, well to be exact his much worse than me but you love him, I see it in your eyes. Its just like the same love I saw in your mother's eyes when she looked at me"

Its true I still love him even if he has so many flaws, my heart still clenches when I think of him or even hear his name. "My men will bomb up their places with only one call, and you won't even know they existed" he said coldly not even giving me a hint of it as a joke as his face held no emotion. Why would he do that? He knows by doing that he would only hurt me more but I guess he doesn't care. His only objective is to save his empire, to show that he can never be defeated. To show his the one in control, that his in charge.

"Why are you doing this?"

"Because Katerlina, when I want something I must get isn't that what you pictured me as"