6. Hardness

I pulled out my knife. I slowly closed my eyes and put it away, tears streaming down my face. I ran out of Dargas house. I ran all the way to the Skull Crushers and walked to the front door where all the guards rushed to me and asked me if I was okay. I just nodded and pushed them away and went into my room. I layed on my bed and bawled. I cried so hard. I just wanted all the pain to be over. I wanted my pain to go away. I wanted to throw up, the stress was so bad. I decided to take my own advice from the voice in the back of my head. I shut my door, locked it, turned off and sat in the dark. I sat their. Not doing anything except sitting their.

4 months later...

I'm still in my room. Sitting in the dark. All of the Skull Crushers are so worried, I am too. I'm barley eating, probably twice a week. I never ever come out of my room, the SC brings the food to me. I threw up a lot, from all the stress. I haven't token a shower in 4 months, I reeked, I needed to shave, raven hair was forming on my face, I haven't changed since I came in my bedroom, haven't been to school, and I haven't talked to anyone in over 4 months. Today I was feeling tired, so I cried myself to sleep, when I woke up, I decide that I was thirsty and wanted to get some water, so for the first time in 4 months, I walked out of my bedroom. Everone of the Skull Crushers looked at me and rushed toward me, hugging me, crying and kissing my head. I still haven't spoken yet, I'm just not ready. Silent tears poured down my face. I walked over and poured myself a cup of water. I walked over to the lounge and put on Stranger Things.

4 more months later...

I have been active. I shave now, take showers, change, still dont eat much, but I drink and am out of my room everyday from 6am to 11pm. I still haven't talked yet since, it has almost been a year since I've been to school. But I cant yet. I am in a pretty happy mood today, so I walk out of my room and go up to a Skull Crusher, Drainy.

"Can I have a Pina Colota?" I asked, and his face went dark and then his smile grew huge. He jumped up and down excitedly and screamed. Everyone rushed to him.

"Guys, Noah ordered a Pina Coloda!" He shrieked and everone ms face stayed the same.

"Yeah, he always does that now." They all looked annoyed.

"No! He SPOKE!" Everyone gasped and started jumping up and down. I smiled at them and they all started bawling. I just realized I hadn't smiled in 8 months. I sighed and laughed. I was so happy. The whole gang started to scream and jump and some even shiver.

"Guys, calm down." I squeaked, and they all went full on bawling and hugging and screaming. I guess they did care about me. They all hugged me and I got squeezed. I sighed, happy I was in someone's arms, and for almost 365 days, I didn't cry.